hello! i was thinking about this since weeks ago and i think it’s time by now. i’m sorry because i couldn’t post, fortunately i have a job now so it’s taking my time and i don’t want to screw it up, that and also because i tried to be more active in streaming and stuff for sj, i deeply apologize but i can’t continue writing currently. i tried and it’s just awful. the situation in the fandom is not so good lately. about what’s happening i just want to stay please don’t crucify all the members for a mistake from 1 of them, don’t insult them, i don’t even think i have voice in this situation, but if people decide to leave they have all the right to do it, just please don’t throw hate at them for it i think they have enough with all kpop community against them and mentioning things from years ago and it’s sad. at this point i just want them to retire from the industry and live quietly because is nuts how much hate they receive, i think everyone deserves to be happy but this is just my opinion. i’m just leaving it here. i deactivated my other blogs because idk it was like a waste for me, i can’t keep up with things and i never learn. i thought about deactivating this one too but i’ll let it be.
and also i am sorry for those who sent their requests because there were a lot of great and wonderful ideas but i’m not doing well mentally talking and i just need to focus in my future and get over it because i have a lot of issues and it seems that i was like just keeping it for myself and i think i need another kind of help or someone else helping me besides being alone. thank you if you keep reading my fics and thank you to everyone who came to me to write their ideas, it was a wonderful experience and helped me a lot to practice my english. please take care and have a good day, drink water and stay healthy. thank you. :)
rambling: soooo during my small vacation from tumblr i saw on fb a fan acc that reposted one of my layouts and a lot of layouts created by blogs and posted here on tumblr. i'm not bothered, i mean it's cool to see that people use them, but don't claim them as yours? or at least tell people that you actually didn't make them? that's it, if you want people to think you made them because they're pretty or look cool just don't, for other people this might look easy or like it's nothing, but it's not really. this is tumblr users work and tbh there isn't much sj content in here to "steal", so... finally i didn't contact the acc because it was my personal fb, i just have one and tbh i don't want to involve in petty fights because of it and want to be private about me and shit. thing is don't claim stuff as yours or at least clarify that in your post, because i saw a comment saying “oh you did them? it’s so pretty” and the poster hearted the comment and didn’t answer or clarified that in fact, they didn’t, what does that mean? personally i think it's ok if you use them and stuff but don't repost them, that also includes other social media and websites, not only tumblr. or give credits when you repost them, that’s the least i ask for.
Anon said: hello! may i request for an angst w/ heechul? tysm for your time 🥺
Summary: Slowly, Heechul forgot about you scared to go to the next step, but you had enough and needed to move on from everything, specially him.
Pairing: Heechul x reader.
Word count: 755.
A/N: requests are still closed. :)
MASTERLIST
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Standing on the other side of the room Heechul let out a long sigh with a weeping gaze, his eyes teary. He couldn’t believe your words, suddenly everything around him felt like it was crumbling. You stayed silent and unable to look at him in the eyes, you stared at the wall by your side the whole time his brown eyes were on you.
“What do you mean you’re ending this?” he whispered.
You rolled your eyes tried to smile, but a grin was all you could replicate. A sad grin.
“Heechul, do you even know why I feel like this is over?”
He was shocked at your statement, but inside he felt embarrassed. Of course he knew.
“You’re not here for me, you never did,” you said, dryly. “I was the one behind you, always trying to see you on time and I even did impossible things to be by your side when you didn’t. Never. I’m sick of this situation.”
Heechul looked down at his feet as you talked, now more than never he would like to hide far away because he hurt you. He knew he did, but if he was going to run from you it was going to be worse. He avoided a lot of things with you before, he did for years. But now he wasn’t able to do the same thing.
“Do you have something to say?!”
Your yell caused him to shut his eyes. He caused you so much pain.
“I am so sorry…”
“I don’t want your apologies!” you interrupted abruptly. “Just tell me the truth.”
He locked his gaze on your eyes, a single tear ran down your cheek and he wanted to swipe it away, but he was an asshole and he didn’t deserve even to touch you.
“What do you want to know?” he asked slowly.
You shrugged, a sad smile curving on your lips. “I don’t know, maybe if you really loved me.”
Heechul bit his lip. “I did.”
“You did?”
“I do know.”
“Bullshit.”
Heechul let out a soft laugh, full of pain.
“I still don’t understand what you expect from me, Y/N,” he started. “I wasn’t the best boyfriend, or the best partner, but I love you. Please don’t leave what we have like this.”
“I can’t do that, Heechul,” you tried to leave, but he grabbed your arm. He couldn’t let you go.
“Why? We’ve been distant these past weeks, tell me,” he begged.
A sigh left your lips. “I’m leaving the country, ok? I found a new job and I need to move on from here, I quitted to everything,” you confessed, looking at him and how he was fighting with the tears on his eyes. “And I quitted to you.” The grip on your arm loosened softly. “We’re not going to fix this, let’s face it… For our own sake.”
“You’re right,” he admitted with a low voice. “We’re too late now.”
“You are late, Heechul. You always did.”
He was silent. Knowing you almost gave up on your dreams because of him and how you’d always support him made him realize that you weren’t living for yourself, but him. Heechul avoided important things, avoided important dates and avoided serious relationships, until he started to avoid you. It wasn’t fair and he had to face it. He had to face reality. A new one, where you will be gone.
“I understand and I’m sorry because of it,” he whispered.
You nodded. “We’re never going to have a happy ending, know that.”
You left his place after those last words and as soon as you walked on the hallway the tears showed up. You cried until you reach the elevator, fortunately there was no one to see you breaking down. The man you thought was the love of your life turned to be everything, but what you expected. He changed and you had all the right to leave and start over again. It hurted, but you expected the pain would go away somehow. Sooner or later it will do.
Heechul’s heart was aching, even before you left him alone in the living room. He didn’t know you were parting, maybe forever and the thought made him explode in a low cry sitting on the couch and burying his face on his hands. He was an idiot. He knew he did deserve it, but the pain was going to take much more than your last words to fade. He tried to reach you, but you walked so fast and shut the door without even looking back. All that he wanted was to hold your hand just one last time.
Have you seen Hyuk's room? He has a little tent in it. The group's reaction to him trying to hide his partner in there. Like who would roast him, scold him etc?
posted anon! thanks for requesting, I hope you like it!! ❤️
Super Junior reaction to Eunhyuk trying to hide his partner in his little tent
Anon said: Have you seen Hyuk's room? He has a little tent in it. The group's reaction to him trying to hide his partner in there. Like who would roast him, scold him etc?
A/N: hi! I’m half back? lol I’ll be posting just fics and some requests occasionally, don’t have the mood to reblog and be around here, sorry! I’m still trying to be healthier, hope you’re all doing well! And this was so cute to write, I loved it skskks. ❤️
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Leeteuk: he’ll be a laughing mess tbh, would tease him but not as much as the others. Inside, he’s like a proud parent because Eunhyuk seems very happy with his s/o. Would tell the members to stop after a few minutes so he can defend himself.
Heechul: teasing, teasing until the end but will do it with love lol. Heechul’s favorite part is when he blushes so hard his ears turn red and will ask him to present his partner to everyone since they don’t them yet.
Yesung: the most teasing one. He will take revenge on him spilling the most embarrasing habits Eunhyuk has and his s/o will laugh loudly from the tent while Eunhyuk is a blushing mess bc of it. So cute.
Shindong: he’ll tease, like heavy teasing but also exposing him (saying he can’t cook and stuff lol). Eunhyuk will try to shut him but he can’t, so Shindong will keep up with it and when he thinks is enough he will stop and ask him to present his partner to everyone.
Donghae: he’ll be so happy for Eunhyuk but would try to tease him poorly, so he would just hug him or hit him playfully until Eunhyuk is a blushing mess.Probably the only one who knows his s/o before any other member in the group.
Siwon: he will watch everything from behind, will laugh and might feel a little bad for all the teasing. Eventually also will join Heechul and Shindong and would beg Eunhyuk to present his partner to everyone.
Ryeowook: thinks it’s cute, but he’s evil, let’s be honest. He’ll tease a lot and will expose him with old dorm stories and his bad habits to make his partner laugh and embarrass him at the same time.
Kyuhyun: if any of the members forgot something to tell about his habits, be sure he’ll remind everyone about it. Would make sure to say it loud and clear for you to hear and would tease him because he can’t cook and basically is a big baby lmao.
Eunhyuk: would blush sooo hard and laugh flustered because now his partner knows almost everything. After the whole group calms down, he will present properly his partner to everyone, but the teasing will continue so he has to be ready for it.
hi! i left for like 2 days (again lol), but i’m just having horrible pains on my body, mostly my back and my legs, idk why, i’m sorry i haven’t been posting fics and requests, i’m busy cleaning and throwing garbage because my home is a huge mess and also i’ve been stressed bc it seems i can’t find a job currently and i need to save money for school, i’m so unlucky. :D that’s basically the reason why i’m not on tumblr right now, sorry because i haven’t been posting the requests, i promise i’ll do it soon after i recover. by the way requests are closed (still), they were open for some stuff except scenarios/oneshots, but right now they’re all closed! i’ve been receiving a couple of them, and i really wish i could make them all but i can’t write like immediately, so yeah. ;; i’m sorry, i’ll be back sooner or later. thanks if you read this, drink water and be safe. ♡
fav non title track: dímelo, dumb litty and don't recall but the hidden version idk, they just know hits AAAAAGH and the cover they did for taki taki? BRUH 💀💀💀
fav mv: hola hola, they look so happy and cute, I love them :(((
just want to say that you’re still my most favourite writer 💯 and thank you for always mentioning me in anything! I really really appreciate it! Here’s to the endless writings! ☺️
hi! omg thank you;—; that means a lot to me! I'm struggling sometimes but people like you help to keep going with it ü💙💘 thanks hon, I love your writing as well and everything you make for sj, thanks for feeding us with content! 💗💗
Requested by anon! I think this ended up becoming more SuJu as dads versus SuJu as single dads. I can do specific member single dad scenarios if you’d liked! Below the cut ‘cause it’s long!
Hi, I love your writing and thank you so much for writing for Suju, it's so hard to find fics and such on tumblr, you literally make my day whenever you post something. If it's not too much, could you please do a "making out with Leeteuk"? I'm sorry to annoy you and if you decide not to I completely understand. Thank you for taking time out of your day and reading this!
hi anon! tysm for your kind words, im glad im able to bring a little happiness to someone else💗💗💗 the headcanon is posted and I hope you like it:> thanks for requesting, Leeteuk is my favorite rn hahaha I live for him ;—; I really wish there were more blogs that write for them, I'm doing what I can hahaha thanks anon! you're awesome ☺️💘
