Thoughts of 2018

[365-in-2018]

Caesar

Beware the Ides of March

You could be stabbed

Or fall in love

Which would be far worse

You’ve spent far too long protecting yourself

Building up an army

Creating a barrier so you won’t get hurt again

Making close friends

Who would die for you

But sometimes friends

Can turn into more

And they become the most important person

In your entire life

Everybody else is trying to get close to you

But I borrowed an arrow from an old friend

To deliver the wound that seals our fate

[365-in-2018]

Pi

You and I: irrational but infinite

[365-in-2018]

Shorthair

Cuddling with you makes life okay

[365-in-2018]

Break

Leaving you gets harder every time

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Beginning

This is the closest we’ve ever been

Both physically and emotionally

I don’t know what caused the shift

Maybe yesterday’s events affected it

Maybe you’re just in a good mood

Maybe you hit your head

Whatever the reason, I appreciate it

Or maybe you’re just finally letting yourself express

What you’ve kept bottled up for so long

Afraid it would be taken the wrong way

Or that you would have feelings

You promised yourself you’d never have again

Because last time this happened you got hurt

I don’t know for sure

But something has definitely changed

You’ve gotten sweeter

There’s intention behind your actions

You let me borrow your clothes

And only jokingly complain about it

Everything is different now

We’ll see if it continues in a week

If not, it was a good day

But if so

I’m looking forward to it

Because this could be the beginning of something beautiful

[365-in-2018]

Trip

I’d travel anywhere with you

And today we added another journey

To our ever-growing list

Some parts were a little uncertain

And I thought we might be lost

But we made it back safely

With so many unforgettable memories

We fell asleep tangled up in each other’s arms

Reflecting on the day’s travels

And at the end of it all

There’s still nobody I’d rather have by my side

So come on, let’s go

We’ve got a lot of world to see

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Dreaming

Half-asleep perceptions are often skewed

Influenced by dreams and lack of context

So when you said I was beautiful

I could have been dreaming

My overactive imagination gets ahead of me

But this time I don’t think so

Because you speak with actions instead of words

And your actions said “I love you”

And when I woke up

Your eyes said the same thing

[365-in-2018]

Picturesque

Soft light on your face

Deep blue behind you

Dark shadows frame your face

And rest under your eyes

The brief expression of sadness

Reveals what’s behind all the smiles

And though no camera recorded it

And nobody else noticed

That’s the real you, both sadness and smiles

And you’re picture-perfect

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Chess

I’ve never handled loss well

People

Relationships

Games

But today was different

Because it wasn’t about me losing

It was about you winning

So even though you absolutely decimated me

I’m happy for your success

So good game

Also, P.S. –

Next time you’re going down

So get ready, bitch

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Storm

I woke up to the sound of rain and your snores

Both gentle but persistent

The two most calming sounds

I can possibly imagine

It was so hard to get up

Leaving you was almost impossible

You made me want to ignore everything

And come back under the covers

To a world at peace

With only the sounds of rain on the window

And you stealing my heart

You don’t realize it

But every breath you breathe takes mine away

And you’re stunning

In this moment

Pure and innocent

No worries or anxiety

As you should be

Content with a warm bed

And a dry room

Safe from the rain, you sleep

I kiss your forehead and go

Out into the cold, wet, unforgiving world

But I’ll come back to you soon

And we can sleep through the storms together

[365-in-2018]

Sharpie

Designs reveal themselves under your touch

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Cinnabon

Your creativity continues to amaze me

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Smoothies

Your thoughtfulness in everything inspires me

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“Singing”

Road trips + enthusiastic screeching + you = goals

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March

New month, new adventures with you

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Mend

Reconciliation is always sweetest with you

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Argue

Our stupidity’s fucked us once again