Judith

restaring. pls ignore my username i have no idea how to change it .... and it kinda grew on me anyway :)

[36questionswithnataliee]

hi. deleted old posts because i needed to start somewhere truthful. for anyone who follows this, i'll come clear, i’m judith, not... natalie.

that’s something i should’ve said out loud a long time ago. lying to the person i love was the biggest mistake i could have made. now i’m here, trying to figure out how to make things right... or at least try.

i’ll be using this space to document what’s real, what i’m learning, and everything i’m doing to try to salvage the only relationship i’ve ever truly had.

[36answerswithjase]

hi jase. i’m outside, on the porch. i was knocking earlier but maybe you didn’t hear me over the drilling??

i figured i’d message here since i think you’ve blocked me everywhere else... anyway, i’m here. just.. waiting.

Yeah. I heard you knocking. I just assumed if I stayed still long enough you'd, like, despawn...?

I'll be out in a minute Nat-Judith..

[36questionswithnataliee]

pfft. despawning would’ve been wildly convenient though. but here i am! :)

[36answerswithjase]

I’m coming out, stay on your side of the room though, okay? Ok.

[36questionswithnataliee]

okay yes, staying on my side, fine. just listen, i have an envelope and if you check what’s inside it’ll make sense, i swear-

...wait is that a duck!!??

are we in the fourth season of friends?? ^O^

[36questionswithnataliee]

...you think im a rachel.

[36answerswithjase]

hi jase. i’m outside, on the porch. i was knocking earlier but maybe you didn’t hear me over the drilling??

i figured i’d message here since i think you’ve blocked me everywhere else... anyway, i’m here. just.. waiting.

Yeah. I heard you knocking. I just assumed if I stayed still long enough you'd, like, despawn...?

I'll be out in a minute Nat-Judith..

[36questionswithnataliee]

pfft. despawning would’ve been wildly convenient though. but here i am! :)

[36answerswithjase]

I’m coming out, stay on your side of the room though, okay? Ok.

[36questionswithnataliee]

okay yes, staying on my side, fine. just listen, i have an envelope and if you check what’s inside it’ll make sense, i swear-

...wait is that a duck!!??

are we in the fourth season of friends?? ^O^

[36answerswithjase]

hi jase. i’m outside, on the porch. i was knocking earlier but maybe you didn’t hear me over the drilling??

i figured i’d message here since i think you’ve blocked me everywhere else... anyway, i’m here. just.. waiting.

Yeah. I heard you knocking. I just assumed if I stayed still long enough you'd, like, despawn...?

I'll be out in a minute Nat-Judith..

[36questionswithnataliee]

pfft. despawning would’ve been wildly convenient though. but here i am! :)

[36questionswithnataliee]

okay. i’m outside. on the porch. i can hear something inside so i know he’s there, he’s just... not opening the door.

i don’t know if this is going to work, but i really need him to hear me out

[36questionswithnataliee]

update! stopped a little ways from the house. i thought once i got here i’d feel more sure about this but i don’t.

i'm not sure if this is going to work..... not even sure if he’ll open the door.

[36questionswithnataliee]

judith pls don’t tell me ur going to find a MAN

i’m not going to find a man... i’m going to find MY MAN 😌

[36questionswithnataliee]

small update: i left my charger at a denny’s and my phone has maybe 30 minutes of battery left if i’m lucky.

going to drive for a bit and update later. not posting while driving because i’m trying to make at least one good decision today.

[36questionswithnataliee]

spent the afternoon doing some extremely normal and not at all concerning digging. turns out my husband isn’t as hard to find as he thinks he is.

roughly a 27 hour drive from here... not sure if this is a good idea but guess that’s where i’m going.