Sypnopsis - in which Vil, Malleus, kalim, Epel, and Silvers insecurities get the best of them. You their partner try your very best to help them work through it! Gn reader x multi twst boys
Warnings - cursing, mentions of self hatred, jealousy, overall angst!
A/n - All young people face issues with confidence I wanted to touch on that with this fic. These characters themselves are imperfect and I want to give my takes on issues they may have. REBLOGS AND TAGS ARE APPRECIATED!
âCanât you see Iâm trying to work right now. If youâre not gonna be of help then go back to your dorm,â he fumed. You were shocked at your boyfriendâs outburst. Especially since you had only tried to help him.
Vil wanted you to do his makeup. Try to make him look as nice as possible. He was tired of being type casted always a villain. You tried many styles some more extreme then others. At some point you just decided to ditch the effort all together.
Vil looked best in his natural state. But his insecurities didnât allow him to see that. So you thought it would be funny to do trad goth makeup on him. Show him whatever you put him in he would never look as pretty as his bare striking beauty.
But he ended up yelling at you and crashing some of the products to the ground. His voice felt like it echoed off the walls booming into your soul. âI was just trying to help. Help you see that it doesnât matter what youâre in. The true beauty is your natural face.â
You wanted to touch his shoulder console him. But you didnât know if that would set him off again. So you stepped back a bit. You picked up the items off the floor slowly placing them back on the vanity. When you looked up you could see his reflection in the mirror crying.
âVil?â You spoke softly trying to comfort him. âDear please donât cry Iâll help you remove the makeup now. Iâm sorry it was wrong of me,â you rambled. âNo. It wasnât wrong of you,â he interrupted.
âYou were only trying to make me feel better. And yet I pushed you away. I never want you to have to be on edge around me. Especially not because of my own problems,â he muttered.
âOh darling.â You sighed while sitting on his lap. âFirst of all youâre too pretty to cry. Save your tears for the stage. Second off itâs alright I forgave you 1 minute and 29 seconds ago. I know how hard it is for you Vil.â
âHow pressured you feel to fit in a certain role. If I have to remind you everyday and every second I will. Youâre beautiful so beautiful many will kill for your face. And the public canât get your beauty. They donât see past your face.â
âBut plenty of others around you know how you truly are.â Your hand tangled in his while your eyes met. âI know Iâm not everyone in the world but Iâm somebody. I just know youâre my hero. This relationship saved me. As as you build more connections real connections those will save you.â
Vil chuckled a bit âWow my potato giving me advice. Iâd never thought I see the day. Thank you my love youâre correct it seems as though I need to focus on whatâs important. Thatâs you I never want you to leave. Especially back to that dump of a dorm,â he gagged.
You had just come back from a hang out with Ace and Duece Grim followed in the door behind you. You placed your shopping bags down on the counter. And placed your keys on the hook.
You took your shoes off at the door tucking them on the broken shelf. And then you went upstairs to your room. You began to undress while thinking about your day. Your group had went to a brand new amusement park. You even got to get in the pool.
Just as you were about to take off your swimsuit you felt a hand on your shoulder. You swore your soul shot out of your body. âWhat the fuck Mal you scared me!â
âMy apologies where are you coming in from,â he wondered. âI just came back from that new amusement park it was so fun. I went on a bunch of roller coasters! And of course I went on the carousel thatâs my favorite,â you exclaimed.
You expected Malleus to ask curious inquiries about your day like he usually had. But this time he was silent. âSomething wrong,â you asked. You sat down on your bed while he stood in front of you.
âDid you not wish to bring me along.â He Inquired looking you straight in the eyes. âNo Mal it wasnât like that I swear.â You rolled your eyes at his pondering. âYou know I donât have to take you everywhere right? Youâre not a puppy.â
âI am fully aware of that but you usually take me along with you. I get it itâs because of your friends. They donât like me so you donât want me to come. You are sparing them of my presence.â
âNo itâs not that they donât like you they do I swear! Itâs just that you can be kind ofâŠâ. Kind of what,â he challenged. âKind of intimidating and scary. I like to say youâre an acquired taste,â you admit.
âYou humans are so weak and docile sometimes I wonder why I came to this academy in the first place,â he huffed. âWoah why are you upset with me Mal. I have a life outside of you! And Iâm allowed to live it.â
âI understand that. In due time you will forget about me all together. Youâll listen to the ongoing whispers and rumors from the hall and grow distant. Our love which once bloomed will be a withered lily in the back of your mind.â
You got up to pull him onto the bed. Soon you were on top of him hugging him. âStop daydreaming and look at whatâs happening now. I still love you stupid always have always will,â you grinned.
âMal I get it you can be a lonely fae but you have to accept me spending time with others. We need times without each other. In fact in human relationships thatâs how they grow. Time apart shows grit.â
âI know I know but I missed you,â he whined. Only you could see this soft side of him. You stroked his hair and horns. âI missed you too I even begged Ace and Duece to bring you next time,â you confessed. âOh and you donât have a choice but not to go because I brought you a season pass.â
âFine then I guess Iâll accept the offer,â he scoffs. âYou guess?! You mean you will I spent my hard earned money of that Mal!â
âDo you not like it?â Kalim asks examining the necklace or you would rather call it armor. âItâs not that itâs ugly itâs just a little much,â you admit. You had no idea how one could style the piece of machinery outside of a wedding.
âPeople in my culture normally wear stuff like this. I think it suits you just fine.â Well Kalim no offense but you know an awful amount of rich people. With loaded closets and Iâm not one of them.â
âSomething like this just doesnât suit me.â You looked in his crystal mirror cringing. âWhile you might as well be rich now! You are my partner after all.â He smiled blindly making you rub your temple.
âKalim we are not married yet! And even if we were. I still wouldnât take this.â So you wonât accept a token of my love.â He asks eyebrows knitting together. âNo I didnât mean it like that-
âYou know Y/n Jamil calls me superficial all the time. Iâm starting to think heâs right I donât even know what to give my partner,â he sighs. âKalim donât beat yourself up about it. Youâre trying to be over the top because you were raised that more is better,â you explained.
âBesides you already got me everything I ever wanted. Itâs actually crazy how you renovated one of the hallways in ramshackle to a closet.â He smiled at your compliment feeling a bit better.
âAnd I think silver suits me better!â Silver? My love gold is all the rage but if thatâs what you wish then an entire silver catalog will be at your door tomorrow!!â You chuckle at his enthusiasm kissing him on his cheek.
âI told ya Iâm fine already,â he raged. His pretty face was snarled into an ugly frown. âBut baby youâre throwing up,â you insisted. Epel was still leaning over your toilet his face pale and temperature rising.
âWas it something you ate? Did you run a little too much this morning,â you questioned. âItâs none of those I would like it if you would stop quizzing me!â Alright then.â You got up off the floor next to him. Of course you couldnât just leave him there.
So you put a bottle of water and a couple of tums on a tray outside of the bathroom door for him. You went back to the kitchen as he remained in the bathroom. Your concern was growing as he was taking longer and longer. You sat at the dinner table looking at Epels empty plate.
You were even about to clean the dishes before you heard a crash from the bathroom. âEpel?!â You called before barging in the door. You came in the bathroom to find him on the floor.
He was shirtless and sobbing. âOh my sevens whatâs wrong? Baby please talk to me did you hurt yourself?â You looked all over his body for marks only to find nothing. âItâs not that darlinâ Iâm sorry for all the noise. I just couldnât hold myself up after seeing myself if the mirror.â
You listened to him in shock. Before you could ask what he meant he continued further âI know you like my body and you tell me about it all the time. But I still just think Iâm so skinny and frail. I wanna be like this big Savannaclaw guys.â
âYou know real sporty but no matter what I do. Like for the past five days Iâve been stuffing myself full of protein nothing helps.â You pressed your forehead against his. âEpel I love every inch of you. But if you want to change I will also accept that.â
âYou comparing yourself to others that were already genetically built like that or had years worth of transformations. You have to take time just like they did. And through every step of the way you have to still appreciate you.â
âJust like I do,â you expressed. âThereâs a reason I kiss every inch of your body,â you remind. âI know I know,â he blushed. âI promise Iâll take things slower,â he sighs. âI have to remember I got a partner with this body and those stocky guys donât so clearly Iâm doinâ something right,â he hoots.
âIâm sorry I didnât get to see it I swear I had my alarm set and everything!â Yeah right.â You rolled your eyes at him this is the third time this week he had brushed you off. âJust tell me you donât wanna hang out itâs okay,â you doubted.
âCome on Y/n you know thatâs not fair,â he rebutted. âIâve been dealing with this forever and itâs already debilitating enough. You accusing me of stuff isnât gonna help anything.â
You stared at him blankly. âEveryday I wonder if great danger were to come to you or father or anyone else I care about if I were to be able to protect you? I wake up sometimes covered in sweat from nightmares. I could be right next to you snoozing.â
His hand rubs his temples. You turn around in the creaky hallway. âGod Iâm sorry Silver I let my paranoia get the best of me,â you spoke. âI think my paranoia is worse so itâs okay,â he laughed.
âI just wanna stop being such a lousy boyfriend. You deserve my attention and time.â Silver youâre not a lousy boyfriend! I just never knew your sleep problems were this bad. You really put into perspective how much it was affecting you.â
âIf anything I was the bad partner,â you cringed. âNothing can be bad about you. Thatâs why I try to spend every waking moment with you. Im probably not supposed to say this but I also end up in your dreams a lot,â he confesses.
âSilver no thatâs embarrassing,â you squeal! âWhy cause youâre always thinking about -.â You balled his lips together âfinish that sentence and Iâll put you in an eternal slumber,â you threatened. ïżŒ
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