*Faint Screaming*

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22

I feel guilty for having moved on

While you’re stuck at 22

Everyday my steps grow lighter

And each step haunted by you

I never consider life without you

But as summer fades to fall

I’ve stopped thinking about 22

Rather the life beyond it all

Is it so wrong for me to be happy

While you watch from above

So wrong to make new memories

Memories past your 22

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I think Ive always been in love with you I just didn’t know it yet

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I see her in every moment and all I can do is smile.

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A Bloody Love

Love is like the blood flowing through our veins

Thick, sticky, and always leaving a mess

No matter how many times you wash your hands

It's stuck underneath your nails

Pick as much as you want but it’s stained

A bond between sisters is stained beneath my nails

Every night I rub my skin raw trying to wash it away

Every morning I put on a fresh coat of polish to hide my shame

Pink new skin stings in the cool fresh air

She’s sober, a cerated lie

The promise carves itself into my chest when she relapses

Blood bubbles up my throat and I choke. . . unable to speak

Dead, in a puddle of my own blood

Dead in a puddle of love

Dead due to a drug addict sister

Dead due to an unfit mother

Dead due to a life just as thick and sticky as love

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Day in the life of your typical 17 year old girl

Wake up at 3:30 am to get ready for work

Regret all of your decisions and life choices

Stare at the espresso machine like itll make your coffee brew faster

Bike to work at 4:15

Sit outside of work waiting to be let in- hate your self for being awake-

Clock in and begin doing your opening duties

Try not to pass out while your life guarding

Sit there and sing along to your playlist because if you stop you’re going to pass out

Think could i lift that person by myself or would i need the front desk to grab the speed board if they died

Think about the got guy in your calculus class

Theres finally no on in the pool so you can run to the bathroom

Play online uno to pass the time

Go back to guarding the pool

Your releif shows up at 9:00 so you get to ride your bike home

Change out of your work clothes and contemplate like

11:25 ask your step mom it take you to school

11:30 rip your shirt have to go home and change

11:50 you get to campus but you’re late to Calculus

You do your calculus homework you forgot about during the lecture

12:55 calculus is over so you sit in the cafeteria catching up on all of your other course work

Play tetris on your computer to pass the time

5:00pm your step mom picks you up and takes you home

✨congratulations ✨ you survived another day

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Day in the life as a life guard of an indoor pool

Old people swim laps for a while, you wonder if you could preform a 1 person lift in case of an emergency or if youd be screaming for the front desk lady or a bystander to help

You hope your regular family doesn’t show up because you reeeeally dont want to listen to a screaming child for the next few hours

The family shows up and as per usual one of the kids is screaming and the other two are following none of the rules, and of course the dad is doing nothing

You contemplate kicking them out after one of the kids trys to drown the other

You could kick them out, youre allowed to, you’ve had to correct their behavior a million times, but you dont, you dont want to get a bad review as the aquatic staff just had a party due to all of the stellar reviews

You sit in your guard chair contemplating murder as the child continues to scream

Killing them means you dont have to deal with them next week, and you’re pretty sure the front desk lady would cover for you

The front desk lady can here the screaming child too, the glass wall separating us is thin

You wonder if the front desk lady knows how to delete the camera footage that shes in charge of

Would jail really be that bad, youre in pretty good shape and two of your sisters have already been, itd be easy

Continue the family legacy of going to jail maybe

But then you couldn’t see your cat

And you could only get books your family buys you and you quite like smutty books

You decide killing them isnt the best decision

You remind the family once again that they must be respectful of the other patrons and they cannot throw pool noodles at the lap swimmers

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I was built to be beautiful, but i made myself into a sharp and harsh kind of pretty, rather that the soft unassuming pretty. I want to be pretty like the light gleaming off the edge of a knife, not the pretty of a flower soft yet so easy to break

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When he knows your favorite philosopher ever though you never thought he’d be the type to listen to it

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You ever get the the stage of burn out where its like your just zoned out somehow getting the work done and you have no idea so uour scared if you think you’ll suddenly realize you have noe idea what your even writing

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Just girly things <3 *starts crying, screaming and banging my fist on the floor*