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Sunday 7:16 pm September 8th

Today felt full. A full quiet day on my own. Center yourself, Nicole. Continue to center yourself. Lately for the past two days, I have been discovering soooooo much great music. There’s a lot of contemporary jazz that I’ve been missing out on. Right now, there’s this short, sweet funky song called And1 by Athletic Progression. It’s the perfect music to listen to as the weather is changing. I have all my errands taken care of. Now i get to do some girly self care things. Feeling thankful for my home, my job, my friends, my body. Thankful for music and my family. I’m feeling ready to start a new week. :)

I will tell you once, twice, and a thousand times. Over and over again

Still healing and it's fucking HARD :''((((((

I'm not sad. I'm just tired and I feel burnt out and I want to be held and loved completely without any question. I want to feel safe and secure. I want my cup to be full so I can pour into the people I care about the most. I'm so burnt out right now. I want a week to just rest and do whatever I feel. At this point my body and mind feels like I have to just keep going going going.

This month was so long. One of the first few months that I was able to find balance between work, music, and other parts of my life but still I feel like I fell short in some areas. I still was able to do it, release my second EP. I am very proud of myself.

Right now, I'm just feeling tired.

I want to sleep for a very long time.

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I threw my vape away prematurely and I'm going thru it. I'm crying again. I'm tired of crying and I wish I could just disappear

Ah here it is again, that sinking feeling my heart feels at night. It feels like that sensation you get when you're in a rollercoaster and you're riding down from the highest peak. It feels like that but slow motion. That's what my anxiety feels like. I don't like to say that I have anxiety. I don't claim it really. It just this subtle nervousness that I get and then I start to feel these unwanted thoughts creep through my head. It happens most nights than others. I'm not sure why I'm crying now. I had a really fun weekend.

Choosing the path of love and kindness and to walk into it with patience at times can be hardest option. However, I do believe that this can be the most rewarding.