The Rewrite Of Richard Cory

Future Graduate. Future Nomad. Future Lover. Future Anxiety Survivor. Future Father. Future Happy Human. Future Completed Soul. This Is Me From The Morning Of 23.09.12.

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“I don’t care about you.”

“I know that. You make that obvious everyday.”

I’m not gonna be happy unless I make something of my own. I can’t look for happiness in other people cause I damn sure am not gonna find it.

I need to get back into the gym. Regain confidence in myself again. Gain some weight. Eat regularly. Consistently. Make an income. Do things that I did when I was happy.

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I hate my life.

It’s not getting any better. Everyone knows what’s best for me. Everyone knows what I should do and what I would do. I don’t know anything. I’m everyone’s child. I’m the source of the problem. I’ll never be enough for anyone (that’s been proven time and time again). I hate waking up every day. I hate that I am awake.

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As I’m laying here in the candle light cuddling in bed with my boyfriend for possibly the last night in my bachelor pad before it’s sold, my emotions are everywhere. I’m sad but I’m happy. I’m tired but I’m not sleepy. I’m not hungry but I could eat something. I’m not high enough. I can’t stop spontaneously having a few tears fall here and there. I have what I want and I can be happy. I wish I could talk to Gary. He’d know exactly what to say.

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One day someone’s gonna pay attention to me and make me feel good again. I’m tired of feeling downsized in light of someone else.

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Another year another birthday. I hate this day.

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Libras

We require a lot of attention and affection. We just like to know we're loved and enough. What does a libra do when they don't feel loved enough?

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