Mon Coeur

L’enfer, c’est les autres. 

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It’s pink like vanilla

Sweet and sour like spring and desire

I’m shy to discover

If I’ve lost you forever

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You lied, I know. When you said forever then let me go

I lie, you know, when I say I’m better without you —

that I’ve let you go

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You threw me out of your car so I walked, I realised I’m stronger than I thought, cause when you broke down I never stopped

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Only time can forgive what you did, cause you never said sorry for anything

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When I stopped fighting, I knew you lost me

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You took it out on me because you knew I would take it,

I thought you loved too hard to contain it,

I’m scared of how much you took — unrestricted.

And all you gave was pain for my patience

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I don't know if you hurt me because you were hurting too…

all I know is that even after all the pain you've put me through,

I still could never hurt you

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And if I don't miss you anymore, it's not because I forgot you.

It's because missing you has become a part of me-

like how I don't think about breathing, because I breathe all the time

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I learned more through the pain, it's true.

but barely enough to make it through

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I'm falling apart, and I'm blaming you

I lent you my heart, and you took it with you

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I had so much to say to you, but in the end, I just said goodbye.

It wasn’t good, but I meant every word

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You can’t love me if you don’t love yourself,

you’re gone now but I’ll never forget,

you are and always will be my biggest regret

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Why do I find softness in your thorns, beauty in your flaws ? Why am I so empty after you're gone ?

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I want to cry but what’s the point ? The tears only hurt and disappoint

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I think I'm over you today,

but I know I'll miss you again tomorrow

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You painted my world in black and blue,

Bruised by the words from loving you,

My heart ached for lighter hues,

But your colors were all I knew…

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I'm not ready to forget-

not yet,

So please just stay inside my mind,

Until I'm strong enough to say goodbye