My last blog post.
So, here’s the truth: I didn’t finish my goal. I was going to paint 46 paintings this year, the number representing the years I have spent on this Earth. I figured it would be difficult, but not impossible to pull off. ”Heck, it’s only a little less than a painting a week,” I told myself. ”You can do this!” My plan in place, I forged ahead with earnest gusto. But as often happens, life took a different path than I had laid out back in late December of last year.
All was going pretty well as I approached my halfway point around June. Just to make things more interesting, I decided to take a week-long painting workshop in Bend. ”At least I will come home with 5 or 6 good paintings under my belt,” I figured. Wrong! The workshop kicked my ass! Not only was it difficult and demoralizing, I came home with only a few odd, sketchy paintings I couldn’t even think of sharing. So I decided to take a short break to regroup when our beloved cat, Wally, was killed. All of this took the wind out of my sails for feeling creative and inspired.
I know what you’re thinking, “But that was a big challenge to take on! And you had some rough stuff happen this year. And just look at all the paintings you did paint…”
True. All of it true. Yet, the fact still remains that I didn't finish something I set out out to do and I want to own that. I could sit here and give you all the excuses why I lost my momentum and some it would sound pretty convincing. But why do we often feel like it’s better to excusify away an uncomfortable situation rather than just accept it or even embrace it?
I did not finish my goal of painting 46 paintings this year. Part of me is disappointed to not have reached the magic number, but on a deeper level I feel like I still learned a lot along the way.
I finish this year with this painting of a seabird looking out into the glow of a Pacific sunset. His (or her) peaceful expression and constant presence on beaches everywhere reminds me of the classic quote:
"Life is a journey, not a destination" - Ralph Waldo Emerson
I give you my greatest thanks for following me on this journey this year!



















