dear diary:

a collection of self help, sad posts and chronic illness

[5h1t]

Your chronic illness is valid whether it is diagnosed or not yet

[quoteastic]

I struggle with the fact that at one time I loved you to the point that I sacrificed my own happiness for you and that, at the same time, you did not love me enough to stop me.

[stuckinapril]

Not even trying to hide who I am anymore because it has done nothing but blow up in my face in the past. I’m very passionate about things, I’m anxious sometimes, I love too hard, I try but I could be trying harder, I can be pretty sensitive. I have flaws I’m working on. I have a lot of great traits that make me a worthwhile person to have in anybody’s life. Whatever it is. This is who I am. I am not going to be someone else for another person’s comfort or benefit. There’s no point to living this life if I can’t just be myself, regardless of how people perceive that.

[papayajuan2019]

need one moment of devotion, one that feels like i didnt have to work for.

[desactivemaintenant-deactivated]

[kosmogrl]

I'd be so powerful if I could let go of things

[stuckinapril]

sorry for not responding to your texts sooner. i was busy trying to feel real

[stuckinapril]

this should be an acceptable thing to say. i don’t think people realize how much energy it takes me to feel like my toes are attached to my body every day

[hopeymchope]

Narcolepsy/hypersomniac problems

[freshmoviequotes]

Oppenheimer (2023)

[ashstfu]

life is not constant suffering. sometimes you get to love and be loved in return

[kosmogrl]

some days I think I have nothing in common with my younger self, and then I remember some of her dreams are still my dreams

[stinkyhat-deactivated20231213]

When you become 20 something, you have to forgive yourself or you will never grow up. You have to forgive yourself for everything and learn from it.

[amortizing]

““He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.””

—  Bob Marley

[butallmystars-deactivated202410]

friendship can be so fleeting no wonder humans are so scared to be vulnerable . what do you mean we put our hearts and souls into people only for something as simple as time to rob our bonds … what do you mean some friendships just aren't meant to last forever?? that sometimes we outgrow people we once knew better than the lines on our palms?? when the version of them we have in our heads becomes outdated, when it means nothing that we know exactly how they take their coffee and why they don't talk about their brother. that today I mean the world to somebody who might only think of me on my birthday in a years time. what an open fucking wound.

[floofylilcloud]

One of the hardest parts about being chronically ill is that people get tired of hearing about it / helping. They're like "oh this shit again? Okay then, you're fine." And it's like NO actually. It sucks just as bad now as it did the first time.

And I've been working with doctors for months to figure out things and I'm still having horrible flares no matter what I do. Medicine, physical therapy, massages, acupuncture... nothing is helping. It's all so expensive as well.

You think you're tired of hearing about me experiencing it? Please try to imagine how I feel. I'm exhausted and in soooo much pain.

But people just treat me like I'm whining or overexaggerating. I wish I was. I wish I was.

[currentlycryingaboutlancelot]

obsessed where stories where it is like. the mistakes are unfixable and the worst thing that could happen happened and nothing can go back to how it was. but there was still love in this and love will continue after this and love endures always.

[yellowraincoat]

The natural companion post to my favorite post

[deloveusion]

i want his friends to say "he's never talked about a girl the way he talks about you"