curses & blessings

[5thwarden]

Bondrewd of Made in Abyss || about || rules

21+ only. mutuals only. selective. written by holly (any pronouns, 30+).

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headcanon questions

if you are sending to a multi-muse, remember to specify the muse that the questions are being sent for . feel free to edit these as you see fit .

🌟 What’s something small they did as a child that hinted at who they’d become?

❤️ Who is the one person they’d drop everything for, no questions asked?

💔 What’s the one wound (physical / emotional) they’ll never fully recover from?

🗡️ What’s their “I’ve killed for less” trigger?

☀️ What’s their happiest childhood memory?

🌧️ What kind of weather matches their soul?

🍽️ What meal do they cook when they need to feel like themselves again?

🎶 What song instantly makes them emotional & why?

🌙 Do they sleep peacefully / fight nightmares every night?

🔒 What’s a secret they’ll take to their grave?

🪞 What do they secretly hate about their own appearance?

💪 What random skill are they weirdly proud of?

👶 Baby picture of them - what’s the most embarrassing thing about it?

🏠 Describe their home when no one’s watching—messy, spotless, chaotic cozy?

😭 What always makes them cry, even if they hate admitting it?

😂 What’s the dumbest thing they’ve ever laughed at for way too long?

🧸 Do they still have a childhood comfort object? Where is it now?

✏️ What nickname do they secretly love being called?

⚔️ How do they act when they’re furious but have to stay polite?

🩸 What’s the worst injury they’ve ever had & the story behind it?

🕊️ What would instantly calm them down in a panic attack?

🔥 What’s something they’d burn the world down to protect?

🌹 What scent reminds them of the person they loved/love most?

🪥 What’s their most oddly specific daily routine?

💔 What’s the one apology they’re still waiting for that’ll never come?

🃏 Are they the type to forgive / hold a grudge until the end of the universe?

🌌 What’s their biggest “what if” that keeps them up at night?

🦋 What was their “I’m not a kid anymore” moment?

🎭 Do they wear a mask in public? What’s the real them like underneath?

🧳 If they had to leave home forever with only one bag, what do they pack?

🌑 What’s the darkest thought they’ve ever had about themselves?

☕ What’s their comfort drink?

🖤 What’s a “villain” trait they actually possess?

🤝 Who is the one person they never want to disappoint?

🎁 What gift would utterly destroy them (in a good / bad way)?

🩹 How do they react when someone they love is hurt?

🌅 Are they a sunrise / sunset person - what do they think about while looking at their favorite?

🧣 What texture/clothing item makes them feel safe?

🦉 What piece of advice do they give everyone but never follow themselves?

🔪 What’s the most violent thing they’ve ever done for love / survival?

🦋 What seemingly insignificant memory do they cherish the most?

🌹 What is their love language & how badly do they need it right now?

🪨 What’s the hardest choice they’ve ever made?

🧋 What food/drink do they hate that everyone else loves?

🕰️ If they could relive one day of their life, which would it be?

👑 In their own story, are they the hero / villain / someone else entirely?

🌡️ What temperature do they keep their home at & why?

🧸 What would their younger self think of them now?

💌 What’s the letter / text they’ll never send?

⚰️ What do they want written on their gravestone / what do they want people to remember them for?

[inkpressedpetals]

[hapless-hollow]

“My sunless arms may not be the place where you will heal your trauma. But they will be the place where you are accepted, with all of your pain.”

— tumblr  -  Helaena C Moon  /  instagram  -  helaena.c.moon 

[variedfins]

“It is a condition of monsters that they do not perceive themselves as such.”

— Anne Carson, “Autobiography of Red” (via ofadvent)

[kaisources]

⋆.ೃ࿔🏳️‍🌈*:･ YOU'RE MY ONLY, I'M YOUR ONLY . . . a collection of QUEER PRIDE FILMS based on queer films for pride month. genre: queer, romance, slice-of-life, sexual awakening, gender awakening.

Hiya! You're always fucking late, you, aren't you?

Oh, it's good to see you. You look really good.

[Name], your oven's not working!

Don't worry about it, it'll be all right.

I made a bet you'd be on time tonight.

Have you got a plate, [name]. Hold on.

Look, I'm not joking!

You are coming on Sunday, aren't you?

I don't think I can handle it without you being there.

You've been keeping a low profile recently. Anything to tell?

Oh, I'm having a really good night, let's keep it going.

I've got to work in the morning, and I'm a bit stoned, but I'll see you on Sunday.

It's all right, don't worry about it.

You were pretty wasted last night.

Is that what you go for, a nice smile?

Have I got morning breath?

Now you've broken an unwritten rule, because now you smell all minty fresh and I smell of cock and bum!

So, did you like the club?

You can't get out of it now, you promised me, and I've come for my pound of flesh.

Do you think I would have slept with you otherwise?

What kind of stuff is it you want me to say?

Just talk about last night, you know, what happened, what you wanted to happen. It's up to you, really.

I… I don't know. I can hardly remember anything.

Oh, come on, stop stalling. Just talk.

I saw you in the club and I thought you were… I thought you were out of my league or whatever.

I don't think you believe that for a moment.

There was someone else I wanted, but by the time I found him he was with someone else, so…

So I was your second choice?

Why does that matter?

This is a stupid fucking conversation.

What do you think you're doing?

Please just close the window.

Sorry, what… what was that?

I offered you a drink, I think, although I can't really remember. And then you kissed me in the hallway, in my hallway.

I was happy to feel you had a big dick and it was throbbing in your trousers, which was surprising because you were so drunk.

Can you remember what you wanted to happen?

I thought you were too drunk to remember.

I remember that because I was really sweaty and I was worried that I was going to be all smelly.

You started kissing my ears and then you kissed my neck and then you kissed my hand, which was… romantic.. for one night stand..

I couldn't work out if you were pretending to be the type of boy who didn't suck many cocks or you… you actually were that type of boy.

Why do you ask these things?

So why didn't you say anything?

You didn't want me to fuck you?

Would it have made you feel too gay?

In fact, are you actually out?

I just thought that we were having a really nice time and it was lovely, it was more than enough for me, so, erm, sorry if I don't make your grade.

You've done it, that's fine.

I don't want to tell you the destruction that was going on down there.

I was gonna say, what the fuck, like?

Who are you fucking talking to? You get lucky as well, did you?

I didn't say there was. I'm just saying.

You need to stop smoking.

This is a nice place you've brought me to.

So what do you do now? I can't really remember, sorry.

Do you like art? It doesn't matter if you don't.

Scream if you want to go faster!

I don't even know how much those things are.

Are you hungry? I've got some nice pitta bread.

You think talking about sex is dirty?

It's just I'm not sure if… people want to hear about the random sex life of strangers.

Imagine if everybody was just open about what they did and that everything was normal.

Yeah, but people are open, aren't they?

But was he gay?

Gay people never talk about it in public unless it's just cheap innuendo.

Maybe it's just they're a little bit embarrassed.

Well, you know what it's like when you first sleep with someone you don't know?

It's… You, like, become this blank canvas and it gives you an opportunity to project onto that canvas who you want to be.

So, do you think that's why I did it?

What happens is, while you're projecting who you want to be, this gap opens up between who you want to be and who you really are, and in that gap, it shows you what's stopping you becoming who you want to be.

And all of this from talking about sex?

I'm not sure that I totally understand what you're saying, but…

The problem is that no one's gonna come and see it, because it's about gay sex.

The gays will only come because they want a glimpse of a cock and they'll be…And the straights won't come because, well, it's got nothing to do with their world.

Fuck it. Doesn't matter, does it?

Do you want me to light it for you?

Are you out to your parents?

You don't look like the kind of boy who would be.

It's not complicated, you just have to do it.

I told them nature or nurture, it's your fault, so get over it.

I would, but… I don't really know my parents.

Everyone knows about me in my friend circle.

Oh, my God. What's wrong with you?

Sorry, I think it's the weed!

Are you serious… Are you laughing at my childhood tragedy?

Look…there's something I didn't tell you.

Have you got a boyfriend?

I don't have a boyfriend, I don't do boyfriends...

Honestly, you… you didn't have to tell me.

Hey, erm, what are you doing tonight? Cos I'm having some drinks with some friends and it would be pretty cool if you came along.

I don't wanna kind of put pressure on you or anything, you can either come or not come and it's up to you, it doesn't matter either way, OK?

You said you were going home when you left.

Well, look, why don't you bring him tomorrow?

It's a bit more fun, isn't it, than your normal, erm… normal gay bar?

I'm surprised you came.

I'd leave him to it, if I were you.

I think he does like you though.

You make a loud… You made a loud noise.

Can you keep a secret?

I just understand him, that's all.

You look like you want to kiss me.

No, not here. I can't…I can't here.

Do you want to get the fuck out of here?

You practically pushed me out of the door, I didn't even say goodbye to anybody, you didn't say goodbye to anybody.

I actually had quite good fun in there. It was all right.

It was quite nice being around gay people.

But it's just not like that, you know?

I wouldn't want anybody… talking badly about my mates.

It's none of my business to start talking about that kind of stuff, is it?

I can't wait to get the fuck out of here, to be honest.

Just my friends -sometimes they're like…a noose around my neck, do you know what I mean?

I've got to be honest with you, I don't really know what you mean.

What, and that's a bad thing, is it?

It's like they won't let you… they won't let you be any version of yourself except an old version, or the version that they want you to be.

Oh-ho-ho, are you sure about that?

I'd frozen the video just on the moment when you could see that scene and you know what it's like when you pause video, it's shuddering.

But the weird thing was, in that moment, I could see myself through his eyes, you know?

I thought, if he wants to see me as some horny little angry child, then that's fine with me, doesn't make any difference.

I wasn't friends with anyone else after he told the rest of the school.

Whoo! I'm just breaking some ice!

Do you have a boyfriend?

I've got something kind of similar.

Did you tell [name] about it?

Do you want to have a go?

I saw him later as I was getting changed and he ignored me.

He wouldn't give me his number because he said he had a boyfriend.

When I got back I puked up and spent the rest of the day in bed, thinking about all kinds of stuff.

Have I freaked you out?

I have, haven't I? I've freaked you out, I've freaked you out. Do you think I'm a freak?

What did this guy look like?

Look, straight people like us as long as we conform, we behave by their little rules.

Imagine your friends, if you suddenly started getting all really political about being a gay or you got suddenly like camp and swishy or talked about rimming all the time.

But that's not what I'm like, is it? That's not who I am.

They shove it down our throats all the time, being straight…straight story lines on television, everywhere!

But, oh, the gays, the gays… We mustn't upset the straights!

I'm not saying people shouldn't forge relationships, all I'm saying is that we don't need someone to sanction it, to make it legitimate, to make us respectable.

People get married for the same reason that they buy a house or buy a dog, to tie them down so that they go, "Oh, no, we couldn't possibly go away this weekend."

A man standing up with another man, in front of everyone saying that, "I love you and I want to get married," I think that's a pretty fucking radical statement.

I mean, why do people fucking say that, do you know what I mean?

Why do people have to feed into the system?

Why does it bother you so much, [name]?

Why does it bother you that maybe two people fucking love each other and they want to get married and they want a relationship and they just want to be happy?

Why do you think it's gonna be so different in America?

I don't want to compromise!

You're condescending me, it's like you're always fucking attacking me!

It's like you want everybody to think independently, but you want everyone to fucking agree with you.

Why can't you just understand that some people just want to be happy?

Don't you fucking dare presume… that you understand me. You think just because I can't…holding hands with you, that you know me.

I can see it in your eyes, you think I'm a fucking idiot because I want a fucking relationship.

I think you would make an amazing boyfriend.

Let's stop this now before we go somewhere that we don't want it to go.

You don't know nothing about how I feel!

Maybe if it's easier if I tell you that I'm brokenhearted, but I'm not.

I don't want… I can't have a boyfriend right now.

Now, I really don't want us to fall out about this.

I thought I heard a firework.

I'm really sorry, just…I was a dick. Sorry.

I don't care and I don't even think about it.

I'm not embarrassed, I'm not…I'm not ashamed, and I don't…I don't want to be straight.

I'm happy. I'm happy being gay.

You know, I'm a grown man, and I look at you, and I see you and you can do it and you're amazing.

You're right about people coming out and what their parents say and stuff.

Everyone's got their story, haven't they, it's like a…gay rite of passage.

I don't think it would change anything.

Why don't I… pretend to be your dad… and you can come out to me?

I don't think I can ignore the fact we just had sex.

I've got something that I need to tell you. I'm gay.

It doesn't matter to me. I love you just the same.

Are you going to come and sing to me, or beg me to stay?

Are you going to tell me about it or what?

It feels weird talking to you about it, I don't know. Sorry.

I fucking knew you'd come, such a goddamn romantic.

So is this our Notting Hill moment?

Do you reckon that's what would happen with us?

I want you to know I'm not here to stop you from going.

You're a bastard for coming down here. Fuck me.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.

I've got something for you.

[pathologising]

"It is unethical and illegal to perform autopsies without proper qualifications" so its unethical and illegal to HAVE FUN? hop off my cock dude 🙄

[valtsv]

"unrepentant" is one of my favorite things to be. "don't you feel bad about what you did" no lol

[valtsv]

"how do you not feel guilty. or ashamed." chose not to ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

[aso-bi]

*puts a magnifying glass in your hands*

Close-ups of one of the maps I'm most proud of

All the details were done by hand, each pencil stroke, and I can't believe I actually had the patience for it all

Full version under the cut

Drawing and painting all the tiny locations taught me a lot, and I'm grateful I got commissioned to work on such a beautiful map. Only thing I regret is that it's so big so many details are lost, when looking at it so I made this post so the close up views might do them justice

[scientifichubris]

Mad scientists will be like "I know a place" and then strap you onto the autopsy table

[cunt-inent]

only an autopsy if you're dead... please use the proper name for my vivisection table

[animepopheart]

★ 【K-SUWABE】 「 ボンドルド 」 ✔ republished w/permission ☆ follow our YT interview show!

[joycew-art]

I've been really stuck and frustrated with my sketching lately, so was experimenting around with that. And somehow...made this?? I really like it tho! And the process was fun too!

Got inspired by amazing Bondrewd fanart online to draw him

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[5thwarden]

DECEMBER AESTHETICS

Peppermint: silver knitting needles, velvet skies filled with twinkling stars, red embroidery thread, hot black tea with spoonfuls of sugar, ballet shoes, hearts carved in birch bark, denim jackets, distant bells.

Cherrywood: bitter chocolate, grey skies, mandolins, pine resin, stag’s antlers, gritted teeth, piles of firewood, cardinals, stacks of pancakes, howling winds, lace table cloths, wool socks, black ponds slick with ice.

Waxpaper: toasted marshmallows, origami stars, fir boughs, golden trumpets, storybook illustrations of brown mice, church steeples, seeing your breath in the morning, calligraphy journals, white swans, sandalwood.

Juniper: dried orange garlands, snow on green tiled roofs, calico cats, red scarves, train whistles, gifts wrapped in newspaper, brown turtlenecks, caramel cheese cake, blue spruce trees, piano sonatas, ice skates, star anise.

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main theme (the frozen wilds ver.) // composed by joris de man

[edenmemes]

the green knight starters

❝ look, see a world that holds more wonders than any since the earth was born. ❞   ❝ let me tell you instead a new tale. ❞   ❝ so stay a while. rest. and make yourself content. ❞ ❝ and if death awaits me? ❞ ❝ surely your knights have spilled enough blood in your name to bind them closer to you than i. ❞ ❝ good to have one’s family by one’s side. ❞   ❝ i recognize but i do not know you. ❞ ❝ what is this? a trick? ❞ ❝ and this is what you want most in life? ❞ ❝ green is the color of earth, of living things, of life. ❞ ❝ the world is fit for all manner of mysteries. ❞ ❝ you are not very good with questions. ❞ ❝ surely a knight knows something of love. ❞ ❝ i never knew so many books even existed. ❞ ❝ what if i wanted to sit by your side and take your hand and have your ear? ❞ ❝ do you still fancy me? do i make you happy? ❞ ❝ green is what is left when ardor fades, when passion dies, when we die, too. ❞ ❝ when you return, you will come with your head held high. ❞ ❝ this is how silly men perish. ❞ ❝ you rest your bones, my brave little knight. ❞ ❝ where you off to? a knightly quest? ❞ ❝ all dead. no one to bury them. ❞ ❝ by nightfall, you will be at the doorway of your destiny. ❞ ❝ i promise, you will not come to harm. ❞ ❝ why greatness? why is goodness not enough? ❞ ❝ are you really going to go? ❞ ❝ you’ll do this one thing, you return home a changed man, an honorable man? just like that? ❞ ❝ keep your five fingers strong, your five senses sharp. ❞ ❝ you have mud on your face. ❞ ❝ is it wrong to want greatness for you? ❞ ❝ i’ve been waiting for you. did you not hear me calling? ❞ ❝ what do you expect me to do? ❞ ❝ i am the luckiest here today because i am amongst you. ❞ ❝ do not take your place amongst legends idly. ❞ ❝ though my will longs to leap across this table and meet you, my body will not follow. ❞ ❝ you tell me a tale of yourself, so that i might know you. ❞ ❝ i’ve got no guts for merriment this year. ❞   ❝ i need…i need a sword. ❞ ❝ i dare say every table in this land has heard of you and sung your song. ❞ ❝ i know more than just your name. ❞ ❝ well, come on in if you want. ❞ ❝ perhaps you think that i am something i’m not. ❞ ❝ why would you ask me that? why would you ever ask me that? ❞ ❝ are you real, or are you a spirit? ❞ ❝ you are at the end of your quest. a little sooner than you expected, perhaps. but such is the case for us all. ❞ ❝ i am just a lost traveler, seeking rest for the night. ❞ ❝ did my father send for you? ❞ ❝ are you certain there is nothing you wish to give me? ❞ ❝ what will you say if i asked you to make me your lady? ❞ ❝ i do not know of any man who has not marched up to greet death before his time. ❞ ❝ were you afraid? ❞ ❝ you have had a year to find courage. ❞ ❝ come, come home. come home with me. ❞ ❝ i never asked for your company anyway! ❞ ❝ what witchcraft is this? ❞ ❝ go that way and your doom is at hand. ❞ ❝ unhand me and let us go our ways. ❞ ❝ fear not. you’ve only slept through the night. ❞ ❝ which direction are you headed? ❞ ❝ i will eat and give thanks and then take my leave. ❞ ❝ how do you know my name? ❞ ❝ you will find no mercy. no happy end. ❞ ❝ i don’t want your games, or your gifts, or your kindness. ❞ ❝ there’s an enchantment sewn into its threads. wear it and you will never be struck down. ❞ ❝ do you believe in magic, in witchcraft? ❞ ❝ do not touch me. ❞ ❝ i’ve lost something. will you help me find it? ❞ ❝ i’m very sorry. i…i did not see you. ❞ ❝ i fear i am not meant for greatness. ❞ ❝ stand up and face me! ❞ ❝ make a move or i shall make mine. ❞ ❝ let’s just stay here. come. let’s just stay here. ❞   ❝ i’ve got time. i’ve got lots of time. ❞   ❝ out my window this morning i looked, and i saw a land shaped by your hands. ❞ ❝ i look out upon my friends here today and i see songs no muse could ever sing or dream of. ❞ ❝ no. i’m not ready yet. ❞   ❝ i’ll finish this quest for you. ❞

[angstmemes]

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