Reaching Infinity

I'm looking to lose almost 100lbs by kickboxing (when I have money again), running, yoga/pilates, walking my sweet puppy, and attending Weight Watchers meetings. If you follow me you will be getting quite a few pictures of my meals, sweaty post-workout selfies, my corgi, and screenshots of my daily summaries from Fitbit! I follow from oatmealorcereal. 5'7" Highest: 240 lbs (108.8kg) Current: 237.2 lbs (9/12/15) Goal: 150 lbs (68kg)

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Reblog if you are a fitblr who has had to start their journey over more than once

I want to show people who are new to this that it is okay to fail and that doesn’t define you.

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One of the biggest de-motivators for those on a massive weight loss journey or those who are significantly overweight isn’t the exercise or the eating its just knowing your journey is going to be unbelievably long. 

Its not going to be a 30-day-to fit and skinny thing, Its a 2-3 years of daily regimented eating, changing a lifetime of bad habits, habits that other people do not understand or care to empathise with. Its the probability of excess skin that you cant afford to remove. 

2-3 years of self sabotage, hormones and mood swings, sabotage by those in your life who think its funny to see you fail. Its not one dress size down, its 5-10 dress sizes down. Its expensive, its exhausting, its physically painful doing thing at your biggest that appears easy to other people. You get waves of support, jealousy, suspicion, judgement…. for 2-3 years

So yeah, “just eat healthy and everything will be fine!”….. yes it will be, but please don’t forget the length of our journey ahead can be massively overwhelming. 

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5 miles in an hour! Might not seem like much but I'm thrilled!

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Here's where I'm at.

The main reason behind the name of this blog was an infinity ring that I would get as my reward. Trouble is, my sister got engaged and got me one for a maid of honor gift... So we'll just keep that name anyways. Haven't lost the depressive episode weight a year after graduation despite some half hearted attempts. I've been struggling with stress eating still, and less activity than I would like to have. I feel like I have one of these "'new leaf" moments every other week so it's discouraging. Or encouraging that I want to keep trying!! Actionable goals to help me: -Follow the meal plan I make, even if I work in flexibility for work meals and treats. Or if I keep it flexible overall and just say I have to eat all the food I have planned, regardless of the day. -Complete the 40 classes challenge for yoga -track every day. If I can't figure out how to track it I probably shouldn't eat it! Preferably track beforehand and edit throughout the day if necessary -10,000 steps -Tap dance video (practice for Christmas show)

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I'm giving 21 Day Fix a try!

It has (almost) the total package for me - a good app for tracking, a vegetarian friendly meal plan (complete with suggested meals instead of just saying "sub tofu I guess," and a short timeframe so it's not a huge commitment to the point where I need to drop my other fitness plans like my kickboxing membership. I'm just eagerly waiting for it to get here in the mail now... I was hoping it would be today but I guess not.

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It's been a long time since I looked at Runkeeper

The mobile app is GORGEOUS now!!! If only myfitnesspal would follow suit... It gets the job done but it's just not as fun to use as some other apps.

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Running at 5:30 tomorrow. And tracking my food. I so desperately want to be a morning workout person.

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UGH

HE'S SO GREAT I JUST WANNA HUG HIM ALL DAY LONG BUT INSTEAD I have to sit in meetings and pretend I'm paying attention when in reality all my focus is out the window when he's talking. Whoops.

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January 3, 2016 3 SMART goals for the month, and steps to achieve them! - Be more "put together" at work. We can wear whatever, but there's a difference between "I just rolled out of bed" yoga pants and sweatshirt and "I decided to be comfy today" yoga pants and sweatshirt. I will keep my nails looking nice (either polished or unpolished), wear moisturizer and a simple powder at the bare minimum, and remember to use my crest white strips! - I will track all the remaining days this month. I did step one already, which was clean out my fridge and plan this week's meals. I won't be eating lunch at work unless something comes up, I'll be packing it. I'll allow myself to have a dessert there once a week. Having these planned will make it easier to track everything, and having them made in advance will make it easier to make healthy choices. This week it's egg bake, Parmesan pasta, and lentils/rice/naan. - I will keep doing "Happify" and focus on my happiness even when everything feels decent. Hopefully that means that I won't hit the major lows as badly. I will also remember to take care of myself by taking my vitamins, anti depressants, birth control, etc.

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Trying hard to love myself today. I have a chest cold and am coughing up a storm and just overall feel lousy, but I feel obligated to go run because I had 4 cupcakes yesterday. That shouldn't be what's motivating me to run. Instead I'm focusing on kicking this chest cold so I'm taking a nice bath (with my lush bath bomb!) and then I'll be cleaning out my kitchen in preparation for a few months of soups and stews. If I feel up to it I might do an easy yoga video this evening to relax before bed.

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January 3, 2016

I'm a day late but here's my thoughts on accountability partners! My weight watchers meeting group are my main accountability partners, and logging on here. I feel too pressured if I have a specific person for accountability, and then have a bit of a stress breakdown if I fail them. Yikes!

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January 1, 2016 Who are you? Lauren! I like corgis all the time and fitness upon occasion. I am 22, almost 23, and just started my big kid job in Wisconsin. 
Where are you from? Michigan (home)/Indiana (college - Purdue)/Wisconsin (new "home") 
Where are you in your journey? Making another restart, with better tools this time. I have money for Weight Watchers meetings and while it’s been slow, it’s been steady. What do you like to do for fun? Go to the dog park, run/swim/kickbox, watch Food Network, and cuddle up in a fuzzy blanket. I also like lots of crafts, mainly crochet, cross stitch, and knitting. 
Are there any specific things we should know about you? I make new plans and goals all the time because I can’t seem to stick with anything (I get bored easily). I struggle with anxiety and depression at times so I'm on and off Tumblr (and usually if I'm off I'm downing cheese curds until I feel better). Also, we want you to pick 3 words to describe you and your health journey. This is important for tomorrow’s task. Any 3 words! Fun, planning, and determination!

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Made it through in under 40 minutes! Glad I got my goal. On the way home I signed up for my February race, the Frosty 5K! Get ready for a similar "oh lord why" post on February 13th.

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New Years Day 5K! This could be ugly. I want to run the whole time and I will try but I don't want to beat myself up if I can't. Gotta find my ultimate Pandora playlist.

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Let me be a middle school girl for a minute...

The cute boy that I like at work texted me and said I'm hilarious (long story short I had to write him a note about some work stuff and I was my usual charming self). Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

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So after a month and a half of not going to the gym and hating my body and eating everything or nothing for days...I'm restarting my journey.

Can you reblog this if you are also restarting your fitness journey in 2016? I would love to have a support system. (We can message and talk and help each other out…it’s so much easier with someone who knows what you’re going through to keep you in line)

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I signed up for the New Year's Day 5K. I haven't run a race since my half marathon last October. This will be... Interesting. It's motivation for me to not eat like crap on New Years because I know I'll regret it half a mile in. =)