Eddie

Anon//5’5//BMI 17 Sw: 53 / 116 Cw: 46.4/ 102 Gw: 45 / 99 ugw: 40 /88

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June weight average: 48.5 (highest was 49.9 lowest was 47.4)

August weight average: 47.5 (lw this month 46.4, highest I think was 47.9 maybe 48?)

Averaging about 0.5-1kg a month.

It’s okay? Not ideal but it’s fine.

It’s annoying since I have been working quite hard with restricting but at the same time I’ve also been at home since June so obviously I’ve had to eat a lot more than I would normally so in a sense it’s more impressive that I’ve been continuing to loose weight.

I’m allowing time at my parents to be a bit of a cheat time; although a bit further into September I will be attempting to stick to a 10 day diet with at least 48 hours of fasting. I’ll also go back to logging my weight daily or at least twice a week. I’ve got my Apple cider vinegar, my 10,000 steps a day goal, meal replacement smoothies and fat metabolisers for now. Fingers crossed things so smoothly.

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Deadline to get to 40kg = March 2022

[lowcal-snacks]

super low calorie pancakes!!

this whole plate is 130 calories including butter, whipped cream, strawberries and syrup

the pancakes alone are 70 calories for two decent size ones but you could probably make 3 medium ones

ingredients:

-1/4 tsp baking powder (0)

-1/4 tsp salt (0)

-2tbsp flour. i used oat flour (42)

-3tbsp egg whites or ~2 eggs worth (25)

-sweetener to your liking. i did 2-3tsp (0)

toppings:

-1.5g butter (10)

-100g strawberries (30)

-walden farms syrup (0)

-10g non fat whipped cream (10)

directions:

-heat up a pan (preferably non-stick)

-add a little oil or water. i used some water on a nonstick pan

-mix your ingredients and add them to the pan in the sizes you want

-check and flip pancakes until they look right to you

enjoy!

[gl1tchc0reb8be-deactivated20220]

Ok so these are my workouts imma try doing every week

Creds to whoever made them

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Forgot to add pics. Here I am 3 weeks into my dieting and fat metabolisers xx 46.4-47.5 kg fluctuating.

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Body check 1!

Currently flitting around 46.5-47.5, unsure as to why my weight is stuck between this one kg???

Either way my goal to get to 45kg by September seems unlikely now so my new gw is to be firmly in 46kg camp, ideally to loose just 1 kg instead of 2.5-3.5kg. When September comes around tho, I will be starting a new diet from September 18th to loose the weight until I am 45kg or lower. I’ll do a body check on September 1st and hopefully it’ll be far far lower than 47kg !

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Just got a ‘not my problem anymore’ from the guy who broke up with me less than 8 hours ago when confiding about my anorexia. Fuck me istg it’s literally like fate has decided I shouldn’t recover wtaf.

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Boyf broke up with me. I was coming to terms with my ED over the past week, today I was going to tell him about my anorexia (he doesn’t know I have an ED), tell him I wanted to recover and start my recovery (because apparently telling people is like the first step to recovery or something idk) anyways,

I’m on a 24 hour fast now.

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The convo went something like this:

Me: I actually have something I want to talk to you about, I’m sorry I’ve been off this last few days

Him: Me too actually

Me: Okay so, this is hard for me to say

Him: And me to… I want to break up

Me: Oh. Oh right then. Never mind. *is already googling thinspo and chugging back appetite suppressants*

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Boyf broke up with me. I was coming to terms with my ED over the past week, today I was going to tell him about my anorexia (he doesn’t know I have an ED), tell him I wanted to recover and start my recovery (because apparently telling people is like the first step to recovery or something idk) anyways,

I’m on a 24 hour fast now.

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Me: God this thing in my life is causing me to be upset

Brain: If you were skinny it’d be easier

Me: But Id still have this problem?

Brain: yes. But you’d be skinny.

Me: But-

Brain: You could deal with it, while being skinny.

Me: How does that…

Brain: SKINNY

Me: CANT argue with that logic I guess.

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My brain really be pulling a ‘that’s not anxiety, THIS is anxiety’ on me.

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A literal child (5 year old!!) told me I need to eat more and offered me a snack!!! It was the sweetest thing and I had to stop myself from saying ‘no sweetie I want to be so thin I look like a skeleton’

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Oh. So there’s a minor inconvenience?

Time to starve myself !

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Okay so my period is over and to make myself feel a little better I’ve treated myself to some fat burners!!

My next weigh in isn’t until august 16th but I’m super excited to see how these go. I’m taking one after my morning scotch egg (I work 8-5 most days, sometimes 8-10/11 so I need some form of quick protein before work) one at lunch (I don’t usually eat lunch on my lunch break, but I’ll still take one even if I don’t) and one after tea. (3 is the recommendation).

I took one today and my insides did hurt a little but it might’ve been psycho semantic, I’ll see how it plays out tomorrow and if after the morning my stomach hurts too much I’ll skip the lunch ones. Anyways. Wml!

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Quick personal update: this week my period started :,(

That’s obviously thrown a spanner in the works for my daily weighing, as you gain 3-5lbs once it starts, so my motivation his plummeted. All week my weight has been shifting between 48 and 47 kg. I’ve got back down to 47.3kg and I’m hoping once my period has stopped I can start to see more progress in terms of weight loss and hopefully get past 47kg (I can never manage to get past 47 istg)

I’ve tried to work out what my weight might be without the period and it seems like I could be 100-102lbs soon, which is good I guess ? It just hurts not seeing it straight away, especially after all the work I’ve been putting into burning calories. My net average this week has been around 600-700 a day but I’m still not seeing results and I’m still bloody hungry. I don’t want to maintain my current weight which is what it feels like I’m doing. I want to loose at least 2.5kg by next month. Ahhh it’s so frustrating. I worked 12 hours (bar tending and activity leader at a summer camp) yesterday and still NOTHINGGGG

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Wanted to share something that happened at work which made me overly happy ~~

A man at the bar told me I was too skinny and needed to eat more ☺️☺️

A lot of coworkers told me not to let it phase me, that it was just a joke and all that but honestly that boosted my confidence almost 100% 0.o

Also to make today an even better day I’m currently in a net of -357 calories and I’ve already had dinner! Might treat myself tonight with a chocolate bar :p

Either way sorry for the ramble,,, I just wanted to share something positive for once since the last 2 days my average calorie intake was 900-1000 so being in the negatives today after feeling so unmotivated has really given me hope of reaching my gw within 3-5 weeks ~

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So because I’m at home with my parents for summer my calorie intake is having to be a lot higher than I’d like, especially since I do NOT want them to notice I’m restricting or rapidly loosing weight. I’m trying to keep my net (and overall intake) bellow 1000 (no more than 1200 as a rule). According to Google I should loose around 1-2lbs a week, meaning I’ll reach my first gw in 3-5 weeks. So my next body check is going to be on august 14th and my second will be August 28th. Current stats are:

5’5

47.2kg (104 lbs)

Goal is to loose 2.2kg (5lbs) in 3-5 weeks.

Current body (blurred tattoos):