When perfection comes the imperfect disappears

These are my thoughts.

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I need to stop looking at any of my sil's posts.

I have once again been subjected to one of her sex scenes. 🙃

Can we normalize not marketing romance with explicit scenes? That would be great.

It's 12000 times more awkward because she's family.

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Sometimes threads is really thought provoking.

Saw a thread where they were saying it's good or fine to enjoy red flag/toxic behavior in books because it's fiction and we know it's not real.

So many people were like, "yeah! We're adults and we know it isn't real."

"fiction is a safe place to explore dark ideas."

And I thought about it a while and I think the flaw is that, yes, it is fiction, and yes, it's a fine place to explore some ideas, but ideas are real things. Your actual person, your soul, is interacting with these ideas and at some point you have to decide if they are good or bad and act accordingly.

If you know something is unhealthy and bad, it is probably unwise to routinely associate positive emotions with it. Because what we take in, shapes how we see the world. So yes, you know it's a fake story, but eventually the ideas will work their way in. Because you are teaching yourself it's good. It's enjoyable.

And I think if you are legitimately enjoying it, there might already be a problem.

Because the ideas are real. You are really interacting with them. I don't think the line is so easily drawn.

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Threads cracks me up sometimes. People tell on themselves without realizing it so much.

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Every year Facebook reminds me that the two guys I was most infatuated with in jr high and high school were born on the same day.

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Toying with the idea of having another Instagram dedicated to my writing.

That idea freaks me out if I am being honest.

I also feel a nudge to get an editor lined up.

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I have to add a massive chunk to my book because I somehow still wrote it too briefly.

I didn't notice with the other POVs clogging it up, but the main plot has major pacing issues.

I did what I thought worked as a time jump, but it is such a hard pivot of focus for the characters, it doesn't work. I have to show some more of what I skipped over otherwise it's just like "what just happened?"

I knew I had major revisions to make but man, this just feels so slow. I want to work on something else for a while.

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Feeling a bit frustrated today. I just have a couple comments made by people close to me that have me feeling like I am not capable of writing a book.

It's not helping that like two years ago my sil decided to start writing and is publishing her third book this year.

I feel like, ugh, why is it taking me so long when so many people write so much faster?

I know better than to compare my journey to someone else's, but the comments didn't help.

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Trying to work on my book but hubby wants to paint the house. Lol

We did one room and he's not wrong, it's way better, but I want to sit and write all day.

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I reread both gens of the Seddledown series by Susan Henshaw/Callie Mae Shaw.

It's wild that even on the reread I did not want to put it down. I knew all the twists were coming and I was still completely invested.

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It is so hard to remember to live in joy.

Maybe not generally, but it's the nature, I think, of the addictions I have been battling. Getting lost in a book or a story I am writing or my social media and associated projects is a sort of false joy. It's just numbness, really. Whenever I surface and reengage in my life in any meaningful way, I recall what joy really is.

Even when I just get the balance of it right, the joy is restored to the work of my hands and the hobbies I enjoy, but it can be work to resurface when I have grown a bit numb.

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The hormone changes I have been dealing with postpartum has been so crazy. Aside from the debilitating migraines, I have days like today where it feels like someone else has taken over my body and I am watching myself freak out over stuff that I would normally take in stride.

I hate it. This chick is a jerk.

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My son hasn't even started school yet and I am already just about out of sick hours.

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Oh. I started off on the wrong foot on the Internet this morning.

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I am so sad. For some reason Google lens is complete trash on my Google phone.

This is unfortunate cause I used it for my quotes in my physical books. It did fine on my old phone unless the angle was truly trash, but now what it scans and copies has nothing to do with what I highlighted.

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I have to bite my tongue when my SIL talks about there being no books where the FMCs weight isn't a plot device and I want to scream because the reason is that she is in a world of romance where kinks and spice overwhelm good story telling.

The no spice market has lots of books with heavier FMCs and it's not a plot device.

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My son keeps asking for medicine cause he likes the taste. I told him medicine has side effects, so we only take it when we need it.

He thinks for a second and then says, "want mom to take the side effects out." 😂

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I think that if the only thing the algo knows about me is that I like to read, it should be showing me content about the classics. I should start from hot takes on Wethering Heights not some smutty scene from a dark hockey romance.

I can live with weird takes on classic literature, I can't unread smut.