the stars were misaligned

jay they/them | he/him personal + multifandom

[8luejay]

hey, it’s me again.

so... it’s been a while, and i think the time has come to deactivate this account.

i don’t really participate on other social sites at the moment, so there’s no other way to contact me aside from discord which i also... basically never use. probably for the best, i’m still shit at talking to people anyway. maybe someday i’ll have a personal blog here again, but who knows.

i doubt anyone will notice my absence honestly. but on the off-chance that any mutuals might wonder whatever happened to me, i’m still alive. just. very different, in these past couple of months. so it’s time to erase... this mess that was here before.

if i do end up making a personal blog again i won’t post the url publicly for anxiety reasons but i’ll likely refollow some people-- not everyone, but some. i don’t know if/when that might be though. so for now, i’m leaving this message up for maybe a day or two and then, goodbye.

☆

[nihilistic-bitch]

shoutout to depressed and anxious people who often isolate themselves because they don’t have the energy to socialize, they’re scared, don’t believe anyone genuinely wants them around, etc.

[val-ritz]

Robes are stupid. My sorcerer dresses like Petyr Baelish.

[val-ritz]

To expand: if you are a mage, dress like a noble. Do not dress like a wizard. Pointy conical hat and sky-blue robes is medieval semaphore for “kill first and with extreme prejudice.” Tailored black silk over cloth-of-gold and studded with rubies says “Harmless, but valuable; ransom if possible or kill last.” 

If you dress like a noble, they’re not going to pay attention as you take a turn or two to back away from the melee and prepare yourself. The ruse is only broken when you reveal yourself, at which point 8d6 fire damage is screaming toward them at Mach Fuck anyway, so no big.

[8luejay]

im sorry for not talking properly to anyone, im not trying to ignore people i just keep!! being!! negative!! and i’m trying so hard to be positive and good!!! and i’m trying so hard to change myself for the better right now but it’s so hard with everything that’s been happening both with me personally and with the world and i don’t want to drag anyone else down so i just. don’t talk to anyone ever?? i don’t feel like i Deserve to idk,,

i’m sorry for being a bother but i promise i’m trying to make big changes and eventually grow to be worth people’s time !! if you see this i hope you have a great day!!!

[saisscribblecorner]

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[buttscentedbreathmints]

listen we’re always pushing back against anti-vaxxers with the science showing that no, vaccines don’t cause autism, but can we please talk about the underlying problem here which is that people hate autistic children? 

even if the poorly researched pseudo-science was right and vaccines had any link to autism in children, i would still want myself and my children vaccinated because guess what, there’s nothing wrong with autistic people.

 what i hear when people say they don’t want their children vaccinated against deadly illnesses because they believe that vaccines cause autism is not just that they’re horribly misinformed, but that they’d rather have a sick, dying, or dead child than an autistic child. and honestly, that’s pretty fucked up and just goes to show that neurotypical people don’t view us as people who are equally entitled to life.

[movedtoscammer-deactivated20190]

[movedtoscammer-deactivated20190]

how do i tell my psychiatrist this is the only thing that will ever make me laugh anymore

[blackness-by-your-side]

This is very important.  

[blackfashion]

[stonelions]

30 multipurpose prompts, open to interpretation

to write, draw, or whatever. have people choose a number and perhaps a character, or proceed however you wish and invent it all. 

The 11th. 

Lost at the creek. 

Above, there is an attic.

The tree is very old. 

A figure at the edge of the woods.

Horses anticipating a storm. 

One foot in another world. 

Face on the other side of a dark window. 

Driving for many hours through mountains. 

The photograph. 

In search of sea life. 

A blue tin kettle. 

Wanderer on a scorched path. 

It had no eyes. 

Please, let’s go home. 

Small birds, dry grass. 

A hero in the wrong. 

Unearthed bones. 

The sensation of falling as experienced in a dream. 

How far can you carry this?

Conversations with the crows. 

A book infested with ghosts. 

Forgetting why it mattered. 

The protection of laughter. 

Each time we climb the stairs, something changes. 

Wildness on the loose. 

The passage of time as it varies by season. 

Sunlight on rumpled sheets and the smell of pine.

I love you, they said. I love you. 

Submersion in cool water. 

[256x224-deactivated20240130]

We have some sort of weird orange fungus or something in our front garden that smells like cum

[256x224-deactivated20240130]

[haghammadi-deactivated20160411]

[mudwerks]

they’re dry

[thisisnojay]

second guessing your best bets

[killianjonesaf]

WOMEN’S MARCH 1-21-2017 | A GLOBAL MOVEMENT

[toastoat]

found this handsome boy outside today.. Please appreciate him

[drinkableburrito-deactivated201]

you kno wat trope pisses me off

waking up in the morning and having to continue my existence

[8luejay]

i’m thinking about making a sideblog for mental health ramblings specific to what’s going on with me like. most people following me probably don’t care and might get weirded out hearing about that kind of stuff idk. i know i’ve talked about my illnesses here before but some of the stuff that’s come up lately i feel a little uncomfortable broadcasting to people who likely aren’t interested anyway but i just. really need to talk about it on some kind of platform if that makes sense? like i already feel weird about that last post tbh.

hhh. just a thought i’m throwing out there for now i guess. i’d need to think of a url and get a theme and stuff and i can’t do theming when i’m still at my mom’s because her internet is the literal worst lmao,