From the school tour…
Through the derpiest of recess buddy days…
And the troubled years leading on from that~~
All this time… You’re still my one and only~ Here’s to eleven amazing years of having you in my life, My Natty.
Thank you for every single day
I will never forget you. I can't. But I'll keep trying to get better to honour this. To honour you and everything you did for me. I was sick and afraid, I know that now, but I'm really trying. It's just.. Dark now. But I never stopped loving you, I just forgot how to. Not a day goes by that I don't relive these memories and mourn the day you took the light with you, but I understand and I forgive you. And now I need to stop being a coward and face what matters most to me. I am so sorry for pushing you away and convincing myself and you I don't need you. For betraying you. Everything I said was a way of making my own demons seem less terrifying and I hurt the people I loved most. And.. Who loved me most. I want to be better. For me, and for that girl who gave me hope. For that family who took a noisy kid in and gave her a chance. I miss you. With every pulse through my veins and I'll never stop hoping for your best chance. Love, the good memories.














