fmdxyoungjoo:
“sometimes, i wished i got the same treatment as you did for songwriting you know. i’ve never had as much confidence when it came to writing for songs, but still–an opportunity to do so might have seen me making more music much earlier. i don’t supposed you’ve watched recently the developments on the show our songs, have you?” another mild yawn encapsulates her lips, and youngjoo blinks, wondering momentarily if she had been influenced by sohee’s laziness that perforated the air of her home from the moment the younger had stepped in and collapsed upon her sofa. “well, at the very least, i doubt yours is as bad as mine. i saw the statement of tattoo and men fleetingly when i passed, and a shiver went down my own spine.” youngjoo stretched against sohee, glad for once for her tiny body as she squeezed between the edge of the sofa and sohee comfortably.
“spectacular personality is definitely something that i would say that you have, though that might just contrast very differently in another’s eyes.” she sits up abruptly, wobbling a little as she tried her best to balance within the small space that was left for her on the sofa. “and regretting things is something that i can hardly believe happens 95% of the time.” she snorted, thinking back to the moments where sohee would dramatically fall to the ground and whine. “if you really were regretting things all the time, why do i still see you falling to the ground and whining dramatically most or half the time like the big baby you are?” she pinches sohee’s nose lightly, almost reprimanding as the corners of her lips curved upwards in a controlled smile.
“good.” sohee says in finality as she closes off that topic. “you do it to yourself, saying things that i obviously don’t want to hear coming from you. maybe i should just tune you out whenever it doesn’t come to work.” she almost misses the next thing youngjoo said, but the beginning catches sohee’s attention. “really? you should’ve told me.” she was usually unaware when it came to things like this, as she doesn’t spend much time thinking about other people’s desires and goals. “i would’ve fought to have you work on something with me if i had known that was something you were interested in. i would’ve loved to see what we would’ve came up with because yes, i have seen our songs and i’m interested to see if our styles mix or clash."
sohee was good at hiding how much of a hard time she had. it was something she was used to doing for years as an older siblings. “to be honest with you, i didn’t think they’d let me write another song after every night didn’t do as well as a song from us should have. writing something that i was proud of and would good enough to do as well as i don’t need a man was difficult. i don’t think many people noticed but i took a major confidence hit when it was followed by hush. did you know i nearly just gave up after that? luckily up & down was better.” sohee could count on one hand the amount of times she opened up about that. her tedious process of writing her raps weren’t easier either. her style had differed from the one gold star had given to her at debut and there were a lot of complications in order to find her signature sound. “i can tell you that i’m not excited either way. officially blocking out anything about the concert out of my mind from now on.”
“not true. i’m well received by everyone because i am one of a kind. any opinions that differ are simply invalid.” the rapper hears movement, but doesn’t care to see what youngjoo is doing. any contact the leader decided to make with sohee was accepted. “believe it or not, it does. for example, i’m regretting sharing this couch with you because it feels cramped. and if i didn’t do those things i wouldn’t be the me everyone knows and loves.” there’s a slight shift in sohee’s tone as it morphs into the one she had around her siblings. her words are delivered softly out of concern. “but i can be mature if this is actually an issue for you. i know i can be a bit much sometimes.”











