So yeah, what do you focus on when there are twenty trillion things at once racing through your mind? Chill a sec, relax, meditate, seems logical yeah. Done that too, maybe too much haha. Cause then you start telling yourself that everything is okay, and yeah actually it is. But from what perspective? I mean what really “is”. Is there really an “is” or is there just an “appears”. Start smashing your thoughts into the keyboard to see where it leads you? Done that a lot. It’s pretty fun. You get interesting insights now and then. Especially when you read your old ramblings a year later or so and see the similarities. These are both ways of intuition, aren´t they? Maybe I need some more logical way, try to organize my mind somehow.. my goals…ambitions…problems…interests…books to read next and skills…whatever. Done that too, got it all spread out on my whiteboard. But then I´m standing there again looking at this huge mindmap I created not knowing where to start. Feeling overwhelmed by myself haha. So I start with this, then jump to this cause this is really important too, then back to this… woops and im off everything for some days just smoking weed doing whatever pops into my mind spontaneously. And yeah it’s really nice haha. But sooner or later I´m back where I started, or maybe just a bit further on the spiral. Don´t know. I think the conclusion is somehow that I need more discipline. But that doesn´t happen overnight, does it? So pick something to start, go all the way till it’s a habit and only then proceed? Could, work. Let´s try it for the twenty trillionth time haha. Now that i´ve written it down again, the stakes are higher.