a glimpse into the life...
parked and off to run some errands.
(i hope i didnt bend over too often 😵)

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a glimpse into the life...
parked and off to run some errands.
(i hope i didnt bend over too often 😵)
"___thShore MEGAMAX S" 🙈 (iykyk)
(i'm alive, just not very creatively inspired lately. sorry!)
everything you need is on amazon...
this post is a bit different. hope you enjoy.
a while back i was instructed to do what is shown in the video. this instruction was a bit of the relationship dynamic, but also a part of the path to acceptance.
anyway, i get asked about this from time to time so i finally just made a video. i suspect some of you might enjoy if your brain hasn't already wandered to this sort of predicament on its own. ;)
(note that my timer goes up to 99 hours though I believe they make some that can go well beyond that)
enjoy responsibly. ok!?
PS: understanding how water valves work on toilets (and for sinks, same concept!) is also really useful in case there is ever a flood situation. so, this video is instructional and handy. how about that!
How did you come to terms with your incontinence and learn to enjoy it?
what if i told you i am not sure i have? and that it's probably a lifelong thing that always changes, sometimes better and sometimes worse?
and enjoy it? well, whatever enjoyment i get out of it (or really anything, maybe) is the community/human connection that happens occasionally, like here on this site. there are other moments of enjoyment too. anddddddd there are non-enjoyments as well.
9 hours in a sunkiss masterpiece (weird name, right?)
whyyyyyyyy do i love that in the after my legs are forced to be further apart 🙈.
sometimes i record just for me because i want to see how i look. judge me all you want! i bought some new leggings, which is kind of dumb because i can't actually wear them in public, *but* i do like how they look and at home i can be somewhat risky! so, i went to do a walk in them to 1) see mah butt and 2) make sure they don't roll down or do other things that leggings sometimes do.
(btw, this is the most frustrating aspect of diapers - wanting to just go with the athleisure vibe or something similarly tight fitting but not being able to.)
anywayyyyy, had a truly unexpected accident (you can see my total surprise, i did not even notice right away!!!). it was the pee spashing onto the treadmill (volume on!) that caught my attention. sigh. 🙈 you can see i don't even really know what to do when i realize...
added some photos of the aftermath, and the solution, to the end.
my attempt to look at my butt in new leggings = your real world accident wetting video. enjoy, i guess ✨
i bought training paints in a moment of cuteness-overload weakness. andddd, i thought they held "up to" a certain amount (obvi much less than a traditional diaper) *and then* leak. turns out, they just ... straight up leak! but, i guess they do lessen the total size of the wet spot??? anyway, this was an embarrassing walk home! ✨
Have you considered signing up to Fetlife or creating a JFF at all?
Get this one a lot...
If you don't know, either from direct experience or knowing someone with direct experience, content sites are brutal commitments. To deliver what a paying clientbase deserves it takes SO much energy - endless creativity, hard work, editing, on and on and on. Regular, committed creators deserve tremendous credit because it's a job. There are a bunch that are part of this community who are superheros. I genuinely don't know how they do it. (Looking at you @lolaandthens0me!)
So, I've heard enough stories from friends to disinterest me. I won't turn this little outlet - as positive, fun and successful as it is - into a job or money. Most critcially, I'd probably be bad at it and let you down. Second, it would destroy my authenticity, which just doesn't feel worth it. (That's a me thing; not implying anything about anyone else.)
So, no, I haven't thought about it too much.
I have considered FL as a way to meet more people (and partners), but every time I try, I quickly lose interest. If you're not female it's hard to understand how the dynamics of these sites get overwhelming and discouraging so fast.
With all that said, I am happy to engage with anyone (that is respectful) about content/post ideas! Not to make money. Just to be me. And build community, which is ... the best. Anyone can DM me. (But, I will never make a promise on responding, post frequency or content deadline(s).)
what are your favorite diapers? Do you like a a lot of crinkles?
my favorite? well, that's simple: whatever works. I've found, for my body/needs:
> Night: Forsite AM:PM (these are insanely good, no drama)
> Day: BetterDry Day (currently in an OOS spiral which is frustrating)
> Day, Noise Discreet: NorthShore GoSupreme (shorter wear/outings) or Sunkiss TrustPlus (longer wear/outings)
> Day, Bulk Discreet: Tranquility Slimline
if i am just hanging around the house and don't care at all about looks or noise i often use Northshore Supreme. they are a great, dependable daytime diapers but very noisy and fairly bulky/stiff.
generally. i find that the quality of wicking (pulling moisture throughout the whole diaper) is the great differentiator. Forsite and BetterDry are great at this.
there are obviously other great diapers available, many of which are more niche (so i may wear them depending on the circumstance). but, most importantly, above are the ones that work for my body with minimal/no leaks. they might be great for you. they might not. unfortunately, it's a bit of trial and error... and hoping the error doesn't come at the worst time. 🙈
Question: If I can dig up the rest, does anyone want this full story?
Chapter 1
Was every part of the bike making some sort of noise?
The chain produced a constant metallic grinding. Was it ever oiled?
The brake handle made a dreadful whine when pulled. Would it be better to risk crashing?
The fenders clanked and creaked with every bump. This could not be worse!
Among the discordant metallic noises and whines was a particular foreign sound. The plastic of the bag hanging from one side of the handlebar whipped and flapped in the wind. The faster the bike went, the more turbulent the air. And that made the stupid bag obnoxiously loud, calling attention almost as if it were designed for that purpose alone.
Everyone had to be looking. Head down. Keep going.
Which was better? Making more noise and getting there faster, or less noise but taking forever.
Faster. Get this over with.
Is there any difference between when a heart races from anxiety or exertion? And what happens when there is both? Does it beat even faster in a sort of cumulative effect?
Is this what a heart attack feels like?
Whatever the answer, Pete’s heart was near max as he rounded the corner and his home came into view. And as it did, so too did his every sense heighten. All the risks he had taken were now stacked like weights, all pressing on this single moment that was now unavoidable.
With a clang, creak, whine and plastic flap, flap, flap the bike rolled onto the cobblestone driveway. Which, of course, immediately made every noise much louder. How was it even possible this thing could make more noise? Pete winced. Heart racing. Palms sweaty. Hands like vice grips on the handles. Doubt was at an excruciating level. Why did I do this? Why, why, why!
The plastic bag was not opaque, it wasn’t made to hide the contents. And the bike, quite obviously given its condition, had not been ridden in a long while. If anyone was home Pete was caught. For sure.
Please, please, please.
And with one last, prolonged whine and squeal of rubber on metal, the bike came to a stop next to the house.
His fingers were trembling from fear. And too perhaps, from how hard they had gripped the handlebar. Distractedly, he kept looking over his shoulder, to the street, while trying to press the finicky rubber numbers on the keypad. It took three tries to punch in the correct code. Finally, the garage door came to life, itself groaning and creaking. Was the world always this noisy? Pete almost passed out from the anxiety, nearly tumbling face first into the ground trying to peer under the opening door while still balancing on the bike.
Relief.
Yes, yes, yes! No car! No one is home. Oh, thank god.
Before the door was fully open he was inside. The bike was half thrown, half rolled in a corner next to rakes, snow shovels, cobwebs and other not-oft used items that garages seemed to collect. Pete rushed into the house, opening the mudroom door with the plastic bag in one hand, slamming the button to close the garage door with the other.
If anyone had been in the house they would have been confused and maybe even a bit entertained by the manner in which Pete made his way through the house. It was a blur, mud room, kitchen, foyer, up the stairs two-at-a-time and, in no less of a rush then when he started, finally to the safety of his room.
Door slam. Lock click.
Safe.
The world’s noisiest and most translucent plastic bag lay tossed aside, the pharmacy branding crumpled and inside-out. Next to it, directly in front of the boy and the subject of his full attention, was another plastic bag. However, this one was shiny, and almost shrink wrapped tight. It was about the size of a small duffle bag, with a clear plastic strip on top for a handle.
Ta-thump, ta-thump, ta-thump, ta-thump, his heart still raced, but now from anticipation. And, maybe a bit of nervousness, but this time for very new reasons.
In bright blue, italicized letters on a white plastic background the new bag read: Attends
Finally.
Hi When you go on dates when would you tell him that you wear diapers? Was that a 3rd date topic? I don't think they could tell, unless they heard the crinkle?
as a rule, i find it's best not to hide important things in relationships.
practically, this is not usually something i share on the first date unless it comes up on its own. i almost never hook up on first dates, so usually it's avoidable and i can focus on getting to know someone.
if there is a 2nd, 3rd (or beyond) date then yeah, it becomes relevant pretty quickly. it's not really fun or sustainable to hide parts of me. i have tried to hide it though, because i am a human and can get pretty shy/nervous about it.
i also have other ... techniques ... to distract from the issue. wink wink.
oh, also, sometimes it's her. (Not just him) 😉
Back for more science! I've always wanted to see how visible diapers are under things. So, I bought a cheap walking treadmill because ... THIS IS PERFECTLY NORMAL 🙈.
Diapers in the test (listed in order):
Northshore GoSupreme (S)
Sunkiss Overnight (cloth backed) (M)
Tranquility ATN (M)
BetterDry Day (M)
Northshore Supreme Tab-Style (M)
Northshore MegaMax (M)
LNGU Little Melody (M)
All diapers were dry and unused.
All this time I thought I was being discreet with these GoSupreme diapers and, surprise, NOPE!
This science experiment has, quite stunningly, shown very little difference between lower capacity daytime diapers and massive capacity, plastic backed special diapers. Well, in these designer jeans at least - which I admit are not ... perfect diaper attire.
HOW!?
Undoubtedly the results would be different as the diapers fill. But, to start out and look ... the same? Dang!
Lesson learned.
And, quite probably, innocent ol' me has been a bit more obvious than I thought in a lot of my daily life.
Sigh. Sigh? Sigh.
(Also, taking treadmill related requests because now I own this damn thing!)
well, it has been a while, 🙋🏼♀️.
thought i might provide a slightly different "view" into the reality of diapering. in this case, a timelapse of a full week of 24/7. (i enjoy providing slightly varied perspectives as there are SO many other adorable creators out there!)
for me at least, each change presents a decision. what kind of protection do i need? heavy? discrete? reliable? fun? you can see that play out here.
now, multiply this by 52. and maybe you'll be able to get a bit more of a feel for being 24/7 than you had before this humble post.
lots of supplies. lots of choices. well, actually, not really a choice at all.
and, a bit of very close observation will reveal that the top left stack (Northshore GoSupreme - which were fresh out of the pack) sort of "inflates" as the timelase goes on. which raises a good tip for those traveling with a lot of diapers: pack the sealed package! it'll be the most space efficient approach. see! educational!
lots of requests for these, but hey, i gotta wait for the organic moments!
well today was one of those days where i needed to remember why i deal with protection. anywayyy, that created a pretty natural opportunity to satisfy requests for this kinda stuff.
enjoy ;)
it's funny how this reveal is a gigantic fork in the road.
many run... understandable.
some get very interested... wonderful.
here, i am just preaching to the choir. i see you.
a detour from the usual to present ... my inner dialogue 🤪
waiting and waiting and waiting in bed for ... ?
maybe you know.