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posy hawthorne. five. sunshine in the dark.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I don't feel good.

I want mama. I want Gale. I don't feel gooooooood.

[warrkatniss]

  It’s… a bad way of telling someone to ‘go away’.

He can act nice sometimes, but he’s not. If he’s ever mean to you, you’ll tell me, right?

[a-pocketfullofposy]

...Oh. He's not mean to me. My teachers are, though. I like him better than them.

[warrkatniss]

  August Winslade told you that? It is a bad word, and I’m sure Gale would agree with me. But that’s because August isn’t a very nice man.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

But what does that mean? He was nice to me.

[warrkatniss]

I miss you, too.

That’s because the big guys upstairs don’t like letting me have fun. But they can’t keep me away from you now that I’ve found you. You’re stick with me.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

They don't like letting me have fun either. But I do anyway, shhhh. I don't like school, so I hide instead. But Mr. August told me to tell them to sod off instead. What does that mean? I think it's a bad word but he wouldn't tell me. 

[warrkatniss]

Oh, Posy, I - no, I’m not sad. I’m just… thinking. How can I be sad with you around?

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I miss you. I don't see you lots anymore.

[warrkatniss]

  My fam-

… Posy?

[a-pocketfullofposy]

Why do you look so sad? 

[warrkatniss]

They never got them out.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

Got who out? Where? What?

[augustwinslade-archive]

  It doesn’t bloody mean anything!

……..Exactly. You’re a baby.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I'm gonna ask Gale. 

I just said I'm five!

[augustwinslade-archive]

  Because I said so and it’s dumb.

Tell them they smell like pee, then. It’s not dumb, it works.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

What does it mean? Why can't I say it? If you won't tell me, I'll go ask Gale..

It is dumb. And baby-ish. I'm not a baby, I'm five.

[augustwinslade-archive]

………No. It’s not even a word at all. It’s dumb. Don’t say it.

But if you do end up saying it, don’t tell anyone you got it from me. Nooo, you shouldn’t. If they’re not nice to you tell them they smell like poo.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

If it ain't a bad word then why can't I say it? 

No, that's dumb.

[augustwinslade-archive]

Tell them to sod off, then! No, scratch that. I’ll tell them to sod off. Actually— don’t repeat what I said. Ever. …That’s not very nice.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

...What does sod off mean? Ooooh, is it a bad word?

I should say it then. They're not nice to me.

[augustwinslade-archive]

  If you do well enough in school, they’ll allow you to do more stuff?

Conseq— …Bad things.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I don't wanna. Teachers get mad when I don't hear them the first time and everyone else makes fun of me cause I don't hear good. 

[augustwinslade-archive]

  I don’t think you’d want to play this round. This one is more for the adults and soldiers than anything.

You…. left.. There could be some serious consequences to your leaving, you know.

[a-pocketfullofposy]

No faaaaair. I don't ever get to do anything.

Consewhatces?

[augustwinslade-archive]

Wh—

Well…. I suppose we are, in a way. Aren’t you supposed to be in school or— something?

[a-pocketfullofposy]

Ooooh! Can I play? I'm really really good, Gale and Rory can never find me!

...Yeah. I don't like school. I left.

[augustwinslade-archive]

Tunnels.. She’s brilliant. The plan is brilliant. Why didn’t we think of this before?

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I like tunnels! They're super super great for hide and seek. Are you playing hide and seek, mister? 

[a-pocketfullofposy]

I don't feel gooooodd.