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Martin glanced over at her and forced a small smile to his face. He hated the memory of that day and yet he couldn’t forget it, at least now he knew who was mostly to blame for their deaths. “You don’t have to apologise, it’s something that I don’t talk about normally. I’ve only spoken about this with four other people… Oh yeah I’ve stopped blaming myself, I now know who truly was behind it and although it was a accident I’m not sure I could ever forgive him for it.” He nodded slightly at her words and sighed softly. “Yeah and what if when you went back you accidentally altered it in a way that would alter the current you or even erase it completely? There are so many variables in something like that and even the tiniest bit of change can cause a butterfly effect and that’s something that I don’t even want to think about. That is another good reason why I’d rather not have anything to do with time travel… the thought of finding out something that makes things infinitely worse than they already had been isn’t a pleasant one either.” He slowly composed himself and began to cool down as he thought about his ‘friend’ more. “Indeed, she does make me feel happy… along with a few other things that I’d rather not say. I haven’t really told anyone else yet since most people fear mutants or see them as monsters, which is far from the truth. Doesn’t everyone deserve happiness though? I know it can be hard to come by but when you find what makes you happy it’s a wonderful feeling.”
As soon as he was done washing his hands he moved to the side to dry them. “I can’t deny that. There’s so much craziness going on now that it can be a bit hard to handle.”
Lexi nods, “Hey, at least it’s a little bit of closure, right?” She smiles slightly. “Sometimes there’s things you just can’t forgive and it’s reasonable to have those things. So don’t worry too much about forgiving, even if you can’t.” She shrugs slightly. “Exactly. Too many things could change even just with a slight thing. It’s way too risk and honestly scary as hell.” She shakes her head. The woman can’t help but smile as Martin talks about his friend. “Hey, as long as it’s good feelings, that’s all that matters. People fear what they don’t understand, sadly.” She hums in thought, “I mean, yeah, but you get what I mean when I said you deserve it. And sometimes that’s a person.” She smiles softly.
She moves towards the sink and washes her hands. “Yeah, hopefully it calms down soon..”
Martin nodded slightly as he thought about what to prepare. "Yeah, it is and to be honest I'm sure that if I hadn't found out I'd still blame myself." He took a breath as he thought about the man responsible for the death of his mother and father. "Would you believe me if I said that Norman Osborn was the man behind it? I know that it sounds crazy but trust me when I say that it's true. My parents brought me to Oscorp for medical consultation due to a medical condition I had while I was just a young boy. I'd rather not talk about what happened, it's far to painful to talk about." He walked towards the pantry area so he could get the ingredients that he needed. "Like in anything you have to weigh the risks with the benefits of your actions. However the more you mess up the more changes will occur, which means the risks outweigh the benefits." He hummed softly as they spoke about his friend, taking his mind off the other topics they'd been talking about. A faint hint of a smile began taking form on his features as he thought about her more. "It feels better than just good, it feels amazing just like when we first met when we were younger. Everyone fears that which either can't be understood or that which is hard to explain, it's not just reserved for humans. I've seen mutants and even supes who do just the same. Fear is something that everyone feels at least once in their lives and if they deny it then they are lying."
Martin returned with several ingredients and placed them on the counter before looking over at the knives trying to pick out the perfect one for the job. "If it doesn't then we just keep moving forwards until it finally does. And don't let things get you down to much or you'll find that things will start to seem bleak."

















