[ojibwa]

[stupiddangel]

everywhere i look i can see myself

she’s everywhere

[rbhvleo]

it eats me alive.

[rottenbratty]

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

I wish I can just talk about things with someone. like sometimes I just want to say i’m depressed and lost and want to stop existing. but I don’t want them to worry about me or be sad about my feelings. I don’t want them to think “oh no idk how to comfort you” or “not this again.” I don’t want to be a burden or “toxic person”. i just want them to understand and then we can go watch the sunset and drink hot chocolate or something.

[99-97]

"Ur so chill" thanks i gave up

[tearfulangel]

[jovialtorchlight-deactivated202]

jonny bolduc, “gut” 2015

[everythingstarstuff]

[everyonehasamnesia]

As someone recently diagnosed with ADHD as an adult, one thing that’s been helping me grapple with the intense shame I have over all my “wasted potential” is accepting that potential doesn’t exist and never did.

This sounds so harsh, but please bare with me.

I procrastinated a lot growing up. I still procrastinate today, but less so. And yet, I got good grades. I could write an A+ paper that “knocked [my professor]’s socks off” in the hour before class and print it with sweat running down my face.

I was so used to hearing from teachers and family that if I just didn’t procrastinate and worked all the time, I could do anything! I had all this potential I wasn’t living up to!

And that’s true, as far as it goes, but that’s like saying if Usain Bolt just kept going he could be the fastest marathon runner in the world. Why does he stop at the end of the race??

If ANYONE could make their top speed/most productive setting the one they used all the time, anyone could do anything. But you can’t. Your top speed is not a speed you’re able to sustain.

Now, I’ve found that I do need to work on not procrastinating. Not because the product is better, even, but because it’s better for my mental health and physical health to not have a full, sweating, panicked breakdown over every task even if the task itself turns out excellently. It’s a shitty way to live! You feel bad ALL the time! And I don’t deserve to live like that anymore.

So all of this to say, I’m not wasting a ton of potential. I don’t have an ocean of productivity and accomplishments inside of me that I could easily, effortlessly access if I just sat down 8 hours a day and worked. There’s no fucking way. That’s not real. It’s an illusion. It’s fine not to live up to an illusion.

And if you have ADHD, I mean this from the bottom of my heart: you do not have limitless potential confounded by your laziness. You have the good potential of a good person, and you can access it with practice and work, but do not accept the story that you are choosing not to be all that you are or can be. You are just a human person.

[7eselt]

@alrtist

[lilcowgirl7-deactivated20210223]

A Virgo once told me I can be as sad as I want just make sure I’m still doing things and that has changed the way I view everything. I’m like it’s fine that I’m sad right now but let me go be sad at hot yoga and be sad while I’m taking my vitamins and be sad while I’m learning ceramics and while I’m completing my tasks. This might sound like depressing but for me it’s so elevating. Bc I know in like, December for example I will be able to look at how much I’ve expanded myself n it won’t matter that I was sad in August because sadness doesn’t stick. It’s what u do that shapes your life. And I kept doing things. And I shaped my life

[shockpine]

[satanfemme]

people with speech impediments, vocal stims, tics, stutters, an obvious accent, who are mute (to any degree), who talk to themselves, or who have any other noticeable vocal traits, you’re all really cool and wonderful and I’m wishing u all an epic and poggers night

[satanfemme]

more people who’re included in this post: anyone who’s voice doesn’t “match” their gender, or doesn’t “match” the gender they get read as, anyone with disorganized speech, people who use a lot of “filler words”, or anyone who has a lisp. I hope you’re all having another epic and poggers night

[satanfemme]

also shout out to anyone with flat or monotone speech, “too” quiet speech, or “too” loud speech. y’all are poggers and deserve an epic night too

[ddd-444]

I saw a post that said “I wasn’t myself for months and nobody noticed” I felt that.

[mjalti]

me: why burden ur friends with ur problems when u can shut Up?

my other self: when you keep your human side hidden from the people you claim to love, you are robbing them of the opportunity to act as a friend & yourself of the opportunity to experience human compassion 

me: ok….but…….. .. ok so but. ..

[m-eowdy]

am i a prude or am i asexual or am i buried under layers and layers of shame

[anxietyproblem]