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Introvert ? Extrovert ? No, Ambivert.

So, recently I have a little chit-chat with my friend’s talked about work and activity. We discuss lightly until s/he mentions about what I actually like to do for work to match with my personality.

I found a problem with that question. That’s when I tried to find my personality, do I’m an introvert? Or I’m an extrovert? Or either? :O Sometimes I feel like I'm an extrovert, otherwise I could be like an introvert. And I feel that I carry both traits of the personalities. While I busy finding the answer, I decided to Google it. And one word caught my eyes, "Ambivert". I feel new with this term and that's the first time I heard about ambivert. So, I read a few sources I could found and I decided to share it, because this personality is so interesting.

Let's start with one question. What is Ambivert?

Ambivert : am·bi·vert /'ambə,vərt/ noun : ambivert; plural noun :ambiverts a person whose personality has a balance of extrovert and introvert features. 1920s: from Latin ambi-' on both sides,' on the pattern of extrovert and introvert.

Although many people view being introverted or extraverted as a question with only two possible answers, most contemporary trait theories measure levels of extraversion-introversion as part of a single, continuous dimension of personality, with some scores near one end, and others near the half-way mark,. Ambiversion is falling more or less directly in the middle. An ambivert is moderately comfortable with groups and social interaction, but also relishes time alone, away from a crowd.(Wikipedia)

So, ambivert person is equanimous whose display both extroverted and introverted characteristics. While on some day’s ambiverted like being surrounded by many people, on others they prefer to relax on their own and take some time out. As such, they can easily relate to both extremes on the personality spectrum, and have an easier time delving in and out of the internal and external worlds. This may lead to feelings of confusion as many times they feel like a “walking contradiction”, feeling one thing one moment, and another thing the next. Their friendship circle tends to consist of 3, 4, or 5 people. There are some defining characteristic for ambivert, such as :

Equanimous

Enjoys socializing, but also being alone at times

Behavioural decisions usuallu rely on "how one feels", or the context of the situation

Usually has a small group of friends

Flexible

Changeable

Ability to apriciate both inner and outer worlds

Easygoing 

Reading this I tried to take the test here and this is the spectrum to determine my personality

As my result, I have reached 56 of 100 points which means I'm a truly ambivert. And I truly agree with that seeing on how my personality goes this whole time. I always feel contradiction in every personality traits I had. For example, I'm a blunt person who acts more before thinking and speak out loud but I can be so quiet all of sudden and doesn't even bother to talk with other people. Other side I'm also enjoy being around of people and socializing with groups, but mostly at the time I will so shy and can't stand in crowded place.

Recent research by Adam Grant of the University of Pennsylvania's Wharton School of Management has found that ambiverts make the best salespeople. Ambiverts tend to be adept at the quality of attunement. They know when to push and when to hold back, when to speak up and when to shut up. So don't fall for the myth of the extraverted sales star. There are some article that says that ambivert could be so flexible, stable, and intuitive in socialize with others. (Science of People)

There are also some famous ambiverts like Angelina Jolie, John Lennon, Marilyn Monroe, Johnny Depp, Steven Spielberg, Rowan Atkinson, Celine Dion, Leonardo DiCaprio. (Lonerwolf)

And at this point I feel more confident with my personality. No more doubt and wonder even no more feel ashamed of my personality. Because now I’ve found my answer. Yes, I’m a true ambivert and I love being an ambiverted person. :)

PS : Read more about Ambiverts too here and here. And If you would like to learn more about your personality, read more about your levels across the Big 5 Personality Traits and try the test too! Have fun :)

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If you are not willing to risk the unusual, you will have to settle for the ordinary.

Jim Rohn

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New Chapter

Don't presume too much after you read the title. There'll be some plot twist in here *grin*.

Well, let me say Hi! first. Greeting from Bandung, Indonesia on February 2015. Here I am sitting in front of notebook in my office (oops looks like I haven't told you about my new daily life as a worker, but let skip that cause I don't want to write about it yet). Today is a little bit cold, rain just hit Bandung really hard and the weather too extreme recently. So here I am stuck in this lazy-weather where I'm craving some hot tea, blanket, and good shows on TV. And in this 'perfect weather' suddenly I have an idea to fill up my Tumblr again. I am a little bit sad though cause I don't have much time to slack in front of my notebook, writting and scrolling through Tumblr anymore. But now I have some excuse to do so, so here I am posting a new post ! Yeay ! *confetti*

Okay, that's so long annoying intro I've been made without thinking twice what to wrote. My bad. So let's just go to the point. In this 2015, for past days I've recently found so many crazy fun things to do that I've been missing so much. Which is, READING. Yes! You're not read it wrong. READ. READING. Finally I've found my lost self who used to be crazy over books, stories, fictions, fantasy, dramas, suspense, texts and words, and the fresh scent from newly brought book from the store.

Yes, I admit I've forgot about this happiest hobby of me. I forgot when the last I bought a book from the store. I forgot what last book I read. I forgot why I suddenly not into reading anymore. I totally forgot. But in this cold 2015 I've back to my senses and start to reading again, and a LOT! Well I start off with e-book, and now I ended up reading through webtoons. Haven't met a new books yet but it's a good start for me.

And so....

That's why I wrote this post. I want to make a new chapter in my life. I want to liven up my passion about books. And for the jump start I'm going to update every time I read something new. Just so my Tumblr won't be useless and my word skill won't be dull. I also considering to made a new sub-blog from my Tumblr, special just to talk about books. It might be need a lot of effort for now rethinking I've a job to do *cry*, but for now let's stick to the first mission I've made : "Read as many books as I could in 2015".

I hope it will be a great things to do (who says it won't anyway) for me this year. Let's get super excited this year guys ! Positive won't cause any harm.

[a-tsutsuji]

Night (Random-yet-quite-wise) Thought

It's sunday night. Approximately, 7 hours to go before the sun is rising in my country as I typed this. I'm in deep thought as a flash of scenes this past months appear. So many things happens. Meet and goodbye. Good and bad. Adventure. Opportunity. Chance. Failure. And mistakes. I swayed too much in a great deep emotion till I feel the most dangerous negative word in my vocabulary. Regret. I regret after I realised, I'm not cherishing every moment carefully. I feel way too rushed to choose my path. I'm a reckless young woman. So many regrets, dissatisfaction, disappointment feel stir up inside my heart. Even I can't sort it out nicely. So many words of "why I don't". I'm in a blank state. Totally empty. Until I realized I've already forgot my dream, my desire, my real goal in my life. I'm too depressed and distracted to the way I choose the step while inside my heart I know that's how it's supposed to be to achieve what I've dreamt of all this time. Maybe, I'm too afraid of the sudden change. Or maybe I'm just to unconscious of my destiny. Maybe. I'm not supposed to be so regret of everything if I'm aware where I was going. Because even though God (Allah swt) has put your destiny on the line, I believe God (Allah swt) still gave a chance to make your own choice. God (Allah swt) would never let us far from our dream if we don't put any effort on it, right? Believe it will make it happen is more than enough rather than sit down silently without doing nothing. One thing I knew for sure is nothing happens for no reason. And indeed, sometimes strength not only come from words your family or friends said or either from your own body. But it's also coming from your mind and soul. Positive would never do any harm. Good night ♥

[wordsthat-speak]

Sometimes I remind myself that I almost skipped the party, that I almost went to a different college, that the whim of a minute could have changed everything and everyone. Our lives, so settled, so specific, are built on happenstance.

Anna Quindlen, Every Last One   (via exoticwild)

[observando]

I still love books. Nothing a computer can do can compare to a book. You can’t really put a book on the Internet. Three companies have offered to put books by me on the Net, and I said, ‘If you can make something that has a nice jacket, nice paper with that nice smell, then we’ll talk.’ All the computer can give you is a manuscript. People don’t want to read manuscripts. They want to read books. Books smell good. They look good. You can press it to your bosom. You can carry it in your pocket.

Ray Bradbury (via observando)

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“Never push a loyal person to the point where they no longer care.”

(via goodlifequote)

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Elephant Raju Cries After Being Rescued From 50 Years Of Suffering In Chains 

This heartbreaking story is about as elephant Raju from India that had an incredibly rough life. After being poached from his mother he was thrown from one owner to another, until he was left living in terrible conditions with no shelter at night, being used as a beggars prop all day long. Raju survived only from passing tourists and sometimes had to eat plastic and paper while being chained 24 hours a day. A wildlife organisation SOS-UK could not stand the injustice and decided to save him in a daring midnight rescue operation.

The elephant, realizing he was being saved, started to cry: “It was incredibly emotional. We knew in our hearts he realised he was being freed” – claims Pooja Binepal, one of the rescuers in an interview with Presspeople. “Tears began to roll down Raju’s face. Some no doubt were due to the pain but he also seemed to sense that change was coming. He felt hope for the first time” – says another rescuer Kartick.

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My new book Lullabies is now available via Amazon, BN.com + The Book Depository and bookstores worldwide.

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Paying Tribute to Madiba on Mandela Day

To see more tributes to activist and former South African president Nelson Mandela, explore the #MandelaDay and #Madiba hashtags.

Nelson Mandela was only 33 years old when a speech he gave incited a protest in Durban and first landed him in jail. Over the next 10 years, Mandela would be arrested three more times for his work fighting South Africa’s oppressive apartheid regime until a 1962 conviction for sedition sent him to prison for the next 27 years.

“I was hoping to capture some sense of the hardships he suffered,” retired Johannesburg math lecturer Vivien Budge (@vivbudge) says of the young Mandela portrait she painted, “the anger he must have felt at the injustices he witnessed and the relentless tenacity, determination and courage with which he fought for his beliefs.”

After his release in 1990, Mandela helped bring an end to apartheid in South Africa and became the country’s first black democratically elected President. Mandela, who died last December but would have been 96 today, continues to inspire South Africans and others around the world to this day.

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I really like this chart a lot!!

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You don’t need to eliminate animal products from your diet to enjoy the benefits listed in this graphic.

You can lower your environmental footprint by buying locally and environmentally-friendly products. 

You can help support the humane treatment of all animals by buying humanely-raised animal products, and products from companies that support humanely raised animals.

You can improve your health by swapping out conventionally raised animal products and following primal principles. 

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The method of how a person was raised in early childhood can leave a mark, if not a scar, on the person’s personality later in life.

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28 April 2014 00:01

Tidak terasa sudah 1 tahun terlewat semenjak terakhir kali semua perubahan dimulai. Banyak perubahan yang terjadi. Mental dan fisik. Seolah baru kemarin aku berasa di bawah anak tangga, hingga sekarang aku disini hampir sampai di titik teratas. Aku mulai mengingat setiap duka, perih, sakit beserta keluhan dan kesah yang aku lontarkan setiap langkahnya. Mengingat besarnya dorongan, kekuatan, dan kokohnya penyangga di setiap titik ketika aku terhenti. Mengingat setiap titik kecil air mata dan keringat. Mengingat setiap suka, canda dan tawa yang menemani. Mengingat setiap doa tulus dan kasih sayang. Namun aku juga rindu setiap prosesku itu. Aku rindu mereka. Aku rindu mereka yang selalu ada di setiap sakitku. Mereka yang tersenyum menyapaku di setiap rutinitas membosankanku selama 1 tahun. Mereka yang ada dengan sejuta kata-kata yang menyadarkanku ini masih belum apa-apa. Mereka yang memancarkan energi positif dan tanpa lelah menggapai tanganku. Aku rindu setiap sudut yang menyadarkan aku bahwa aku tidak sendirian. Aku rindu setiap rasa sakit dan tangis yang mereka hapus dengan tawa dan senyuman. Aku rindu masa-masa itu. Masa-masa dimana aku menemukan keluarga lain selain Bapak dan Ibuku. Walaupun aku sakit aku rindu. Namun kerinduanku hanya dapat menjadi ucapan syukur dan terima kasih tanpa henti atas pertemuanku dengan mereka. Jalanku masih panjang. Perjuanganku belum boleh berhenti. Bebanku masih berat, dan akan terus selamanya bertambah. Waktu terus berlalu dengan cepat. Dan kini aku harus semakin kuat tanpa harus menunggu lambaian tangan lagi. Membawa kepercayaan yang sudah diberikan bahwa aku kini mampu berjalan sendiri. Masih tersisa 4 bulan lagi sampai aku sampai di pintu yang lain. Pintu yang memulai awal baru untuk mengulang kembali proses lain yang mungkin akan lebih berat dari ini. Sedikit lagi. Aku pasti akan tiba di satu titik untuk memahami semua yang sudah terjadi. Mendapatkan apa yang selama ini Tuhan inginkan untuk aku miliki ketika semua ini bisa aku terima untuk jadi bagian dari hidupku. Secara ikhlas dan syukur. Secara dewasa dan terbuka.

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