Being-In-the-World

24 years of existing, he/him. Law student who needs an outlet. Spread love, not hate. All of the poems signed with “-B” are my work product.

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As you grow older, you think more about your legacy, your future, and everything that comes after you’re gone.

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ibreakeverything

i’m sorry

for everything ever said

for anything i ever did

that broke your beautiful heart

i was broken from the very start

and i never knew, i never knew

how much it hurt, me loving you

i’m sorry...

- B (March 7, 2019)

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pity

let me bleed one more time

upon your finger tips

let me once more say my line

give me this little quip

you’re tearing me apart

my anxieties chomping at the bit

i have no feeling in this heart

here i alone am in this pit

- B (March 7, 2019)

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atlastiamfree

at last,

i no longer shed the tears

spilling pointless thoughts over

you and every thing you do

at last,

i care less about love

shunning it, pushing it aside

how free i am of you

at last,

i have no need for warmth

for my heart is cold

and my body hollow

- B (March 7, 2019)

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solace

Tell the ship to find another harbor

This is no safe place to be

Hoist the sails, see them out

Send them back to sea

Wish them all safe travel

But tell them to take care;

Let all their friends know well

There is no solace here.

- B (March 6, 2019)

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timeandheaven

there is no god in heaven

there is no devil in hell

only fiction to ignore abuses

we all produce ourselves

don’t cast your faith against me

don’t punish me for your lie

leave me living how i see

there is no devil in i

but nature has one master

the stars are all aligned

it is neither he nor her

this master is just time

the only constant presence

the only real “divine”

time picks no favorites

time takes us all in time

- B (March 5, 2019)

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worldsapart

will you remember me?

you already seem to forget

the times we spoke

the moment we first met

i thought you somewhat crazy

you thought me somewhat odd

but even after so much time

you and i are worlds apart

no matter what happens

no matter what future brings

you’ll always be a good friend

even if you forget my name...

- B (March 5, 2019)

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twentynineteen

here we are in 2019,

another year full of immaturity

a single night is worth the fight

our generation’s millennial plight:

how to deal with burdens

of love and hate

but all they really want is

instant gratification

no hallucination

empty validation

tomorrow never comes

you’re dropped like chewed gum

tossed. trashed. forgotten.

don’t end up in the gutter

stay true to yourself

don’t let others let you suffer

you’re worth more than you know

than a one night stand would ever show.

- B (March 4, 2019)

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drowningonland

the light blue surface

clear as day

growing darker and opaque

as seconds fade

my eyes burn with salt

lungs fill with liquid

the chains around my ankles

pull me further

and further

a n d f u r t h e r

a n d f u r t h e r

until i cannot hold on

and my mouth is wide open

gasping

g a s p i n g

h o p i n g

w a i t i n g

and there is nothing.

- B (February 26, 2019)

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visiblyinvisible

is it ever what i say?

no, must be who i am.

vanishing into the background

i slip into the ether

so simply colorless

i hoped they would notice

but the conversations continue

letting me go

ever fading memories, i was always pointless.

- B (February 24, 2019)

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isaythisasafriend

is it really so hard

to understand how the brain works?

to know exactly what it’s like

when the pain hurts?

clearly, you really need to see

the evidence surrounds you

inside a shallow glance

not my opinion, this is true

if you don’t want the consequences

why act so rash with all your chances?

did it ever occur the confusion that’s caused

can rip a simple life away no matter the cost?

i’m cautious, not raucous

you’re nauseous, obnoxious

when you complain about it any day

even when you started this your way!

have fun, but don’t lie

truth hurts even to the blind fly

among us that swarm your moves

waiting for one day you give in and swoon

for your all your lip

to how others are confused

make a conscious effort

to think before you get used.

- B (February 24, 2019)

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friendsdontletfriendsgethurt

don’t use those eyes

iris only tells lies

the light finger tap

doesn’t square with your thoughts

the disconnect

the missed aspect

of who you claim to be

it’s dangerous how you act

around fools and

people like me

loveless and lost

immature and hungry

i grew out of that place

but i care so deeply

please be safe

the beasts are hunting.

- B (February 22, 2019)

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cutitout (pretend friends)

pretend friends

leave you hanging

at the deep ends

as you scream in doom

the night consumes you

there’s nothing else

to take it away

cut it out

don’t play a game

catch yourself

burying friends

until nobody is left

to manipulate

to complicate.

pretend friends

get out of my head.

- B (February 17, 2019)

[loumargi]

ARTIST MAURICE SAPIRO USA, 1932)moonglow

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ugly pt. 1

Underneath

Gorgeous

Layers,

Yikes!

- B (February 17, 2019)

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bestraightupdontlie

all it takes

is a wink and nod

the various cuts

leaving the scars

on the skin

but deeper inside

your whole world crumbles

behind blue eyes

don’t give me the ghost

save the lies

spit out the truth

i don’t need friends that hide.

- B (February 16, 2019)

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sorryiamlikethis

i’m sorry i’m not good enough

sorry to disappoint

sorry that i can’t shake off

the bad i know the point

i wish i wasn’t a lost one

so far behind his peers

no matter what the hell i do

i shatter all the mirrors

my face is not the only

thing i apologize for

sorry for all the moments

i couldn’t take life anymore

i mean all this sincerely

don’t worry, i’m quite alive

existing for no good reason

just seems totally contrived

oh god if you are out there

give me a fucking sign

i don’t want to be alone

when will the stars align?

- B (February 15, 2019)