Chick With A Camera (Learning Life)

Expressing how I feel about my life and who I want to be

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Fear Myself

I avoid mirrors because I fear my reflection I keep the lights off because I rather explore the darkness in real life than the darkest corners of my mind

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Prison with a view

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Dead Presidents

I wish I had an unlimited amount of friend I wish that no matter how much I used them they always came back I wish they didnt care about my selffish reasons for wanting them around I wish all my friends were green with tattoos of dead presidents

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Messy

I am not a writer not even close I don't want be one I just need to get some of the thoughts out of my head and that means what I write is messy, crazy, and a whole lot of fucked up it may drift from one thing to another and make absolutely no sense and that's fine by me cause I just need to clear some space up there

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Afraid

I live in constant fear that I will be nothing, forgotten, not worth remembering and I don't mean to the world like I don't really care about "fame" or anything like that I mean to my family like my children, grandchildren, great grandchildren etc. I'm afraid I won't have anything to offer them you know and let me be honest I'm only 20 years old and I don't have any children don't plan to anytime soon and I know I have time to do something but for some reason in my mind it kills me that I haven't done something great yet ya know and I have dreams (obviously) and I still have time but for me it always the question of Will it be enough?? That's the question that shakes me the most... Will it be enough?