#my mind

[milk-drinkers-stuff]

Random Thought of The Day:

Whenever I need guidance, some random family movie is brought to me, becomes my hyperfixation, and eventually, the message behind it is practically embedded in me.

Don't believe me?

Mid-pandemic, A Goofy Movie taught me to embrace what I love and who I am, even if it embarrasses me.

Today, the embracing myself part is still a HUGE hurdle, but what I love is practically the foundation of my personality.

Post-pandemic, The Bad Guys-- despite it being DreamWorks' test run for their new animation style, has managed to teach me that I'm more than what modern life says I am-- including myself-- and that change starts with doing something small.

Today, I wrestle with snowballing small changes into bigger habits without pressure, but at least I'm not a boot-licking people-pleaser.

And finally, this year. Enter Spider-Man: Brand New Day. What I got from that movie is that adaptability starts with a strong foundation. Self-accountability is a great starting point, but interpersonal connection is where that foundation really is.

All three movies have some kind of focus on family and it's many forms. And due to self-loathing and isolation, I'm in a similar position to Peter, including the bad habits. My next step is to fix that.

I don't know what I'm trying to say, but I do know-- it's amazing what some "dumb movie" and a little bit of self-awareness can say.

[cats-always-right]

When an idea pops into my head, in an instant I become a creator. then, as that idea slowly takes shape and develops its own logic, I am no longer a creator. I have become an adventurer or... a researcher.

[rosasdeathnote]

As I wander alone in a world full of color

I sit and wonder

Watching all that around me fade into darkness

Nothing ever lasts

Bad habits never leave

As a l fall into the deep I sit and wonder

When will it all leave

These feelings, these things that make everything feel not so real

Will I ever deal?

These thoughts of never being worthy

People fade, things fade, eventually I’ll fade

I wish I could trade this sad soul of mine

But I’m afraid it’s all I ever known

I fuel everyone with color when I drown in darkness

They say one day at a time

But it's been years

Never leaving these eyes that only sees fears

In a mind full of light but with a soul that only knows dark

Time passes by but I never seem to heal

Asking all over again.. will I ever deal?

- r.a

[queenovhellblog]

everything in my head is slowly eating me away from the inside, leaving nothing but emptiness that forces me to feel alienated, distant and cold, i am lifeless. as if it were a long, agonizing, real death, whose truth no one believes in just because it can't be seen

[v4nlesbian]

The gringos really think that america is not a continent.. they're going to tell you that south america and north america are two different continents, these are the same people who try to educate you about your OWN country when they don't even know geography, latin americans are americans too

[boobhandler]

Don't fit anywhere hell yeah

[a-autumns]

some nights sleep doesn't feel necessary

i lie in bed and i stare at the ceiling and even when i start to drift off, i drag myself back and think some more,

because i just feel like there's never enough time to think and remember all the things i've forgotten, to analyze myself and others and the world and understand, there is so much i dont understand. there isn't enough time to think these days,

or maybe there just isn't enough time.

(life is fleeting, life is short

i find i want more)