foxyxgrace:
Roy’s response only confirmed what Grace already knew - that Kory had intervened with their strained friendship. It was so much easier to talk to him over text messages because then, she wouldn’t have to look at him and try to refrain from saying or doing something stupid. It had never been that way before, so why did she worry about those things now? ”I mean, we don’t have to stay. In fact, let’s not.” she didn’t want to torment herself like a total masochist by being in this cozy and romantic environment with the guy she’d scarred for life by drunkenly kissing him at Jason and Rory’s party. It would only make Grace feel even worse about the situation because she knew she wanted something she couldn’t have - what would be the point in staying? Did this mean that she actually had feelings for Roy? Even if she did, it wasn’t like he had them for her anyway and even if he did, there were still a million reasons why they couldn’t go there. “I can’t do this with you, Roy. And I can’t tell you that I’m sorry I kissed you at the party because I’m not. The only thing I’m sorry for is not remembering it and ruining our friendship like this. I never wanted that. It’s the most important thing I have in my life. You’re the most important thing I have in my life and of course I screwed that up like I do everything else. I have like reverse Midas touch. Everything I touch gets destroyed and I refuse to do that to you.” Grace hadn’t meant to give him a full blown speech and ramble on endlessly, but now that she was at it, she might as well speak her mind like she was known to do and get it all out there. Kory had lured the two of them here for this very reason, so why not talk things out like their mutual friend wanted? Plus, it was probably good for them to get it out in the open rather than bottling everything up instead and pretend that the kiss hadn’t affected their friendship. “You’re the best person that I know and you deserve the world, whereas I just ruin everything and that’s why I can never be good enough for you. You put me on a pedestal and I love you for it, but… I don’t belong there, you do.” Grace, you’re rambling like an idiot now, so either stop or tell Roy to stop you instead. She’d told her best friend that she loved him so many times over the years and yet, saying those words now somehow felt different. Like it was deeper, more meaningful. Maybe that truly did mean that Grace had feelings for Roy. “I’m dealing with these powers that I still don’t have under control and I’d rather drown myself than hurt you. I already put the twins in danger back when your clone was still walking around and I can’t even forgive myself for that. And while we’re at it, let’s not forget about Thea… I don’t wanna be a third wheel to you and her because I know that’s one battle I’ll never win. And I shouldn’t even be free after what I did. I killed people, it’s why I left. But I should be in prison for taking those lives and we both know it. You can’t honestly look me in the eye and tell me that I’m not a killer because you’d just be lying.”
“...What if I want to stay?” Roy questioned, barely more than a whisper, unsure of himself in a way that he rarely was. He didn’t usually lack for confidence, but discussing this with Grace had torn all of his bravado to shreds. He stared at her as she dove straight into the worst case scenarios of their friendship being destroyed, of everything going wrong and them losing each other over it. His expression crumpled with every statement that she put herself down, trying to jump in at any moment Grace paused to take a breath.
“Okay, okay, can we just slow down for two seconds?” He requested, taking Grace gently by the arm and steering her towards the table he had been sitting at, shooting a glare around at the few people who stared at the confrontation to force them back to their own business. “First off, I... God, I really hate when you say that about yourself.” He muttered with a heavy sigh. “Grace... if you think I’m so great, can you at least trust me to be a good judge of character? There’s a reason I became your friend, your best friend, because I saw everything in you that’s amazing and... I just wish you would see it too.”
He let go to pull out a chair for her, staring at her imploringly to sit down. “Whatever is going on with you, I trust you. You know I hurt people outside of my own control too, that I killed someone under the influence of Mirakuru. And you didn’t walk away from me. You didn’t consider me a killer. So why would I ever think the same of you?” He pointed out, before his brow furrowed a little in confusion. “And Thea... we’re friends. I loved her, she’s always going to be a part of my life. But I moved on, I had so much happen after our relationship ended and so did she. We’re not the same people anymore.”
