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I LOVE A (from death note) MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!! A header by @m0thbite mostly A content and reblogs

[ip1nkish]

hi i’ll uhh post side fandoms and niche stuff here

[deathnotewiki]

August 4, 2002: The second victim of the L.A. BB Murders, Quarter Queen, is found dead.

[wastelandra1d3r]

Mello and matt figurines that i made with my bambu lab p1s and handpainted

I used a needle to paint the smaller parts

[lapislazooliz]

SPIDERMATT!!!!!!

[chapadodelinguaca]

BB: It's a shame L died of ligma

Matt: I thought it was of sugma

A: Sugma?

Matt: (⁠￣⁠︶⁠￣⁠)

BB: SUGMA BALLS

💥💥💥

Mello: I hate this orphanage.

Near: Me too.

[racheldrawsthis]

kira

[irrevocably-delicious]

All of my retro yaoi prints in one place

It's really cool to see them all together. I will be selling these at the upcoming Brisbane Supanova!

[mellocomplex]

this has been cracking me and my husband up for upwards of a week, made by the incredibly talented @terumobyuri check out her stuff please omg rn!!! <3

[jamaddicted-loser]

B! There’s a little tiny L running around near here!! His eyes are so big and he ate the chocolate I gave him and he’s so small and adorable and I just- agwkeudhstgsh!!

I never used to understand cuteness aggression but I think I do now!! You just have to meet him!!

@atlasabove

eeeehhhhhh....

[jojo-the-bird]

[atlasabove]

Absquatulate…

[darklight-owl]

Thinking about B and A holding each other tight because in this horrible abusive excuse of an orphanage all they have is each other

[atlasabove]

I remember there was this one time when Watari was going to take L out for lunch. I had been having a bad day and small things just weren’t working out. Food was always a difficult thing to convince myself to make and eat, so when I had finally worked up the courage to cook and it failed, I was pushed into a deeper flunk.

Watari had come up to my room to check on me. I hadn’t turned the lights back on yet and was simply curled up on my bed clutching my pillow. He simply asked how my last appointment with the doctor prescribing my medication went. I said it went fine, since we had ended up not changing the amount. And then he just left.

I don’t know, that really hurt. I guess a part of me was hoping he would come over and pat me on the shoulder, offer some sort of comfort. But instead I could hear from the hallways him discussing with someone else the outing with L. And I felt so alone and so unloved at that moment. Maybe it was selfish to hope he would hold off on his plans until he comforted me enough to know I would be okay by myself. Instead, I was left to spiral. 

[jamaddicted-loser]

A little 👾 anon guy told me that I should ask you this question directly:

Why exactly have you been acting different/weirder than usual, at least compared to what I’m used to, around me?

Which, I guess I also have had on my mind, but I assumed you were going through a phase

@atlasabove

..You're just... startling.

And I knooowww I shouldn't be that unnerved given the ghosts running around.

But seeing you is disturbing.

[atlasabove]

You find me disturbing? That’s…new. I’m sorry if I’ve been coming off too stro-

WAIT YOU’VE MET GHOSTS?!?! Ghosts are real?? Ohhh I gotta know more about this! Can you show me one?

[jamaddicted-loser]

A little 👾 anon guy told me that I should ask you this question directly:

Why exactly have you been acting different/weirder than usual, at least compared to what I’m used to, around me?

Which, I guess I also have had on my mind, but I assumed you were going through a phase

@atlasabove

..You're just... startling.

And I knooowww I shouldn't be that unnerved given the ghosts running around.

But seeing you is disturbing.

[atlasabove]

You find me disturbing? That’s…new. I’m sorry if I’ve been coming off too stro-

WAIT YOU’VE MET GHOSTS?!?! Ghosts are real?? Ohhh I gotta know more about this! Can you show me one?

[jamaddicted-loser]

.. I doubt I need to show you one. ... I think you have personal experience.

[atlasabove]

But I haven’t met any ghosts, so…

(her stomach all of the sudden has a sinking feeling as she frowns)

Wait, do you think I’m a ghost? Beyond, (grabs his hands in hers) I can touch you. Ghosts can’t do that, can they? Oh my word, is that what this has been all about?

[jamaddicted-loser]

A little 👾 anon guy told me that I should ask you this question directly:

Why exactly have you been acting different/weirder than usual, at least compared to what I’m used to, around me?

Which, I guess I also have had on my mind, but I assumed you were going through a phase

@atlasabove

..You're just... startling.

And I knooowww I shouldn't be that unnerved given the ghosts running around.

But seeing you is disturbing.

[atlasabove]

You find me disturbing? That’s…new. I’m sorry if I’ve been coming off too stro-

WAIT YOU’VE MET GHOSTS?!?! Ghosts are real?? Ohhh I gotta know more about this! Can you show me one?

[jamaddicted-loser]

.. I doubt I need to show you one. ... I think you have personal experience.

[atlasabove]

But I haven’t met any ghosts, so…

(her stomach all of the sudden has a sinking feeling as she frowns)

Wait, do you think I’m a ghost? Beyond, (grabs his hands in hers) I can touch you. Ghosts can’t do that, can they? Oh my word, is that what this has been all about?

[jamaddicted-loser]

(Cringing and yanking his hands away)

I've noticed.

That doesn't PROVE much, A.

My options here are ghost or hallucination. And I'm really not sure which is worse.

[atlasabove]

(visibly more distressed/desperate) And why can’t an option be that I’m alive? That we both are. Living, breathing, talking-that’s what we’re doing, aren’t we?

Hahah, nothing I’m saying is going to make you believe that, huh? I just want you to believe me, B! Please, believe me. I never thought I’d have to prove my existence to my best friend and it’s tearing me up. I’m not-this doesn’t make me feel well, okay?

[jamaddicted-loser]

A little 👾 anon guy told me that I should ask you this question directly:

Why exactly have you been acting different/weirder than usual, at least compared to what I’m used to, around me?

Which, I guess I also have had on my mind, but I assumed you were going through a phase

@atlasabove

..You're just... startling.

And I knooowww I shouldn't be that unnerved given the ghosts running around.

But seeing you is disturbing.

[atlasabove]

You find me disturbing? That’s…new. I’m sorry if I’ve been coming off too stro-

WAIT YOU’VE MET GHOSTS?!?! Ghosts are real?? Ohhh I gotta know more about this! Can you show me one?

[jamaddicted-loser]

.. I doubt I need to show you one. ... I think you have personal experience.

[atlasabove]

But I haven’t met any ghosts, so…

(her stomach all of the sudden has a sinking feeling as she frowns)

Wait, do you think I’m a ghost? Beyond, (grabs his hands in hers) I can touch you. Ghosts can’t do that, can they? Oh my word, is that what this has been all about?

[jamaddicted-loser]

(Cringing and yanking his hands away)

I've noticed.

That doesn't PROVE much, A.

My options here are ghost or hallucination. And I'm really not sure which is worse.

[atlasabove]

(visibly more distressed/desperate) And why can’t an option be that I’m alive? That we both are. Living, breathing, talking-that’s what we’re doing, aren’t we?

Hahah, nothing I’m saying is going to make you believe that, huh? I just want you to believe me, B! Please, believe me. I never thought I’d have to prove my existence to my best friend and it’s tearing me up. I’m not-this doesn’t make me feel well, okay?

[jamaddicted-loser]

There are a lot of reasons that's not an option A. Some of which I can physically see.

But if you want to pretend everything is fine, sure.. I'll play along. If it'll protect your oh so precious feelings I'll just ignore all of the issues.

[atlasabove]

I don’t even know what the issues are…

(her eyes glaze over as her face becomes blanker, as well as her voice calming down into more of a monotone drone)

You don’t need to cater to how I feel, Beyond. I don’t want to waste your time like that. I’ll just…deal with this on my own. Sorry for bugging you again. (Turns away)

[jamaddicted-loser]

A little 👾 anon guy told me that I should ask you this question directly:

Why exactly have you been acting different/weirder than usual, at least compared to what I’m used to, around me?

Which, I guess I also have had on my mind, but I assumed you were going through a phase

@atlasabove

..You're just... startling.

And I knooowww I shouldn't be that unnerved given the ghosts running around.

But seeing you is disturbing.

[atlasabove]

You find me disturbing? That’s…new. I’m sorry if I’ve been coming off too stro-

WAIT YOU’VE MET GHOSTS?!?! Ghosts are real?? Ohhh I gotta know more about this! Can you show me one?

[jamaddicted-loser]

.. I doubt I need to show you one. ... I think you have personal experience.

[atlasabove]

But I haven’t met any ghosts, so…

(her stomach all of the sudden has a sinking feeling as she frowns)

Wait, do you think I’m a ghost? Beyond, (grabs his hands in hers) I can touch you. Ghosts can’t do that, can they? Oh my word, is that what this has been all about?

[jamaddicted-loser]

(Cringing and yanking his hands away)

I've noticed.

That doesn't PROVE much, A.

My options here are ghost or hallucination. And I'm really not sure which is worse.

[atlasabove]

(visibly more distressed/desperate) And why can’t an option be that I’m alive? That we both are. Living, breathing, talking-that’s what we’re doing, aren’t we?

Hahah, nothing I’m saying is going to make you believe that, huh? I just want you to believe me, B! Please, believe me. I never thought I’d have to prove my existence to my best friend and it’s tearing me up. I’m not-this doesn’t make me feel well, okay?

[jamaddicted-loser]

There are a lot of reasons that's not an option A. Some of which I can physically see.

But if you want to pretend everything is fine, sure.. I'll play along. If it'll protect your oh so precious feelings I'll just ignore all of the issues.

[atlasabove]

I don’t even know what the issues are…

(her eyes glaze over as her face becomes blanker, as well as her voice calming down into more of a monotone drone)

You don’t need to cater to how I feel, Beyond. I don’t want to waste your time like that. I’ll just…deal with this on my own. Sorry for bugging you again. (Turns away)

[jamaddicted-loser]

... yes sure. You dont remember the worst day of both our lives. Of course you don't.