THERE'S AN EXIT WOUND.

[abject]

* 𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐂 𝐑𝐀𝐋𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇. 𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍 𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐃.

exploring ; 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘩𝘰𝘰𝘥, 𝘳𝘶𝘳𝘢𝘭 𝘶𝘱𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴, 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘵𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦, 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘦𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧, & 𝘧𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢 𝘸𝘢𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰𝘯'𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘪𝘯.

[paralyziingfears]

[  ....  ]                  no  matter  what,  in  any  circumstance,  aaron  was  always  going  to  find  eric  to  be  the  cutest  and  most  gorgeous  human  being  in  his  eyes.  he  couldn't  believe  he  had  gotten  so  lucky  when  so  many  others  have  fallen  on  bad  luck  during  these  trying  times.  he  constantly  wondered  what  he  had  done  to  deserve  someone  as  kind  and  compassionate  as  eric.  he  had  fit  his  missing  piece  so  well  that  he  couldn't  imagine  ever  being  with  someone  else.  that's  why  it  terrified  him  every  so  often  when  he  wondered  what  he  would  do  if  he  were  to  lose  eric.  it  would  be  like  missing  an  arm,  and  he  doesn't  think  he  could  live  without  him.

aaron  looked  over  with  a  smile  still  hanging  off  his  lips  when  eric  began  speaking,  asking  him  a  question  he  didn't  exactly  see  coming.  he  pondered  for  a  moment,   ❝   i  haven't  thought  about  it  before,  but  i  certainly  wouldn't  say  no.  is  that  something  you  had  in  mind  ?   ❞   he  asked,  chuckling  a  bit.  he  heaved  his  backpack  a  bit  on  his  back  as  he  continued  to  walk  beside  him,   ❝   did  you  have  somewhere  in  mind,  particularly  ?   ❞   he  added  in  question.

it  definitely  wasn't  something  aaron  had  thought  about  before.  leaving  alexandria  was  a  thought  that  scared  him;  he's  gotten  so  accustomed  to  being  within  the  walls,  away  from  danger  of  walkers  and  potentially  bad  people,  that  leaving  was  an  option  he  never  really  considered.  of  course,  he  left  occasionally,  but  those  were  missions  to  recruit  people  back  to  their  community.  this  would  be  ...  a  trip?  he  shrugged  a  bit,   ❝   how  long  were  you  thinking  ?   ❞ @abject.

[abject]

the breath eric hadn't known he'd been holding was released ; the question having gone over far better than he expected it to. of course there wasn't a single scenario in how mind that played out violently, the thought of aaron so much as raising his voice was out of the question -- still, eric knew how much the other loved alexandria, and so to bring up the idea of leaving didn't come without its share of nerves.

❝ i wouldn't say it's something i 'had in mind' -- just something that i've thought about before, ya'know, in a hypothetical daydreamy way. ❞ incredibly unconvincing, he was sure. a moment of silence fell, the sounds of boots on pavement louder than usual as eric took his time deciding on how to continue on, not wanting to push the topic, but happy that aaron hadn't tried to drop it completley. ❝ i think maybe i had a delayed reaction to some of this, like it's just hitting me how permanent it all is. can't stop thinking about home ; my home, our home, your home especially. guess i just regret not getting to really appreciate the place that made you. ❞ and that would be where the regret conversation came to an end if eric had any say in the mater, as that was another thing that had been on his mind far too often in recent weeks. ❝ that's pretty far off though, i know that, and i know it would be risky and stupid so . . . i'm open to suggestions. ❞

[abject]

when will mother return from war ? ( i'm mother )

[bisexualcastiels]

I know it’s been 15 years. You remembered everything.

Domhnall Gleeson as Billy Johnson in HBO’s ‘Run’ 

[insufferablemonsters]

jessie  was  enjoying  every  second  of  company  with  eric.  she  couldn't  remember  the  last  time  she  had  a  moment  of  peace  with  someone  that  wasn't  incessantly  watching  every  move  she  made  or  judged  every  word  that  passed  her  lips.  she  could  tell  their  friendship  was  something  she  was  going  to  cherish   —   and  she  really  needed  that  in  her  life.  she  noticed  the  way  he  rolled  his  eyes  when  she  had  returned  the  curious  question  of  what  he  did  before  the  world  became  the  way  it  is  now.  but,  it  didn't  seem  like  an  aggressive  or  an  annoyed  gesture  of  any  sort.  she  would  take  that  as  a  win.

she  listened,  and  before  she  could  inquire  more  information,  he  had  already  taken  it  upon  himself  to  explain  further  his  past  occupation.  she  chuckled  lightly,      ❝     i  take  it  that  this  question  isn't  your  first  rodeo     ❞     she  pointed  out,  half-smiling  as  she  sat  back  in  her  seat.  she  nodded  a  bit,      ❝     did  you  like  it?  it  doesn't  sound  half-bad,  sounds  like  you  were  always  busy  and  busy  it  never  a  bad  thing.  at  least,  not  in  my  book    ❞     she  shrugged.  she  never  minded  her  job  as  a  hair  stylist  back  in  the  past.  she  had  a  few  friends  in  the  neighborhood  salon  she  worked  in,  and  it  had  always  been  her  place  to  escape  from  her  home  life.  she  wondered  if  she  could  find  that  again  here  in  alexandria.  the  thought  made  her  happy  for  a  brief  moment.

❝     it  also  sounds  like  that  comes  in  handy  with  what  this  community  needs.  you  guys'  needed  a  hair  stylist  and  here  i  am,  you  got  me     ❞     she  joked  with  a  smile  still  hanging  off  her  lips.     ❝     i'm  assumin'  that's  basically  what  you  do  now.  any  good  luck?    ❞

[abject]

known far and wide for not quite being able to tell when to stop talking, judging by the reaction he received from the other eric was confident in saying that this time he'd managed to keep the facts of the matter concise enough to keep his conversational partner from losing interest -- that, or jessie was so good at faking politeness that it was downright dangerous ; though honestly, either option was fine by him.

❝ not even close to my first rodeo. ❞ he would confirm with a somewhat apologetic smile, hoping that the way he'd hopped right into things hadn't come off as overtly rude. ❝ i did like it, yeah. you're definitely right about it keeping me busy, and you're even more right about everything we learned being useful with what we do now -- but for the most part? it was just a job, other than meeting aaron a lot of it, even the things that felt amazing at the time, are pretty forgettable now. ❞ not exactly the most heartwarming tale of meaningful employment but the truth was the truth, and if you couldn't be honest about how lackluster your job was even during the collapse of civilization, then was what the point in continuing on?

fingers ran through copper hair for a moment as jessie spoke, his free hand eventually providing a so-so hand gesture as the next question was thrown his way. ❝ luck would be a . . . generous way to put it. ❞ eric would reply, the word luck not quite fitting with the current circumstances they were all being forced to live through ; still, he knew what she had meant, and with that in mind he went over every individual they'd brought through the gates, trying to think of someone who really stood out when it came to useable skills.

❝ it isn't a very interesting answer, but assuming we're all stuck here for an extended period of time, and right now it's looking like that's the case, i'd say our few teachers come out on top when it comes to being the best finds. having a doctor is great, obviously, and in a completley not-kiss-assy way having a stylist will do more for morale than you can even imagine ; but the kids are important, and they need someone who actually knows their way around education. ❞ a pause in speech before deciding to cover his bases, not wanting to come across as a baseless know it all given his child-free status. ❝ that could be bullshit though, as the only person in the room without kids i'm completley willing to be corrected. ❞

@paralyziingfears

[abject]

busy with work reminder that i love eric , bye.

[ohisms]

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐏𝐀𝐍𝐈𝐂 𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐀𝐂𝐊𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐄 . ( a collection of lyric prompts based on various works by ashnikko . adjust phrasing as necessary , mature themes and language are present . )

attitude and the booze won't save you .

you fuck my life up then you say "my bad" .

you don't seem to see what a cliche you are .

repeat after me , "i'm over it" .

you don't ever cross my mind , what's a sheep to a tiger ?

i'm no prey , but i am pursued .

my best friend thinks that i'm a dumbass .

the world is burning and i laugh at the blaze .

on your horse so high , i swear to god i'm higher .

heard a rumor that you said you made me who i am .

i'm too healthy , wealthy , well fed .

i don't have the time to pretend you're funny .

self - made , self - paid , how dare you speak my name ?

i hate you so much right now .

you're not special , it's not cute .

hi , it's me , back again . here to remind you he's not worth it .

i slip up , i text you , i forget that you were so disrespectful .

they told me to be nice and i told them to bite me .

you don't want to see me bratty .

i put that teddy bear you gave me in a blender .

whiskey in my hip flask , nothing fruity .

i can see the desperation , i've got you right where i want you .

you can't stand to see me shine .

so lame that i'm your only claim to fame .

i like how you look when you really beg .

i need a new toy just to cleanse my palate .

it's gonna hurt , it'll sting .

only one strike , then you get the boot .

the only thing you seem to give me is sex .

you think you're the man , bitch please .

we both know it wasn't love , it was a big bad habit .

i only trust a fella for some light amusement .

unfortunately , you made the mistake of underestimating me .

you wish you could sway my attention .

tell me what you need .

there was potential in you .

i wanna make a couple bad decisions .

i'm no cinderella , but i like the shoes .

i do well for myself , nothing you do is extraordinary .

my dumb ass should be a little more cautious .

fuck a princess , i'm a king .

i say i won't do it , then i do it and i make myself sick .

you think you're worth all the fuss ?

to tell the truth , role models weren't around me much .

why am i such a sucker for a fuckboy's freckles ?

i say it's a no - brainer , now .

i'm crazy , but you like that . i bite back .

you already know i'm not shy .

what we did was childish , can we put this behind us ?

nothing was nice , but i loved every minute .

i don't give a fuck , i have more fun on my ones .

i've been predisposed to trauma since i was eleven .

you can keep the image of my butt as a souvenir .

being a bitch is my kink .

you're still taught the same shit .

i think she really likes me .

hide your back , she likes to stab them .

i hate that i'm so self depricating , more comfortable in bad situations .

i'm a little faded , you look like a fuckin' painting .

when i'm with you i have amnesia , got me without a mind .

i don't let a fucker on the internet tell me nothing .

this is all because you want to say you've done it .

i'm fresh out of patience .

you wish i missed you . back the fuck up .

i'm a sucker for a little devastation .

coulda , shoulda , woulda , but you did it .

i swear i'm not crying , the sun's just bright .

tell me why i need you over the next .

i'm eager to hurt more .

i swear my blue vibrator brings me more joy .

i gave your girlfriend cunnilingus on my couch .

you better stock up on tissues , jacking off to all my pictures .

fake it to the top .

typical of me to go and ruin the party .

i'm having the best time of my life .

i'm having the worst time of my life .

you look dumb now that i've come to my senses .

what do you really mean when you're calling me nice ?

you wanna hold a gun but they made you a pinup .

i forget that you're still so disrespectful .

your love is not impressive .

tell it to my manager , he'll tell you "pay a fee" .

now that i can think rationally , i feel so stupid .

everybody says they love me but i'm still brokenhearted .

it's like i need a babysitter , someone to come get me .

god made me pretty , you made me mean .

say you want my body , let me give it to you .

i'm not in your circle , baby .

i just wanna push you to the edge now .

your sad life is never getting better .

what are you mad at me for , huh ?

i was living good until your locusts and your plague hit .

forgive me for the nasty things i say when i'm wounded .

so you're scared of me now , huh ?

women hold the weight of the world .

there's something to be said for a bitch who can top me .

if nothing matters , then i'll be fine .

you hate me cause you hate yourself .

dust yourself off , girl , keep your chin up .

he says i'm a lost cause and he might be right .

i'm that "fuck up your life" girl .

i would crawl through broken glass to get home .

i play my life like a video game .

i think you've gotta do way more if you wanna please me .

what's he doing ? i don't need a brave knight .

i deleted your number .

i'm not shy , i'll say it . i've been picturing you naked .

legs getting tired , can we switch positions ?

you put a knife in my back but you'll never be the death of me .

i could squash you like a little rotten fruit .

you could never , 'cause you're not clever enough .

we were good while it lasted .

my baby calls me bossy .

i don't really need a man , but sometimes i want one though .

i can't even wear my skin without them asking where i've been .

i can make you call remember me .

stupid boy thinks that i need him .

hate me 'cause i'm beautiful , bitch i don't like you either .

i think you know you can't replace me .

who do i have to kill to make everybody love me ?

i try to think , but it's no use .

maybe we can love until we're dead .

this is not an invitation .

how dare i have private desires ?

now you're crying and you're shaking ?

nothing about you is attractive to me , now .

am i fuckable enough for you ?

i don't want you and i don't want your homie .

please don't think that the sex is gonna cloud my view .

can't believe i let your hand inside my bloomers .

tell me how my ass tastes , little bottom feeder .

you don't know your way around a pussy .

i want it , i win it . call it ambition .

i don't need the dick - i need magic , i need money .

i know you think about me in the shower .

i've got several dummies that wanna get on me .

this is so small in the big simulation .

go find another bitch to hoover , count the days until you lose her .

i know you think about me with your hand down your trousers .

you don't know anyone else like me .

it's a therapist you need .

[abject]

eric starter-call ( and/or plotting call ) ♥ for the void ♥

[abject]

Fun little mun meme for friends.

Name / Alias: I've never had one on here!

Are you over 18? : Yes / No

– W R I T I N G –

Are you selective about who you write with? : No (anyone) / Semi (most people) / Yes (some people) / Highly (few people) / Private (mutuals only) Are you selective about who you follow? : No (anyone) / Semi (most people) / Yes (some people) / Highly (few people) If your muse is canon, how much do you adhere to canon? : Not at all / A little / Some / Mostly / Strictly / Not Applicable What post lengths do you write? : One-Liners / Single-Para / Multi-Para / Novella Do you use icons and/or GIFS? : No / Gifs / Icons / Yes / Sometimes / Not yet, but I plan to. Do you write on other platforms? : No / Yes What level of plots do you write? : Unplotted / Open-Ended Plots / Semi-Plotted / Fully Plotted Epics / Any and all How quickly do you usually respond to threads? : Very Slow (more than a month) / Slow (3-4 weeks) / Average (1-2 weeks) / Fast (less than one week) / Very Fast (less than three days) / Depends on rl situations or mood. What types of themes do you like? : Adventure / Romance / Fluff / Angst / Violence / Tragedy / Domestic / Family / Any and all What genres do you like? : ( Feel free to add! ) High Fantasy / Supernatural / Science Fiction / Historical / Horror / Comedy / Romantic / Drama / Action / Smut (very selective) / Adventure / Espionage / Dark / Emotional / Depends on mood Are there any themes you’re uncomfortable writing on your blog? : (Not triggers) No / Yes / Sometimes Do you have any triggers? Do you request it tagged? : No / Yes

– S H I P P I N G –

What types of relationships are you open to? : Romantic / Platonic / Familial / Any What types of pre-established relationships are you open to? : Romantic / Platonic / Familial / Any Do you have OTPs? : No / Chemistry Only / Yes / Depends Do you have NOTPS? : No / Yes What is your muse’s sexual orientation? : Heterosexual / Heteroflexible / Bisexual / Pansexual / Homoflexible / Homosexual / Demisexual / Sapiosexual / Asexual / What is your muse’s romantic orientation? : Heteroromantic / Heteroflexible / Biromantic / Homoflexible / Homoromantic / Panromantic / Demiromantic / Sapioromantic / Aromantic / Are you comfortable writing smut? : No / Selectively / Yes

How early in a relationship do you ship romantically? : Autoship / During plotting / After a couple IC interactions / Several IC interactions / Slow burn / Plot dependent / Never / completey depends on the writing partner Are you open to toxic ships? : No / Selectively / Yes /I am not sure Are you open to problematic ships? : No / Selectively / Yes / I am not sure Are you open to polyamory shipping? : No / Selectively / Yes / I am not sure Are you an exclusive shipper? : Never / Sometimes (not currently but i'm not against it) / Yes Does crack shipping ever happen? : Nope / Yes / Depends

Tagged by: @scarfacewastaken Tagging: my lil group has disbanded for the most part so : , ) anyone who wants to do it.

[abject]

. . . way back when i started this blog i needed an fc for eric's college bestie so i chose someone who fit the bill in my head, and as someone who doesn't keep up with what actors are doing i have to say that it's wild to suddenly see him everywhere.

[gleesonarchive]

"Fuck" Episode 3 of HBO RUN

[abject]

eric starter-call ( and/or plotting call ) ♥ for the void ♥

[abject]

The momentary urge to change Eric's fc to L. Pace just for the hell of it, but then realizing that, when combined with his current fc, the two together actually make the perfect Eric & Aaron combo 🤔

[insufferablemonsters]

aaron  often  allowed  himself  to  be  engulfed  into  the  fantasy  of  living  a  normal  life  in  a  normal  world  because,  if  he  didn't,  he  would  feel  miserable  constantly,  and  he  didn't  want  that.  he  knew  the  world  they  were  forced  to  survive  in  was  a  shitty  one;  one  that  lacked  sympathy  and  compassion  and  excelled  in  misery  and  pain  and  suffering.  but,  despite  all  of  that,  he  chose  to  believe  there  was  something  worth  surviving  for.  eric  was  that  constant  thing.  he  was  the  love  of  his  life,  the  light  that  guided  him  when  he  felt  lonely  or  unsure  or  scared,  and  he  didn't  want  to  forget  that.  being  miserable  in  this  world  would  make  him  forget  all  the  good,  and  he  refused  to  do  that.  these  walks  they  took  were  small,  but  they  meant  everything  to  aaron.  he  was  able  to  spend  time  with  eric  away  from  the  chaos  of  the  community  back  at  alexandria.  just  the  two  of  them,  taking  a  hike,  and  enjoying  each  other's  presence.  that's  the  only  thing  he  wanted  to  focus  on;  not  the  death  that  surrounded  them.

a  part  of  him  knew  eric  didn't  feel  quite  the  same.  sometimes  he  could  tell,  just  a  little,  that  he  was  pretending  just  for  him,  and  he  appreciated  it.  he  just  wished  eric  could  see  what  he  saw  through  his  own  eyes.  he'll  never  stop  trying,  though.  he'll  never  stop  putting  a  smile  on  eric's  face  or  make  him  laugh  just  so  he  can  hear  that  beautiful  sound.

aaron  couldn't  help  but  chuckle  at  eric's  statement,      ❝      but,  a  cute,  roasted  tomato,  and  that's  all  that  really  matters,  right?      ❞     he  joked,  teasing  him  was  his  favorite  pastime.  he  looked  up  at  the  sun  briefly  with  his  hand  over  his  brow  and  then  back  at  eric  as  he  continued  on  foot,    ❝      try  to  stick  to  the  shadows  of  the  trees.  as  much  as  i  love  to  see  you  blush,  i  really  don't  want  you  to  get  hurt    ❞     he  added.  his  hands  grip  the  straps  of  his  backpack  on  either  side  of  him  as  they  traveled  side  by  side.  he  knocked  his  hip  against  eric's,  smiling  to  himself,      ❝      yeah,  it  is  nice.  the  weather  is  great  up  here      ❞     he  teased  back.  he  shrugged  lightly,    ❝      no,  i  really  think  they  shape  me  into  the  man  i  am.  into  the  man  you've  come  to  know  and  love.  am  i  wrong?    ❞     he  responded,  wiggling  his  eyebrows  at  eric  in  a  faux  cocky  fashion.  these  are  the  moments  he  lived  for.

[abject]

Was being called a cute roasted tomato the best compliment he'd ever received? As much as Eric would love to have said no, as he thought it over for a moment the sad truth was that it very well may have been pretty high up on the lifetime-compliments-list, if only because it had been Aaron ( that weirdo ) who said it. Though the sun-avoiding advice Aaron sent his way was both reasonable, fair, and sweet, Eric found himself ignoring it all together in lieu of weaving back and forth in a senseless pattern, the sun overhead ignored to the best of his abilities -- choosing to very obviously ignore the eyebrow wiggle seen in his peripheral vision. “ Hey, ” He began, a completley useless interjection given that he already had Aaron's full attention. “ You ever think about taking a reeeally long walk? I mean a 'once things are settled enough back home that they won't need you for a while' kind of long walk? ” It was a silly question, but for better or for worse 'silly' was a permanent fixture in their relationship ; and Eric really couldn't think of a better way to say yo let's blow this place off, head to Vermont, and go see if your childhood home is still standing ! From the outside looking in the question may have come across as out of the blue and completley off the cuff, but the thought of leaving, of momentarily abandoning their new home in hopes of revisiting a once-upon-a-time home, was something which crossed Eric's mind more and more often with each passing day.

[abject]

i was just creepin’ through the scene where gracie’s dad dies and, like, can we appreciate the post-apocalyptic decorating skills her parents had? their shit was cute af AND they made their bed that morning        i could quite literally cry about it : )

[sonofsaviors]

"Nah. Mom's parents passed away when I was little. My Aunt Lenore was cool, but she lives - lived - in Texas." A shrug of the burly teen's leather jacketed shoulders; the piece of clothing is similar to his father's - a gift and a way to ensure his child's loyalty and association with his father with the Saviors. Logan doubted Negan meant it as such, but it had helped cement his son's rule over the Saviors as his heir; that and the fact that Logan looked like a carbon copy of the older Smith. "And when I asked Dad about his Dad, he always got... this weird look on his face and said he didn't have a father. I didn't want to make him sad, so I stopped asking. My Grandma Jolene was awesome. I wish I could remember more about her, but she died when I was six."

[abject]

Aunt Lenore down in Texas, a missing grandfather who was most likely a real piece of work, and grandma Jolene who hadn't left enough of a mark to remain fully-memorable ; if ever the communities held a Logan themed trivia night, Eric was sure to win . . . though the odds of that specific scenario coming to pass were, he would admit, extremely low.

“ Do you remember which part of Texas your aunt was from, and did you all get to visit often? ” Eric's own family had been spread out across multiple states, but visits were rare when it came to traveling back down south -- part of him wished that he felt worse about that fact , like maybe he should have cared that they'd all neglected to spend more time together ; but in truth? The extended portions of his family were as good as strangers to him in a lot of ways, and it was hard to miss people you hardly knew to begin with.

[cre8edd-deactivated20250621]

❝ sometimes, but not all the time. ❞ he answered simply. ❝ when they were younger, at the beginning of this, they were very confused, but they learned quickly that making too much noise would potentially put themselves and everyone else in danger. ❞ he explained. ❝ when the were younger, before all of this, they were quite the handful, especially our second oldest, he was quite the adventurous one when he wanted to be. broke a bone or two from climbing the damn tree we had in the backyard of our home after we told him not to climb it. ❞

[abject]

“ Can't blame him for that one. ” Eric said with a smile, shrugging on the kids behalf. “ Broken bones are one of the top childhood rights of passage. For me it was a broken nose, but I think that counts all the same. ” It was his nose, and he'd been a little older than a child at that point, but surely teenage injuries could still count towards the childhood experience when viewed as a whole. “ How about you -- ever break anything? ”