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been really into the đ emoji lately i suppose to remind myself that there is joy to be found even in the direst of circumstances
Woah that's crazy I actually know everything though
I am having a good time that will probably last for ever this time
whatever tho. not like i really care that much because im cool and easy going
there r literally billions of reels u could have seen b4 u die but instead u wasted ur life being with those u love.
the human body when you use it and exist in it
nobody plays a deranged closeted homosexual in love with his best friend quite like robert sean leonard
do you happen to have any information about martha manning?
Unfortunately, we donât know much about Martha Manning. We donât even know what she looked like (and this pains me so much). Pretty much all we know about her revolves around her relationship with John Laurens.
Martha was born in St. Kitts in the West Indies. She was born and/or baptized on January 8, 1757. Her family moved to England by the year 1769. Her father William Manning was a sort of business partner with Johnâs father Henry, so John may have met her when he first arrived in London in October 1771. If he did not meet her then, he certainly met her when he returned to London at the end of 1774. John and Martha seem to have gotten along as friends, which eventually led to them having sex. As you probably know, Laurens got Martha pregnant and married her to preserve her honor and the honor of their child. She and John married on October 26, 1776. We know that Martha had a difficult birth in January 1777, and I believe Frances Eleanor Laurens was ill for the first few weeks of her life. Martha seems to have written to John fairly often (at least more than John wrote to her), and she would often send her letters through Henry Laurens to make sure John got them (Henry would get her letters, forward them to John, and scold John for not writing her more often). While Henry Laurens was imprisoned in the Tower of London, she visited him. When Martha learned that John was in France in 1781, she tried to visit him there but was too late. She would die in Lisle, France near the end of 1781 (I canât find an exact date, but it was around October/November).
I still donât quite understand what happened to Angelica Hamilton after Philipâs death? Could you explain?
What happened to Angelica Hamilton remains something of a mystery, largely because she lived in the dark ages of mental health treatment. When she was younger, Angelica was a smart, talented, and happy young girl. Allan McLane Hamilton described her as âa very beautiful girlâ and âa charming character.â (Intimate Life, p.219). She took dancing lessons with Nelly Custis, and played the piano well. She also possessed some of her motherâs Schuyler-spunk. In November 1793, Alexander Hamilton wrote a letter to his daughter praising her for beginning to learn French and reminding her to behave herself while sheâs staying with her grandparents:
I was very glad to learn, my dear daughter, that you were going to begin the study of the French language. We hope you will in every respect behave in such a manner as will secure to you the good-will and regard of all those with whom you are. If you happen to displease any of them, be always ready to make a frank apology. But the best way is to act with so much politeness, good manners, and circumspection, as never to have occasion to make any apology. Your mother joins in best love to you. Adieu, my very dear daughter.
On December 15, 1793, Philip Schuyler informed Hamilton, âMy Angelica3 is perfectly happy, And very lively.â Angelica and her father maintained a teasing relationship into 1801, as indicated by a letter Hamilton wrote to Eliza while he was away on business:
Give my love to Angelica4 & assure [her] that I did not leave her pye out of resentment for her having changed its original destination; but because it was impossible to take it with us without abandonning a basket of Crabs which was sent to my care for Mrs. Rensselaer.5 It has always been my creed that a ladyâs pleasure is of more importance than a Gentlemanâs, so the pye gave way to the Crabs. It was a nice question, but after mature reflection I decided in favour of the latter. Perhaps as a Creole I had some sympathy with them.
No source seems to indicate Angelica having any kind of mental health issues up to this point. Allan McLane Hamilton is the only source who appears to pinpoint the cause of Angelicaâs breakdown. Although AMH was rarely writing from first hand experience, his father, Philip, does seem to have maintained a relationship with Angelica, (see, e.g., Eliza Hamilton to Philip Hamilton, 23 May 1837, printed in the Intimate Life, p.221), so itâs very possible AMH met his aunt and knew her story from the rest of his family. Heâs therefore fairly credible as a source (though the family were likely not well informed about what was really wrong). AMH described:
Upon receipt of the news of her brotherâs death in the Eacker duel, she suffered so great a shock that her mind became permanently impaired, and although taken care of by her devoted mother for a long time there was no amelioration in her condition, and she was finally placed under the care Dr. MacDonald of Flushing, and remained in his charge until her death at the age of seventy-three. During her latter life she constantly referred to the dear brother so nearly her own age as if alive. Her music, that her father used to oversee and encourage, stayed by her all these years. To the end she played the same old-fashioned songes and minuets upon the venerable piano that had been bought for her, many years before, in London, by Angelica Church, during her girlhood, and was sent to New York through a friend of her father. (Intimate Life, p. 219).
James Kent visited the Hamilton family early 1804, and described in a letter dated 26 April 1804:
His daughter,18 who is nineteen years old, has a very uncommon simplicity and modesty of deportment, and he appeared in his domestic state the plain, modest, and affectionate father and husband.
With far less delicacy, a later visitor to the Grange recorded only as âMrs. Qâ referred to Angelica simply as âa deranged daughter.â (Mr. Daniels and the Grange, p.117).
Though it was increasingly obvious that something was wrong with Angelica after 1801, she remained loved and cared for her by family and friends. Hamilton, eager to keep his daughter happy, included in his 29 December 1802 letter requesting seeds from Charles Cotesworth Pinckney: âMy daughter2 adds another request, which is for three or four of your peroquets. She is very fond of birds.â Philip Schuyler also remained eager to see his granddaughter. In Schuylerâs 3 August 1803 letter to Hamilton reporting on Alexander Jr. and Jamesâs visit to Albany, he eneded with the plea: âIt would amuse my Dear Angelica16 to take a tour to this place, and be greatly pleasing to me, cannot you find a conveyance for her.â A May 1804 diary entry from Gouverneur Morris indicates Angelica retained some relationships with friends. Morris recorded: ââŚGo between two and three to Genl Hamiltonâs to a Fete given to his Daughterâs Acquaintances and return without being wet though it constantly threatensâŚâ (Mr. Daniels and the Grange, p. 102).
I canât imagine how difficult it was for Hamilton and Eliza to see Angelica having a breakdown in the midst of their grief over Philip. It must have been even more terrifying, because there was no recourse or information to help them navigate through this. They just had to love her and try to keep her as happy and comfortable as possible. On that front, at least, they seem to have succeeded well.
Disclaimer: I am not a mental health professional, but I work in an adjacent field. This is not a medical opinion, just an educated guess. That said, I think that Angelica Hamiltonâs symptoms are consistent with schizophrenia. Itâs possible that she had some other mental health or neurological conditionâ severe depression and bipolar are the other two main ones Iâm thinking ofâ but I think schizophrenia is the best fit for what the historical record describes.Â
Sudden (?) onset of symptoms triggered by major life stress. While itâs possible that 18th-century observersâ own romantic preconceptions about mental health might have colored their perception of Angelicaâs illness, it seems like Angelica had a fairly sudden mental change soon after Philip was killed. Itâs common for people with schizophrenia to have their first major psychotic episode (that is, a period in which a person suffers a major decline in their ability to see and reckon with reality, sometimes having hallucinations and acting strangely as a result) after a stressful life event, and even if they recover, relapses can also be triggered by stress. A big part of schizophrenia treatment today is helping people manage their stress.
Onset during adolescence. Philipâs death, in 1801, occurred when Angelica was 17, and it seems that her symptoms began manifesting soon afterwards. The classical age range for the first psychotic symptoms of schizophrenia is 15-20, although in some people, especially women, onset is later and symptoms are milder.
No unusual symptoms during childhood. Although there is a such thing as childhood-onset schizophrenia, itâs very rare. Sometimes, people with schizophrenia will have âprodromalâ symptoms before they have psychotic symptoms, but these are subtle and very easy to miss even by modern professionals who know what to look for.
âUncommonly modestâ versus âderangedâ: negative and positive symptoms The range of language that people used to describe Angelicaâs bearing is very striking to me. To explain â schizophrenia has two broad classes of symptoms: positive and negative. Positive symptoms are the more famous ones and can include delusions, hallucinations, and the unusual behaviors these cause, which can be alarming to both the person with schizophrenia and the people around them. Negative symptoms include social withdrawal, focusing, difficulty taking care of yourself, and general confusion and disorganized thought/ speech (this last one can also get worse with psychosis). Negative symptoms tend to be more persistent, while positive symptoms can come and go. Whoever described Angelica as âderangedâ was probably reacting to positive symptoms, which she might not have experienced all of the time or even very often. By contrast, her âuncommon modestâ bearing could have been social withdrawal, a negative symptom of schizophreniaâ it seems unlikely that she was just shy, since she was described as outgoing and âlivelyâ as a child. Her memory problems, including with recognizing people, could also be a negative symptom. She also seems to have been deeply disconnected from reality, if she continued to think that Philip was alive. Itâs possible she was hallucinating that he was talking to her or nearby (this can actually happen to deeply grieving people who are otherwise not affected by any mental illness), or itâs possible that she was just very disoriented in time and space. Either way, her symptoms caused her enough difficulty that her family made sure to keep her close and well-supported throughout her life.
Why write this post at all?
Iâve been thinking about writing this post for a while. Mental health diagnosis is very challenging even for professionals who have face-to-face access to a patient, and I certainly donât consider my opinion to be the last word. But ultimately, I think itâs important for people who have mental illnessâ especially one as deeply stigmatized and misunderstood as schizophreniaâ to know that youâre not alone, youâre not an anomaly, and that people like you have existed for centuries. And, for those who donât have schizophrenia, itâs important to know that people with schizophrenia are not scary! A whole one percent of the population has schizophrenia, in fact. They are still people who deserve your consideration and support, just as Angelica Hamilton, whether she had schizophrenia or some other mental illness, was loved and supported by her family. Her life is proof that a loving and accommodating community can make a huge difference in the life of someone affected by a mental health condition. Though it seems like she had significant disability, itâs equally clear that her mother and siblings all thought it was very important to include her in their family and provide her with as much dignity and quality of life (and parakeets) as they could. I wish more modern folks had that same perspective as the historical Hamiltons seem to have had on mental illness, and I hope that this post has been interesting and educational :) If youâre worried that you or a friend might have symptoms of schizophrenia, or if youâre interested in learning more, this website is a friendly and helpful resource.
Finally finish this Lams comicâŚ
Hope you guys enjoy it:)