Things I Have Written

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An after thought A fleeting whim The last resort The first who's blamed Left behind, Forgotten, Nothing left it doesn't matter A broken tool of human matter

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The days are getting shorter, The dark is creeping in, The work is coming faster, Telling me give in, Close your mind to happiness, Close your mind to hope, The endless slippery slope, Work on automatic, Close away your heart, No need to listen to it, No time to find your mind, Keep on little robot, With your endless toil

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I'm scared, The walls are getting taller, Trapping me inside, Draining all my energy, I don't even want to hide, I'm trying to be better, I know that I am loved, But the walls are getting harder, No windows, No light of day

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All I feel is sadness and hate, deep inside my mind is numb from feeling and trying to understand, nothing stops the pain I feel inside, nothing hides the hate I feel for myself and everything around me. There's a thick plume of black smoke carrying the smell of burning flesh rising from the village and fires are blazing across the village jumping from building to building travelling faster and faster as it burns brighter, all the surviving villagers are out there now clearing rubble and flammable materials away from the three larger buildings.

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I don't know if I want to, I'm scared to even try, Hiding in the silence, Why do I want to cry, Maybe I won't do it, I just want to play,

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Alive 17/06/15

I carried all your darkness, I carried all your pain, I walked around with anger, Trapped and all alone, Around me there were people, I couldn't let them in, I feared with each and every one, You created all this fear, For this you're probably proud, Though now I hope I shame you, I'm stronger, Not afraid, I love and trust now freely, Relying on my heart, Not your endless pain, Not a blackened frozen heart.

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Destructive Angel 18/03/06

The fires are burning brightly, A city turns to ash, A crying angel looks upon the burning waste, Why is it I must cause this? The destruction of this world, The angel bows it's head, And weeps into his wings, An angel of destruction, Lost beyond his means, Remorse bright within his heart, The city is still burning, All the people dead, Every death replaying, Inside the Angels head, The angel keeps on crying, A lake does start to form, An ocean soon arising, Swallowing his form, Trapped with remorse, He sits there to this day, A buried weeping angel, That truly lost his way

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A large group builds up, He looks around confused, Picks up his things and moves to the outer edge, Nearest to the exit, The place his always been told is his, The place he's always felt is his, And waits to be told to leave

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Nightmare

The dream keeps reoccurring in the dead of night, But I know I can't help her, Can't make things alright, All I do is guard her and tell her she is safe, But I fear they have no meaning, In that terrible place, If I could step into her dream, I would without delay, Protect her from her nightmare, Make them go away, All I do is sit and watch, I comfort when it ends, Trying to find a way, To make the nightmare end.

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Pheonix. 21/01/06

The fires are quickly rising As the bird succumbs to death The fire blazes brightly As new life soon begins Rising from the ashes A begins to sing The flames burn brighter Changing into wings Soaring to the sky A bird made of flames Beautiful as daylight Strong as the earth Gentle like the wind A bird of fiery colours Born from its own death

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A Frozen Image. 22/12/05

It's a barren land in here Without the light of day No time at all exists here Just endless winters day A beautiful sight to see But endlessly it's dull Just ice and snow And dying trees A place with little hope This image shines through my eyes For those who wish to see But my face shows nothing now No pain or misery No happiness or loneliness Shows in this peaceful place Just lying in this frozen pool With ice upon my face.

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Dream. 19/12/05

The dream keeps reoccurring A time before my death A time of perfect emptiness No need to hide Standing in this realm Neither living or dead Holding onto hope That my time will end In this perfect place Nothing can harm me No one can find me

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Alone

Why is it so empty, Although the room is full, Why is it no one sees me, Even though I'm here Is it that I'm not here And it's all in my head Or is it in invisible Or to the world I'm dead I know that I should be here But all alone I stand A slowly dying tree In a growing land Or is it that I'm crazy And it's all in my head All these empty spaces That tell me I am dead

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Breaking 17/08/14

My mind just fills with darkness, I wonder why I care, If I really matter, Would they notice if I’m not there,

The truth is I’m not sure now, If they really care, Or if it’s just I’m useful Needed without a care.

The feeling keeps on growing, Constant on my mind, Do I really matter, Is it in my mind,

I cannot stand the darkness, I cannot face the light, Trapped within this nightmare, My eternal night

Can’t just let me die, All i do is fight, Screaming at the darkness, While hiding from the light.

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Demons 12-02-09

Time Has Moved Along Now, Few Secrets Left To Hide, The Demons Dead Or Buried, Beyond The Prying Eye, Now The Time's Are Changing, Slowing To A Halt, The Demons Are Awaking, Trying To Take Hold, No Reason For This Demon, No Light To Fill Its Eyes, The Blackness Of The Past, Lying Buried Deep Inside, Push The Demon Deeper, Don't Follow From The Light, Too Scared To Face The Darkness, Of The Coming Night, No Reason For These Feelings, No Reason For This Fright, Just A Drifting Person, In The Dead Of Night

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Illusion 04-09-14

What is real and what is illusion, What is truth and what is a lie, What is it that we truly see and know, What is it that we see and the voices change, Can you tell me what is really real and isn't part of a fucked up reality created by our personal fears and inadequacies, Will we ever really know, Or are we always asking, Would we ever want to know, Content within illusion, Protected from reality and scared to face the day,

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18-09-13

A bright and sunny day, A mind that's filled with hope, Though darkness may invade it, The hope is not denied, A day that's filled with grey, No sun up in the sky, Just endless falling rain, A day when hope could die, A day the mind is weeping, No hope within the eyes, Just sadness turned to anger, A darkness deep inside, A night that's filled with wonder, A clear and starry sky, Lifts the mind to freedom, But hope has long but died, I used to have these feelings, I used to fear the light, But my friends have helped me, They encourage me to fight, In grey and dismal days, My friends do make me smile, Make me feel the warmth , Like the sun up in the sky, In nights of dark I'm free, But hope is not denied, I carry in my heart, The love my friends provide.