Absinthia

Here you will find all the goings on in the world of Absinthia and Absinthia's Bottled Spirits. What will you find? If it was easy, everyone would do it.

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Absinthia & FedEx from Absinthia Vermut on Vimeo.

A short video about small business owner Absinthia Vermut and my experience with FedEx.

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How to use absinthe from Absinthia Vermut on Vimeo.

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Absinthia Absinthe Fine Cut v3.mp4 from Absinthia Baum on Vimeo.

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October 18, 2017

Wow it’s been a while since I’ve been here. A while since I’ve felt like a hot grieving milf. I’m lonely. It’s hard. His birthday is coming up. Friends feel distant. My kids, too, though tonight was the first night my younger daughter has felt like her sweet, happy self in a while. Thankful for that! It took me a while to log in. I’m tired and lost my train of thought. I’ll leave this her anyway.…

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July 21, 2017

I reached a milestone today. In 2007, absinthe was made legal. I'd been making it for ten years already, since April fools day 1997 in Port Costa when Hernan called me Absinthia. When it was first legal, I quickly decided to stay under the radar. Bootlegging just seemed easier than launching an absinthe in crazytown America. I never should have done this. And yet, here I am, four years later and…

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June 21, 2017

Reason, Season, Lifetime. Anonymous I met a man recently. No, not like that. Well, actually a little like that. Exactly like that. And this beautiful poem that first moved me years ago came to mind. Actually, it’s been on my mind for a while now.  It’s coming up on single digits. The days till its been one year since Rupert died. He was both a reason and a season in my life. I think the two are…

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April 17, 2017 A friend asked me to read this with her. Wow can we talk about mixed emotions here?

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April 16, 2017

My fifth grader wants to skip a grade. She also wants to go to a private boarding school for high school. I don’t think the two are congruent.  We had a disagreement tonight. She was talking about skipping a grade for social reasons, and I was talking educational. When I said to forget her friends and think about being in the best college and being the most successful her, she burst into tears…

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April 9, 2017

I’ve been thinking about living out loud today.  This morning, a friend whom I admire and respect very much, posted that she sees herself as a humble bragger, an over photo poster, and a name dropper. How does one show love for their life and not do these things? I felt her pain. I reached out online the other night in emotional agony, and I received so much love and support. And I feel…

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April 7, 2017

Previously, I’ve been devastated because he’s gone. Tonight, I’m devastated because I’m moving on. It was supposed to be this faery book romance. Instead, I’m moving on.  Rupert and Absinthia took us both by surprise. We were friend zoned when we were teenagers because I was dating one of his housemates. Flash forward 20 some odd years and a drunken hook up after the Dead reunion tour – our first…

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April 6, 2016

Several months ago, you can look back and see the huge falling out I had with my parents. The horrible things they called me, and the financial and emotional disownment that followed.  It was the best thing that could have happened to me. I feel like I’ve left an emotionally abusive spouse who was controlling me with money, telling me things to keep me small and little.  I’m no one’s chew toy.  …

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March 20, 2017

Do you have a few moments of your life that are your favorite moments? The ones where you’re a living legend, where you can’t make this shit up if you tried? One of them happened tonight. One video of it already hit the internet. It was at the San Pablo yacht harbor under the Richmond Bridge. A spot I never even knew existed. It was both janky and breathtakingly beautiful. The crowd added a whole…

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March 18, 2017

“It’s March, and 2017 already has a body count.”  I overheard my friend say this as I walked into the bathroom at the party last night. “Amen, sister,” I replied, and we held each other for a moment.  Her lover’s memorial was that morning.  He was married, and the relationship was known and approved and everyone was cool. But when we learned he had jumped from the Golden Gate Bridge, she knew his…

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March 15, 2017

This evening I was on a panel at SPUR in Oakland, presented by Intersection of the Arts, called Safe Spaces. We discussed the various efforts following the Ghostship fire. With me were members of WABA, Oakland Warehouse Coalition, ProArts, and architect Thomas Dolan, who designed and built the first live-work in the US and had just come from Sacramento proposing new code laws to the Senate.  It…

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March 13, 2016

I cried for him last night. First time in a long while. I’ve been afraid of death all day. An acquaintance died last week. I was hoping to see him at the GLC in a few weeks. We are all going to die. I am. My loved ones are. My acquaintances are. Everyone.  Just gone. His stuff is still around. His earthly possessions. But he’s gone. He’s never coming back. That’s everyone’s destiny. It’s hard to…

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February 21, 2017

I have abandonment issues now. If I had them before, which is a possibility though not a certainty, I have them now.  And they are unproven and unworthy of my heart.  I’m usually the one to call it quits on a relationship. It doesn’t mean it’s easy or even what I want. It doesn’t mean I’m heartless or uncaring. It can have that stigma, especially, it’s been pointed out to me, if it’s typically me…

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February 20, 2017

I’m finding it harder and harder to share here without a mask. I had no private world when my heart was shattered open when Rupert died. And now I do. There are secrets to keep and filters to manage and feelings to consider. They are mine to guard. No one can do that save me.  I had a realization the other night that I’m going to be alright. I closed a door last week that I didn’t want to close.…

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