old man jesse drawing under the cut to accompany this au. beware that it is extremely cursed, but also kind of tender, like a vegan chicken nugget. still disconcerting.
grunkle stan inspired glasses look (courtesy of @fullamoxie):
extremely self-indulgent single dad jesse au. like, this is the most self-indulgent thing i’ve ever drawn. backstory and all under the cut:
yeah i’m a corny bitch, yes their names are mike (michael) and ginny (virginia), and they are twins. i have a lot of headcanons for this, but i can’t list them all here. that being said:
their mother is some anonymous woman out in juneau... a few years after jesse got to alaska and started reforming his identity, he finally started to get more sexually confident. (at that point in time, he'd not really had sex in a while. trauma and all.) one time, he's visiting juneau, and he walks into a bar. because he's more confident in himself, he trusts himself to drink, and then he meets a woman. she's a redhead -- completely different than jane and andrea. they end up having excellent sex, and he drunkenly gives her his second cell phone number. he got a call a couple of months later from the redhead -- she's pregnant. he offers to pay for the abortion, but turns out she's somewhat anti-abortion, and sort of wants to have the kids. he goes out to juneau and stays with her for a while and it becomes rather apparent that she wasn't that nice of a person, just pleasant enough for a one night stand. furthermore, she really doesn’t seem to be a suitable person to take care of kids, and they talk about putting the kids up for adoption. eventually jesse decides, close to the date, that he wants the kids, both of them, and so he takes them.
before the twins are born, jesse builds them a bassinet of pinewood. he makes it extra wide so that he can lay both of them next to each other
jesse’s a fantastic dad. for a while before the kids were born, he was completely petrified, thought he would fuck them up. but then he has two babies in the house and he's awake all the time trying to take care of them by himself and all he can think about are his kids nonstop and then he no longer has time for all that fear.
inevitably, the kids still have some problems growing up. after all, both ginny and mike are well aware that their father is deeply traumatized. jesse feels rather guilty, esp. because mike takes after him and his mental health problems -- also, mike is a compulsive caretaker. ginny is surprisingly well-adjusted, but she has her moments.
ginny is a really smart kid, top of the class type. she gets into a big university on scholarship, and she's a feral feminist, like she's just really on top of all that. jesse and mike don't get it fully but they support her. mike, on the other hand, is a quieter type. at one point, he travels through the country. eventually he comes back home to his dad and learns the craft and then lives there the rest of his life.
aaannd here’s a story about how they find out about jesse’s former identity. because fuck it. i like making emotional things:
he wouldn't say much. he'd keep a cover story during their youth, because they might be too young to keep it a secret. whenever they ask about his scars he makes up a different funny bizarre story
he keeps thinking about how he'd explain to them when they got old enough but ginny finally confronts him at 17. it's really obvious that he'd had some sort of life before all of this, and occasionally, jesse would usually drop some kind of hints. for example, he said he got mixed up in a lot of shit when younger, it's clear he's a rehabilitating addict. some of his older art had some odd subjects, y’know. that crap. anyway, ginny didn't piece everything together, but she was really direct about it, said that she was going away the next year to college and if jesse never told her, maybe she'd consider not coming back. it wasn't a serious threat, but it finally pushed jesse to tell both her and mike.
ginny was kind of quiet, listening intently. she'd suspected something, but this is insane. no wonder her dad never told her. mike on the other hand is kind of in shock, and finally after jesse finishes his story, he freaks out. "you can't expect us to believe all that!" and all (imagine flynn when marie told him about walt). ginny grabs him, and tells him to calm down -- the story's true, she believes every bit of it. it's too crazy to be a lie. she forces mike to huddle next to her on the couch and both of them spend a while in silence as jesse goes to make some coffee for them. she looks up "jesse pinkman" on her phone, and both she and mike go down the rabbit hole from there.
ginny cautiously spends time with her father in that summer between the end of school and the start of college, and occasionally she'll ask him questions about what happened before. she wants to know what happened, understand it all. she's lived with this rather traumatized father all her life, by prodding at this past, she's finally able to understand why her father was like that. jesse always answers her with the truth. mike, on the other hand, spends his summer working at the library, long hours. he spends all his time outside the house, and when he's done working, he spends his time outside with his friends. stays over at their place, gets piss drunk and high but one time a friend offers him meth, and he's so nauseated that he excuses himself to the bathroom. he goes home in the middle of the night. he's slept in his own bed since he was 6, but that night, he crawls back into his dad's bed. his dad's smaller than him now, but jesse tiredly hugs him and they both fall asleep anyway. he's still a bit avoidant for the rest of the summer but he stops doing drugs, he starts coming home more consistently.
some transfem jesses i drew last week after getting inspired by vic’s art!
an extra sketch along with some headcanons/explanations for design choices under the cut:
s1 jesse:
a couple years into hrt
keeps her hair kind of long, hasn’t really figured out how to maintain it
can get kind of wary and cautious on the streets. she passes extremely well, but there’s still a very strong fear of being outed as trans
walt manipulates her using validation. he didn’t know jesse was trans back in high school, and only found out at the start of brba. jesse only started to come out to more people after highschool, anyway
s2 jesse:
jesse and jane are lesbians i will die on this hill
got vaguely jane-inspired bangs
she’s livin’ her best life... actually sort of happy and comfortable and confident in herself, though still closeted to a strong degree. jane is the first real partner she’s had in a long time due to insecurity
you know that one gay picture of a girl sitting on another girl and doing her makeup? that
s3 jesse:
snake
long hair because she’s been too busy grieving jane to cut it
sad but kind of mean about it. when hank punched her, jesse was so angry she threatened to add hate crime charges against him even if it meant outing herself to the world at large
early s4 jesse:
kind of a divergence from canon, attire-wise. she’s embraced a feminine party aesthetic instead of a masculine one
she’s baring more skin than she’s comfy with, especially in a dangerous setting. it’s a self-destructive impulse
she got a side shave and a septum piercing. she starts wearing eyeliner, too
later s4/s5a jesse:
cleans up her look so she matches all the other criminals around her
goes for something more masculine. she’s feeling more comfortable in expressing herself that way, though not enough to fully shave her head
mike genuinely respects jesse’s gender, unlike walt. (kaylee appears to be a similar age in both bcs and brba, so a fun little headcanon i have is that she’s a trans girl on puberty blockers)
butch time 😎
late s5b jesse:
looks like a mess, always
this is just canon
hair’s growing out, she’s got those dumb overgrown undercut hair tufts. marie put her hair up like that as a female bonding activity
i love marie
compound jesse:
these are nazis. besides being racist, they are also violently transphobic
it’s painful to imagine. i’d say that the short hair jesse has in this pic is because the nazi’s chopped it off to make fun of her. but... that’s painful
while hrt can slow facial hair growth, it may not completely stop it. without maintenance, jesse’s unfortunately growing some beard hair back in
life sucks massively that’s all i can say
el camino/ms. driscoll jesse:
new identity time! her new ids all have her correct gender and name on them
not todays jessember prompt, but jesse nonetheless!!
this is a lil collab i got to do with @abysque !! it only looks this fuckin cool cus they colored it, im still pretty in awe.. oh and i did the lines! im supr pumped about this pls go give em some love
hi i know marvel is dead but here’s some bkdk stucky au stuff from like... june. this is the scene from the first movie where bucky bakugou is rescued.
i got three separate asks for kacchako, izuocha, and bakudeku and all my ot3 heart could think was... pining prohero!bakudekurocha where izuku and ochako hardcore pine after katsuki together. (and preferably they tag team to steal his heart)
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