Lil Pixie side blog

Side blog for more personal vents

[maybeshehasbpd]

I sleep to escape and there’s no rest in that

[gabapentinblues]

i wish that wanting to die wasn't my entire personality

[dspressed]

Why am I always too much?

[daggerhag]

Everything feels like abandonment

[bpd-y4n]

was i not good enough? will i ever be good enough?

[nofuckingideawho]

some people are just too sensitive to be alive

(I'm some people)

[kittyblade666]

[bpdthouts]

I just don't want to exist anymore. I'm just so very lonely. I am so fucking lonely.

[the-bpd-bunch]

i often feel like i have to apologise for existing

[maybeshehasbpd]

Short on cash and the will to live

[daggerhag]

Fuck what I want and how I’m feeling, right?

[professionallyunstable-deactiva]

dont need alcohol to send texts i later on regret sending.

[dspressed]

I wish you met me before all these bad things happened to me

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I feel like the dog at the shelter that no one wants

[pricklymuffinzzzzz-deactivated2]

Tw bpd jealousy vent

Bpd jealousy needs to be talked about more. I have a pretty severe case of it. I get jealous any time my fp gets joy from anything especially anyone who isn’t me.

I know this is “toxic” but it really is something I’m trying to work on. I guess when they get joy from other things, it kinda makes me feel replaceable?

Like the joy I bring them can just be switched out with those other things. If I was out of their life it wouldn’t impact them and they would still be able to be happy.

But if they were out of my life I wouldn’t be able to feel any sort of joy. I feel like I’m always going to be jealous unless my fp hates everyone except me. Or talks to only me.

I really wouldn’t like this though. I want my fp to have a healthy social life. It’s just something I have to learn to deal with. At the same time my whole life revolves around my fp.

I don’t talk to anyone but them, and I really don’t like talking to anyone but them. I don’t think I’ll ever be satisfied until I know they love me the way I love them. I just wish I felt content. I hate being jealous so much.

I really am trying to work on it though. I’ve been working on it for a long time, I just don’t think it’s getting easier though :(

I really just want my fp to be happy

Does anyone have any tips to help jealousy pain?

[morutecutie-deactivated20250611]

relationships are all cute and fun until they mention somebody else making them happy

[emotionalmoss]

bpd jealousy is actually a curse