I was seriously thinking about posting it on TikTok (Tumblr and Telegram as well because yeahhh Rappa existence awareness), but I'm kind of worried that people aren't really into Rappa to read a whole character study
I'm wondering if "fun facts about Rappa" is better, without much analysis to make it more light-hearted with not much text, but I'm really not sure.
(I have a bit of Boothill and Aventurine analysis on TikTok uploaded already, they are on Russian, I will probably post them on Eng too 🤭)
While I really didn't want to make much content about Squid game since I'm a HSR enjoyer, I'll probably do a TikTok video to justify Dae-ho.
I've sat on that thought for a long while and, kind of, re-analyzed him in 2-3 seasons (spoilers below ig).
And honestly, the picture about his background hasn't gotten any less sad (it seems like he faked the tattoo before the games to calm down his unsatisfied dad, and, unintentionally, had to follow it through because Jung-bae noticed), but I feel like many people has given up on him just because of an unexpected scenario.
Do I blame them? No. Because Dae-ho turned out differently, in a way that makes people question his appeal to them, because he's a lot more human("flawed") than it was expected. He really did lie, because he wanted to fit in, since society has made him feel not accepted for who his is (as someone who's more sensitive, probably with a mental illness, because he was on an alternative military service, and he has no mentioned physical illness).
What I heavily dislike though, is the names people call him now, disappointed in him so badly that they turn their emotions to hate. And I don't think he deserves so much of it.
"why did he go shooting if he wasn't in army" he got into a gunfight because he couldn't step back on his lie. Is it a noble reason? No. But it shows just how much he wanted to be accepted, especially by Jung-bae, someone akin to his role model. His psyche was just unable to handle such a big amount of stress, so he was unable to return with the ammo.
People say things like "well, huh, he's just a weak ass liar in the end", and it saddens me that 95% of people really don't wanna take a second look at him. He really tried his hardest for good people to accept him.
Okay no I lied I'm gonna post about Squid game 3 again spoilers next.
As a person who ended up deeply liking Dae-Ho after 2nd season, I felt like I was spit at the face. Suddenly, he actually was not in marines, he just lied to be included, and we get to know that right before he DIES. Nothing is explained, we don't know why he has a tattoo, how he was able to pretend that well, where the fuck he actually was if not in marines.
I watched all of the third Squid game, and found a moment that reminded me of Boothill (not a single day without my beloved man 💔)
Spoilers below the cut!
That's just a silly thought that was sponsored by the post I've read from @divinity-haven (I'm not sure how tagging works in Tumblr, shout-out if you're seeing it, I loved your analysis!). It was a discussion about Boothill's inability to see himself in a good light, to not put a blame upon himself for things that's long gone. While what I'm gonna talk about is a bit different, it's still quite related.
And there's a situation with Seong Gi-hun on the screenshots below. I just feel like Boothill would act pretty much the same.
Because on words, he's also "not the one" to be a good person, but the one who has lost a long while ago, somebody who's now "hard and cold".
But he still would've fought for someone else's child like his own, and do it without a doubt not just because he used to have a little girl too, but because of his genuine wish to protect the innocent and help out those in need. Like Seong Gi-hun promised Jun-hee to return for her in the fifth game and help her reach the end. It's not really justice, it's care for another who's in a vulnerable position. And Boothill would do the same. Because he is not bad or selfish. He has never been.
I promise it's not too deep of a comparison, it's just my soul that shattered then I decided to think about it.
(Anyways! Did you enjoy the SG3? I'm not gonna post more about it I think, but Dae-ho's early death has made me very sad. For a kind person like him, he died looking like he's the one that's bad.)
Sometimes think that the worst thing in the hsr community is the excessive amount of personal opinions mixed with factual info, which creates confusion/misinformation in the end.
Because people often talk about situations that did happen in plot, but they interpret it in ways that they want (which is fine, but it's often counted as solid canonical approval)
As an example, I keep thinking about "Aventurine canon SA experience" topic. I've studied it for a while, and it turned out to be a phrase that was mostly affected by fanon thoughts.
And it's not to say that people are completely wrong and Kakavasha hasn't experienced SA, the situation he was in allowed it to happen, but the "fact" is still not strong enough to be "canon proof" (because it can be interpreted in other ways. The word "皮囊"(~skin/empty shell, rough translation) in that context compared Kakavasha to a soulless piece of meat, which was also fitting to the fact that he was forced to kill other slaves. Simply denied of humanity.)
And it's not a singular case.
I don't like how some fans heavily equalize implied and canon, because "implied" is often a subjective, one-sided view on a problem. You can believe whatever you want, but please, don't equal things to canon, because it creates so much unnecessary confusion and causes empty fights between people. Nothing is canon until it's stated. That's what allows you to be creative and change perspectives!
While I'm in the process of drawing sleepy Avenhill art, I've thought of some random headcanons that I wanted to share 🤭 Pretty long I guess, but it's far from all I have to say.
I will mostly tell pure character in early relationship headcanons, but in the end some Avnehill too 🤤💜
I think you can do a gender-neutral reader insert in the character parts, so I'll also put that in tags 🥰
TW For Aventurine: slavery, hurt no comfort, genuinely negative, I really think there's not much good at first.
For Boothill: fear of bringing pain. He's pretty sweet!
Due to Aventurine's quick, idea-filled mind, he will constantly come up with new reasons his partner can use to break up with him – maybe his perfume is too strong and nauseating, or he blabbers too much, maybe they still remember how he couldn't manage to eat much in the restaurant after a particularly bad mission. All the reasons why he's not enough. While he thinks that he can't force them to "like" him a bit longer, he will try to do anything to keep a piece of them when they "inevitably and unexpectedly" leave him alone so he won't fall apart.
Have you seen Aventurine's pillow that he was sleeping on on the official art and that concert video? I believe that he would intentionally give his partner that pillow if they come over, not telling them that it's his own – in hopes of making it smell like them. He will start feeling frisky because his perfume is too strong to let his partner's scent stay in the room, so he'll stop using it too often
In general, I think that the scent and touch for Aventurine is very important. Vision and hearing are too tricky, make him think too much, analyze. Touch is harder to fake – the intention behind someone's hand is always clear as day, and he knows it better than anyone else. Yet he still can't take it when someone's intentions are more pure than he's prepared for. He believes he's too broken to deserve that, thinking that if he's being cared for, then he has to get better, to make them proud, to cut off his trauma. But he knows he can't change, he will remain "defective" – and it eats him alive.
The scent is something that sticks to the mind too. Like the smells from the time when he was a commodity – gut-wrenching, maddening stench of rot, pain and death. They arise in his subconscious every time he's alone or considers himself in real danger. But when he deeply, sincerely falls in love, just for a moment, it feels like they leave him for good.
They actually don't. Memories of cold isolation return each time he thinks that their relationship is about to get ruined – which is too often. He keeps berating himself for not being able to love like he thinks he should – perfectly, never turning his scarred, bleeding back to their eyes. This resistance and the breaking facade make him feel like the pain and shame, which he pushed away back in his lonely years, have increased tenfold in the start of the relationship with his loved one. But he keeps it to himself.
Boothill has some solid protective tendencies going on. He's not by any means controlling or wanting to scare his partner in fear, on the contrary, he will do his absolute best to prove that he's non-threatening to them – and it's the absolute truth. A singular intrusive thought of holding his lover too hard, not fully registering his own strength, leaving injuries on them, which he knows he's fully capable of, – makes him spiral.
He's a good guy, he's a gentleman, and he will ask his doctor to create a safety mode for him, just so he can really express his love without a fear of causing pain. Because he's handsy, he wants to squeeze, pinch, kiss, bite, twirl – touch. He will be on the cloud nine once his strength is managed.
He's all too quick to get into his lover's life and prove that they have never had such an amazing lover like him. He wants them to lay down pretty and rest in the shade on the beach, while watching how he maps all the shore to find a shell in the size of his fist – he promised, so he will! Moreover, he doesn't expect anything from them in return, he gets fully satisfied with spending all day proving his love over and over again. In that sense, he really is like a dog – give him the ground to express his love, and he won't ever complain about nothing.
He's a bit afraid of telling his partner about his "bad feelings", thought: anger, hurt, fear and everything connected. He can't explain quietly, inevitably losing control over his stable, optimistic self, and he knows it's not the best of sights. But if his partner doesn't get scared, if they are able to recognize that his tameless anger is just a desperate cry from the soul – he will soon get comfortable with expressing himself. But the thing is – the more you listen to him, the less he has to explain. I do believe he's able to release most the pain that's holding him in clutches if he has a shoulder to lean on.
For Avenhill though, it unfolds differently. To start with, I think they would be simple partners in mission for a long while, attraction building slow.
Aventurine is the one that starts from the point of low self-esteem and feelings of unworthiness in any scenario. But Boothill starts from the point of excitement and curiosity (after he recognizes Aventurine's not really a threat but a victim as well), only to stumble upon the fact that Aventurine is far more traumatized than he expected, not ready to speak about his past as willingly as Boothill himself. So, Boothill chooses to build a "silent" bond to him first, not digging too deep, but often watching in the shadows, learning how different IPC members treat him, memorizing the important faces. Aventurine, on the other hand, doesn't hide away and just observes, sometimes even playing around more, knowing he's here to watch. The beginning of their attraction is... not filled with the same passion that is usually present on the early stages, being more unorthodox. 🐛
I wanted to make an accent on the fact that Boothill's clothes are a bit big for him, so if he looks a little silly then that's just how I wanted him to be 😝
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