Life Is A Beautiful Attempt

I read a lot and write sometimes. This is a side blog that I use mostly for my writing and my current obsession.

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Ada Limón, Late Summer after a Panic Attack // The Bear 2x09 'Omelette' // Jorge Luis Borges, Two English Poems // Richard Siken, Snow & Dirty Rain

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Got inspired by these tweets, about Carmy being the last to realize Richie and Jess are dating, and than imagining that when he finally does it makes him inevitably think about him dating a fellow chef on The Bear… and this fic was born:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it!

[tvfantic87]

Love love love this fic !!!

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Thank you for reading!

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Got inspired by these tweets, about Carmy being the last to realize Richie and Jess are dating, and than imagining that when he finally does it makes him inevitably think about him dating a fellow chef on The Bear… and this fic was born:

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it!

[bioloyg]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

Something short and sweet to say goodbye to The Bear. It's been real, homies.

“Carmen… what are you doing here?” Sydney asks, slowly. To be honest, she’s reconsidering the whole stroke/coma dream thing because, “You’re supposed to be in New York right now.” Carmen lets out a shaky breath, and despite the fact that he’s the one who knocked on her door, he looks a little bit like a deer in headlights. “I uh — that’s — yeah. I am. Or, I was.” “Eloquent.” ~ Sydney gets a surprise visit and a loose end is tied into a bow.

[livelovecaliforniadreams]

#Both Of Their Dishes Being The Best Dish The Other Has Ever Had Do You Hear Me Screaming????

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[natalierso]

“the most beautiful thing about (syd and carmy’s) relationship is their true unconditional belief in one another. they see the beautiful things in one another that the other one is not able to witness in themselves. […] in a lot of ways, they saved each other. the piece in the opening episode of season 3, where carmy gets the call about mikey and serves the scallop to syd without ever having met her — there is this invisible tether that was not witnessed by either of them, but it inspired syd, and whether carmy knew it or not, this thing was loved and enjoyed by someone that was birthed from this very traumatic moment. there’s just this beautiful, invisible tether that has always existed and will always exist between the two of them.” JEREMY YOU GET ITTTTT

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#The Most Beautiful Romantic Hug I’ve Seen In My Entire Life 

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Finished The Bear…

I’ll say this, SydCarmy wise I think it was the best possible outcome given Christopher Storer and the continuous running away from the ship. Like, it could have been worse…. Waaay worse, marriage/reconciliation with Claire or straight up denial from something ever happening between Syd and Carmy… and we didn’t get that! So I count it as a win. It’s ambiguous enough that something might happen eventually and also it gave us sooooo many scenes between these two and their dynamic, that it can fuel my imagination for ages.

Now, regarding the season as a whole and the series. That’s where I’m still not fully convinced. I think this season had a bit more movement and growth and the seventh episode was really The Bear at its best. It was emotional, full of tension and focused on Carmy and Sydney without abandoning the other characters entirely. Truly the one episode I would rescue from the whole season of I had to choose one and the way I would have ended the series (plus the two star revelation and hug of course). In a high, cause don’t even ask me about the eight episode which the more I think about it the more I hate it.

The thing is I still stand by the fact season 3, 4 and 5 could have been one season. Even in this last season, there’s still so many scenes that are filler? I could have been fine without the whole Jimmy/Computer/Cheese subplot, a lot of those moments could have been an email… thankfully the Facs were significantly reduced… but could have been more reduced ngl. And the general idea of this season and the last two could have really been told in a solid one last season. Having said that, this last one was definitely better than the third and fourth, just because of Caramel.

This show is special to me, it has inspired me to create and, honestly, just because of that is wonderful that it exists. However, I think Storer (and all the writers from every season) was really good at sowing seeds of significant moments and character traits that could have been explored better. Is like he created amazing bases that make for a great structure but then didn’t know how to use them for greatness? Have the hamachi for example. All those links between Carmy and Syd, the way food brought them together… and then it gets resolved in a five second exchange where is not clear if she lied or if she changed it to suggest she got inspired by it or if it’s a continuity error… because neither of them mention it again and their reactions are quite short and subtle… which is crazy. Same with the sorry sign which had a lot of potential for greatness and just disappeared. And don’t get me started on how Caramel could have ended with what Carmy realized in that weird ass interview for the internship… because Phil from Groundhogs Day doesn’t realize he has to change after the loop is over he does so he can get out. So, he dropping this big monologue on an extra we have never seen and will never see again… is certainly a choice. It’s just insane because I know all these things Storer stablished had soooo much potential because I have used them in all of my fics but then it seems like he didn’t get a grasp for most of them. I do think the one character arc that I love all the way through is Richie’s, I think he completely got him right. For a second with that end it even felt he was more of a main character than Carmy lol.

All in all. I love these characters and I love that they realized they love each other too. Let’s go Richie and Jess. Let’s go Marcus and Luca. Long live Sydcarmy. Aaaand all the fanfiction that will come.

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Today’s journal entry… Let it rip !!!!

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The Bear Season 5 pics

[sydcarmyism]

SYDCARMY STOCKS ARE UP

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We stay winning

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

The last chapter of my time loop fic is up!!

Writing this was a ride, but a great one. And now you can read it fully, here. Let me know what you think :)

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I want to talk about this because it’s something I’ve been meaning to say about fandom and the relationship with the og work and then with the people that create it, for some time.

1. I think what we should take from this statement is the part that reads: “my job is to do the thing, and then how you interpret it is how you interpret it”. Because that’s it. In the end she is doing her job which is to follow the scripts and the director.

2. This takes me to the next point. She is sort of being very blunt here saying what the scripts and the director are telling her is to not perform any romantic relationship with Carmy.

3. Does this mean it’s over for Sydcarmy? I don’t know, maybe in canon but in fandom reception? That’s another story, because she or Storer or any other person involved in doing The Bear have absolutely no control over fandom or over the way an audience receives what they make. Hence, Ayo saying how we interpret the show is separate from what she does.

4. Having said all this, I do think she was put in a complicated position by the journalist that asked her that. And this is what I mean with the difference between fandom and canon. Lately, with social media, the lines have been blurring and it has been sort of normalized to ask creators fandom questions, which always put them in an awkward position, because what are they going to say? Is not their place to say anything because anything fandom… fanart, fan fiction, metas… exist based on the fiction alone not on the intention of who made it.

5. So… I do believe the lines should be put down again and fandom should continue interpreting and making new things separated from the opinion of the creators. It’s the only way to coexist without expecting the people creating things to follow the fandom’s ideas or expecting the fans to only follow the canon the author intended (I’m a firm believer in death of the author btw).

6. In conclusion, I think the restaurant exploding because Syd and Carmy decided to be together would be so much fun, I hope someone writes that fan fiction. The end.

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An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

A new chapter of my time loop Sydcarmy AU is out! One of my favorites because I got to write Carmy And Syd in Italy…