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Congratulations to my talented sister who is officially publishing her first book! Iâve read it twice now (on the third rn đ ) and I have to say it still makes me laugh and cry just as much as the first time around!
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Warnings: smut, slight breeding, dubcon if you will, Calanmai, beastie tamlin (not abo or actual beastiality)
Word Count: 6.6K
This Tamlin x reader was inspired by @slutbugz (nsfw) on twitter!! I got permission to write this, and here are a couple pics that inspired me. Not Tamlin, but I mean come on how hot would he be like thisâŠ
Your mother tucked a warm cup of tea between your palms and curled a strand of loose hair behind your ear. Your father had spent a majority of the evening boarding up the windows and the doors, nailing the heavy wooden slats into the frame. The incescent sound of the sharp iron nails being driven into the trim with the steel hammer had you on edge all night - and even though heâd been at it for hours, you still werenât used to the noise.
Heâd all but buried you in the house, laying stones and heavy bags of sand in front of all the doorways to create a hearty wall outside your home. Heâd then shut and locked all the doors, opting to nail wooden boards across all the openings, despite the metal latches already fastened in place.
Calanmai used to be a night spent outside, with singing and dancing, letting the magic run wild across the Spring Court hills. You could even feel it twist and twirl through your ankles and across your arms, like a warm wind. It was a party most Fae snuck out to join, once they were old enough, that is. The joyous feast and dancing around the bonfire lasted most of the evening, before the Fae females were lined up for the High Lordâs choosing.
It used to be an honor to be taken for the evening, a lustful night spent with the most powerful Fae male, in which her bodily sacrifice promised good yield and high power for the following year. Her family would be well taken care of, and her likeness would be celebrated throughout the town.
The High Lord had been rumored to be a great lover. A strong male, large and well built, with shining green eyes and oh-so-pullable blond hair. The females he bedded had lived on cloud-nine for the first few days after the ceremony, and despite their lust-blown eyes and the contagious smile across their plump swollen lips, none had ever uttered a word about the maleâs performance. They didnât need to, though, as even a blind Fae could tell all they needed to from their blissed out state.
While the Spring Court males had never been too pleased that their sisters or daughters could be whisked away by the High Lord for an eventful evening, it was considered a blessing by the Mother herself, considering it was her magic that coursed through his veins that night and chose his partner.
But it hadnât been the same in the past few years. Not even with all the years spent under the mountain - youâd still had that one night of freedom, where Fae wine and music spread across the Spring Court hills. A night of tears filled with the promise of freedom - someday. Tamlin had bedded a lovely brunette that last evening, and though seemingly possessed by a darker magic (perhaps due to the circumstances set forth by Amarantha) the female returned to the crowd with shaking legs.
But it had only gotten worse after that. After youâd been freed from the confines of the mountain, at the hands of that once-human female, youâd expected the court to return to its plush green, with magic in the wind and happiness in the air.
But then the female left - well, she was stolen.
And then the High Lord became unhinged.
Later, when it was found out that sheâd up and all but left him for the Night Court - that she had willed for the High Lord of the Night Court to take her from Spring - Tamlin had broken completely.
War waged throughout the lands while he remained bastardized and miserable. Lucien, the Autumn Court emissary, had left as well. The High Lord was utterly alone.
Calanmai was skipped that year.
The harvests suffered. There was so little food to go around; the salvageable fruits and vegetables were sold at market for one hundred times their worth. There was once a point where money and gold were valued and traded for nearly as much, but you couldnât even buy meat with three solid gold necklaces - at that time, if it wasnât edible, it was worthless. Your small family had barely made it through the year, keeping to themselves and rationing soup and bread.
Rumor had it, Tamlin had been seen around lately. He was spotted lurking in the woods, his unmistakable green eyes glowed against the dark brush. Word had gone around suggesting heâd be back for this Calanmai. He would have to return for the magic to be restored in the lands - and it would make quite the return.
You were glad, hoping heâd retake control of the court. You all surely needed it. But the sight of your father boarding up the house only made your bones itch.
The male hadnât been seen in human form in over a year.
He undoubtedly had built up an unquenchable thirst.
You sighed into your tea cup, rubbing the
furrow between your eyebrows.
âWe shouldâve sought refuge in the Summer Court,â you father grumbled, more to himself than either you or your mother. He dropped a nail, causing the heavy piece of lumber he was nailing over the final window to fall to the wooden floor with a loud bang. Your flinch caused some of your tea to splash out of your mug and onto your hands.
Your mother responded regardless: âAnd give them what in return, exactly?â It was the argument theyâd been having for the past month: leave the Spring Court for the week of Calanmai and seek refuge in Summer. But with the poor yeild and nothing to offer in return for shelter, your mother did not think it would be a good idea. Though, your father argued it would be better to sleep on the beaches of the Summer Court than to risk the High Lord stealing you for Calanmai.
While the argument ensued in the living room, you wandered off into your bedroom, unable to listen to the same conversation theyâd already had a million times over. You lit the candle beside your bed, grimacing at the wooden slats that had been nailed over your large window, the moonlight shining in only through the slivers of space between the boards. You knelt on the floor beside your bed, sighing as you read the time on the clock beside your bed: 9:07. You only had three more hours until this night came to an end.
You pressed your nose against your palms, held together in prayer as your elbows rested on the bed. You silently prayed to the Mother for an uneventful evening: that your home, your mother, your friends, and your neighbors would all be safe. You prayed that the High Lord regained his power over the court, prayed for a strong yield, and prayed that whoever he did choose the evening would make it out safe and sound.
Through the muffled sound of your parentsâ argument outside your closed bedroom door, you heard the wind ruffling the leaves outside. The tree on the otherside of your window rapped against the glass, the bushes shaking wildly as they were stirred up by the wind.
You furrowed your brows as you rose and neared the wooden slats, unsure of the storm that was brewing up outside. But as you neared the glass, peering over the boards, there was a dark figure climbing through the brush in front of your window.
A pair of bright green eyes glared back at you, dark in color but shining brighter than the moon. You were frozen in place with a gasp lodged somewhere deep in your throat. He did nothing but stare at you, his large figure shielded by the leaves. His head was furry - wolffish ears standing tall above his head and glinting in the moonlight.
He radiated nothing but pure power.
You stumbled backwards, nearly tripping over the back of your skirts. As you steadied yourself, though, he took one step forward. As you moved back again, feeling for the bedside table behind you, he took another forward, his chest nearly touching the glass of your window. You watched ad his chest broadened with each heavy breath he took. The cold air swirled around his head, the air nearly freezing cold.
He raised a large hand and his fingers rapped against the window, no doubt feeling how thick the glass is. Then his eyes narrowed, staring at you between the gaps of the wooden boards. He made quick work to tear down the moat of sandbags and stones on the ground at the base of your window.
Without another look back at the half beast - you ran, calling for your patents.
But your shouts were drowned out by the sound of broken glass and heavy breathing, the male grunting as he tore through the wooden boards, breaking them right down the middle, ripping nails out of the frame.
You lurched for the door, running out into the living room, following your parentsâ confused calls, shouting for help. But somehow, the male was faster, and as he was right on your heels, you took one look back before heading straight for the kitchen.
The male was build like a stone fucking wall, muscles coiling around his chest and arms, stained red from the cold air outside. He wore nothing but a pair of thick looking trousers, stained with grass and mud - unlikely to have been washed within the past year. His head was covered by a wolfâs hide, brownish in color, with glassy brown eyes. The jaw had been broken, such that the lower half of the jaw was missing, exposing the maleâs face to you. The wolfâs teeth crowded his face, intimidating sharpness mirroring the Faeâs own fangs that he barred in your direction. His blond hair poked out around his jaw, mixing with the fur that flowed into the hood down his back.
The High Lord had come for you.
You screamed, rounding the corner hoping to find something to defend yourself with. As you scanned around the kitchen, unable to find anything, you heard your motherâs scream, and his footsteps indicating that he was closing in on you.
âSon of a bitch - â you heard your dad call towards him, only to be met with a feral growl from the taller male.
Without another look back at your family, you ran out the back door.
Straight into the woods.
You went as fast as your feet could take you, using only the moonlight as a guide into the woods.
You couldnât hear anything over the wind whirling past you, mixing with the sound of your heartbeat drumming in your pointy ears. You wove through trees and hurled yourself over boulders and fallen branches, praying to all the gods that you didnât slip on anything. You didnât know if he was running on his own two legs or on all fours. Nothing would surprise you, considering the rumors of the shifter male - more powerful than any other Fae⊠you had no doubt heâd catch up to you eventually.
But why hadnât he caught you by now?
You swallowed the lump forming in your throat and pushed your legs impossibly faster, arms pumping at your sides to keep your momentum going, every so often shooting out beside you to keep your balance as you tripped over slippery rocks and fallen tree branches.
It felt like youâd been running for hours, though you knew he wouldnât have let you - after all, there were only a few hours left of the night, the Calanmai magic had to be sealed in before midnight. You had never run so fast or so far; you wove through trees, looking for the godsdamned river that ran into Spring from the Autumn Court - but you couldnât hear it, let alone find it. Youâd twisted and turned around the trees so many times that youâd lost track of where you were. You couldnât find any of the trails; not even the moonlight could light up the ground enough for you to track any Fae or animal footprints.
It was still so quiet behind you, maybe you lost him when you slid between the narrow spaces between the trees, surely his huge form wouldnât fit. In the dark, though, you missed all the claw marks on the tree bark, where the High Lord had clawed his way through the thicket. His lips spread into a grin as he could hear your racing heart from where he ran behind you.
You gulped down a deep breath and your hands coiled into fists. You mustered the strength to tilt your jaw to the side, the moon lighting your sights just far enough in front of you to confirm there were no trees in front of you to run into.
Your legs kept pushing as your head turned, eyes darting out to the side to look for the pursuer.
Then he lurched.
Your breath caught in your throat as it felt like your heart stopped beating completely. Heâd been shadowing your every move, no more than a step away from you this whole time. Two big hands grabbed your hips easily, his long arms barely having to stretch out to pull you into his chest. His warm palms pinned your hips to his own, your back flush against his naked chest as your feet left the ground and he came to a sudden stop.
You let out a winded groan, your chest and legs burning from the sudden stop - but your bare feet were damn near thanking the gods as they left the freezing ground, no doubt cut up and bleeding.
The High Lord took no more than a few steps forward before he set you back down on your own two feet, a strangled groan leaving your throat when the dewy leaves met your open wounds. You clawed at his forearms and the backs of his hands, panic suddenly flooding through you.
But he kept his hips pressed up against your ass as you lurched forward, trying to escape his grip. But he simply laughed, the rumble of his chest vibrating into your back as he mirrored your movements.
He was so warm, though, and the cold was quickly sinking into your bones as you were held in place. The thin layer of sweat that coated your legs and the back of your neck was starting feel like youâd been doused in an ice bath. The only thing keeping your teeth from chattering and your chest from convulsing was the beast of a male behind you.
He adjusted his grip, holding you across the waist with one arm, as the other slid over your skirts, drawing a long line down your leg until he found the hem and hiked it up over your hips. You screamed at his quick actions, one of this thick thighs found his way between yours. His pants brushed against the apex of your thighs, the sudden pressure between your legs causing them to squeeze around his.
âScream all you want,â he growled, the sound of your panting only causing his cock to stir in his pants. âNobody can hear you.â His breath brushed against your ear as he leaned in close to whisper to you. You shivered when his hips began to rut against you, building up in presesure that you rocked on your tiptoes when his hips jutted against your ass.
There had been years where Tamlin had looked forward to Calanmai, the magic coursing through his veins turning him into a completely different male. He used to love the sound of the femaleâs blissful moans and cries falling over him in praise as he bedded them for hours. He missed how theyâd pull at his hair, how theyâd promise him anything he wanted, that he could take them however heâd pleased.
And this was how he wanted you, heady, desperate, rocking back against him as your legs dared to curl around his, fighting for him to be even closer to you.
Tamlin grinned again, biting into the crook of your neck, right at the exposed flesh from the neckline of your dress. It was soft, just enough for his fangs to press against your skin, to which the gasp that escaped your lips almost had him sticking his cock into you immediately.
You felt the fur against your neck, the matted coarse hairs from the wolf hide he wore poking against your sensitive skin as he licked over the bitemark heâd just given you. Your knees pushed together, feet leaving the ground as you rocked against his thick thigh. Tamlin kept his vice-grip on your waist as the other hand pushed up your dress until it was hiked up over your back. He then curled his arm around your front, reaching over your hip and the mountain of skirts around your waist. He rested you on his thigh, your toes now barely grazing the ground.
It took all of your strength not to rock your hips back and forth against his leg.
And turns out you werenât that strong.
The heat radiating off him was like a drug coursing through your body, and the only way to keep it flowing was by rubbing your cunt across his hard-muscled thigh. The friction of your undergarments against his pants was addicting.
Tamlin laughed at how eager you were.
He let you have your fun, tucking his hand down your front, fingers sliding between where your pussy was rubbing against him. You gasped, his cold fingers sliding between you legs, prodding at your clit as you shifted back and forth across him.
Your hands flew out to the tree in front of you, sharp bark digging into your palms. But you couldnât feel it, you were just using it for balance so you could continue fucking yourself against him.
The High Lord practically moaned as you let out a shaky sigh, watching you work so hard to get yourself off - before he even started. He curled his fingers upwards, relishing in the cry that passed your lips when your clit brushed against his fingertips. He dared to move his hand further between your legs, hissing at the way your warm cunt tried to envelope his fingers even through your underwear. He swallowed hard, trying not to focus too hard on your ass brushing against his hard cock in his pants.
So with a few quick passes between your legs, he pulled his hand away abruptly, ignoring the strangled groan that fell from you as your hips faltered.
You were so close.
He lowered you down so your own feet held you up, promptly removing his leg from between yours. You practically whined, pressing your knees and thighs together, clenching around absolutely nothing as you fought to feel something - anything.
Tamlin wasted no time in grabbing all your undergarments and tearing them off you in one quick motion. You screamed, the cold air hitting you all at once, shocking your system. But before you could even register the feeling, you felt his nose press against your bare cunt, his long tongue swiping across your folds.
âOh my gods,â was all you could gasp as your hips flew backwards, meeting his face as he opened his mouth and began his assault between your legs. He chuckled again, you felt his lips curl into a smile before he kissed around your clit and bit at the fat of your upper thighs. He licked at your clit, back and forth in a quick motion before licking up your slit.
He moaned at the taste, the first woman heâd had properly in years, even. He wasnât planning on eating you out, the only thing on his mind was burying his cock as deep into your cunt as your body could take, but at the rate his dick was growing, he knew heâd have to loosen you up at least a little before that.
But as his tongue pressed up into your hole, feeling your warm walls, he knew that no matter how long heâd spent opening your cunt up, youâd still be so tight around his fucking cock. The taste of your juices mixed with his own filthy thoughts of bouncing you stupid on his cock had him groaning, the vibrations tickling your thighs that had esentailly trapped him between your legs, unwilling to let him go again.
Not before you came, at least.
âYou like this donât you,â he growled through barred teeth. âWant me to use you for the night? You didnât run very fast, like you wanted me to catch you, huh?â You felt his lips moving against your pussy as he spoke. You bit back a response, all thoughts and words caught in your throat as he continued to work at your clit.
You pushed further into the bark of the tree as you pressed yourself back against Tamlinâs face. You felt the nose of that godsdamned wolf hood press against your ass, which had you grinding even further into your High Lordâs face. He fell to his knees behind you, running his tongue against your slit and clit as you fucked his face. His hands found purchase against your hips, grabbing at your ass and quickening your pace as your legs shook around him.
You felt his tongue curl up between your legs, flicking at your clit as you were left clenching around nothing, yet again. âPlease,â you groaned, brows furrowed, crying out as his tongue swirled around your clit.
His brows rose at your first word spoken to him, a broken cry that was nothing but music to his ears. âPlease what?â
He licked another long stripe against your pussy, stopping his previous movements until you answered. You groaned out, desperate for more friction - if rubbing yourself against his pointy nose was all you were going to get, youâd take it. âPlease - your fingers, something - â you gasped as he nuzzled his nose against your clit. âAnything.â
The High Lord laughed, smile broad as he nipped at the skin of your ass. âYouâre not supposed to be the one telling me what to do,â he replied, as if it was obvious (it was - but you were desperate). But he smiled and landed a harsh smack against your ass, which burned against your cold skin, right before he returned the assault of his tongue against your clit.
His long fingers dragged up your tight and swiped across your enterance a couple times before he slid them right in your wet pussy, curling upwards against your walls. You both shared a moan, your warm walls clenching around his two cold fingers the moment he pushed them into you. Tamlin pushed himself forward, and you hiked your leg up high enough for him to turn underneath you, now sitting directly under you with his back against the tree you held yourself up against.
He worked his fingers up and down inside of you as he kissed at your clit, swirling his tongue around the nub. His eyes found yours as your head hung forward, and his emerald eyes practically glowed under the darkness of his hood. They were not the eyes of a Fae, no - the wolffish eyes with glowing iris stared up at you, watching your every move as he curled his fingers up into the gummy spot in your walls. Your eyes shut and your knees buckled as he continued his movements, tongue now sloppily licking anywhere he could reach before returning to your clit.
He shook his face back and forth, absolutely devouring you, and the nose of his fucking hide brushed against your pubic bone. With a cry, you squeezed your thighs around his head, practically falling onto his face just to feel his tongue against your clit even harder. It was a welcomed by the High Lord, as his fingers did not falter once as you rode out your high, throwing your head back with a loud cry.
He moaned underneath you, drinking up your sounds and juices as you fucked his face and fingers. But with no time to even catch your footing, the male was back behind you, standing up and hoisting you back to your feet. You kept yourself pushed up against the tree as his one arm held you like before, the other working to push his pants off. He kicked them away before taking a wide stance and tugging at his cock. He let out a shattered breath as he lined the tip of his cock against your wet folds, both of you crying out.
The High Lord kept his arm hooked around you as he nudged your clit with the thick tip of his dick, your legs nearly shutting around him in overstimulation. He nudged your leg with a bent knee, lifting his foot to kick your leg out from under you, spread apart from the other. He tutted at you, leaning forward so his chest pressed against your back again. âLegs open,â he growled in your ear. âYouâre tight enough as it is.â
You couldnât even comprehend his words as he slid the tip of his cock into your wet cunt. He grunted as he drove his hips forward, the wetness of your pussy letting him slide right in, though your walls squeezed him so tightly, and he had to grit his teeth and hold himself back from slamming his hips up into yours.
You squeezed you eyes shut and groaned, feeling his wide cock stretch your walls. You cried out as you tightened around him the farther he drove his cock into you. He moved back and forth slowly, allowing you to get used to his size, before he couldnât take it anymore. His dick was so hard, heâd been waiting for this moment for years, the Motherâs magic surging through him like adrenaline in his veins.
So he fucked you like it - without so much as a warning, he slid out of you almost completely, so just his tip was catching on the enterance of your pussy. You arched against him, tilting your hips backwards to try to fuck yourself back onto his cock. Before you could get any farther, his hips slammed up to yours, his balls hitting your clit from behind.
You screamed out, as his cock practically pierced you, and he continued to fuck you at a rapid pace. He moved so quickly that you hinged forward, curling over his arm still secured around your waist. You lurched forward at each press of his hips, moaning each time his cock nudged that sweet spot inside of you.
Your arms had fallen from where they were holding you up against the tree, completely hinged in half as your fingers clawed at his arms - this time out of pleasure. Your legs were too weak as you clenched around him, finally giving out as they began to shake with your impeding orgasm. Tamlinâs other hand gripped your hip so that he held you completely against him, bent in half, as he continued fucking you, now so much tighter as your legs fell together under you.
The High Lord let loose a string of curses as you squeezed his cock. He held your hips up, your toes just barely brushing the ground as he fucked up into you. His breathing was ragged as his chest heaved, groaning as you tried to grab onto anything you could. He never lost rhythm as he drove into you, your slick walls allowing him to slide in and out of you with ease. Your head spun as it felt like he was just getting bigger and bigger the more he fucked you.
Tamlin let you fall to your hands an knees abruptly - to which you knew youâd feel the pain of more if you werenât completely focused on the heat between your legs. He took a knee behind you, legs spread around your side to shove his cock back into you. âFuck, how are you so tight still?â He muttered to himself as he continued to fuck you, faster now that he didnât have to hold you up.
You used all the strength you had left to push yourself up and turn your head behind you to take in the sight of the High Lord absolutely wrecking your pussy. His skin was glistening in the moonlight, the muscles across his broad chest straining as he moved his hips so smoothly against yours. His hair fell over his shoulders, sticking to his neck with sweat. His face was conceleaed, only his lips and sharp jaw poking out from the wolf hideâs unhinged jaw. Your gaze fell down his chest to his taut waist, where the blond hairs underneath his bellybutton grew to surround his cock.
Gods, you knew he was getting bigger.
The base of his cock was so thick, you werenât even sure it would fit inside you anymore. He moved you quickly on his dick, in and out so you slid down just half of his length. It was mesmerizing, truly, the High Lord thrusting in and out of you ferally.
Then he fucking smiled.
His white teeth barred in a devilish grin, fangs practically shining as you suddenly wanted to feel them bite into your skin.
Then he slammed his hips fully into yours as he pulled your waist back onto him, bottoming out inside of you.
You fell forward with a cry, the stretch of the base of his cock almost painful as your pussy tried to accommodate him. You felt him against your cervix, stirring up into your stomach. You rested your forehead against your arm, protecting your face from the dirt and ground underneath you.
Tamlinâs groaned, breathing a quiet, âThatâs it, take it,â as you felt his large hand flatten against your back. In your folded position, you arched even farther against him, where he swore he could feel the end of the depths of your cunt. He kept you arched, which you almost struggled to break as he continued to fuck into you.
He leaned over, other hand ripping a line down your bodice with what felt like a sharp claw, tearing your dress from your skin - so you were just as naked as he was. He licked a broad stripe up your spine before burying his head into your neck and biting your shoulder. You gasped, his sharp canine teeth nearly breaking skin. He offered you a repreive, leaving open mouthed kisses across your shoulder and neck - undoubtedly marking you.
His leg hinged around yours, allowing him to hump into you as you fell forward underneath him. You couldnât bring yourself to look back at him, not with the force of how hard he was fucking you.
Like he read your mind - he pulled out of you quickly, his wet cock curling up against your cunt as he rutted against your folds a few times. Tamlin wanted to look at you just as much as you wanted to see him.
He gripped your hips and flipped you onto the cold ground so your back was against the fallen leaves and branches. He lifted your legs up so they were bent in the air, allowing him to slide right back in your ready and waiting cunt.
The hood he wore still covered his eyes, just his fangs visible. But you, on the other hand, were all spread out for your High Lord, so pliant and ready for his seed, writhing underneath him.
He truly didnât know how much longer heâd last.
He knew you wouldnât last, though, not by the looks of your blissed out face, mouth open and mews spilling from your lips. Your legs were shaking, and you were fighting the urge to wrap them around his waist, but again, like the damned male read your mind, he grabbed the meat of your ass and slid his hand around your thigh, curling them around him. He grinned like the fucking Cheshire Cat. Your hands landed on his shoulders as he leaned over you, hands planted on either side of your head.
He groaned, fucking you so deeply, body almost prone on top of yours now, cock going all the way into you. You met him thrust for thrust, locking your ankles behind him and using it as leverage to fuck yourself onto his big cock. He was close, meeting your quickened pace. âDesprate for your High Lord, huh?â He teased through clenched teeth. âFuck yourself on my cock, show me how bad you want it.â
Oh you wanted it bad.
You were practically shaking as you continued to meet his thrusts, rocking your hips up and down. Tamlinâs eyes fell to your stomach, where he could see the indent of his cock poking through. He sighed at the sight, plump lips falling open. He couldnât tear his eyes away, not as he felt his cock twitching and his balls tightening.
Your pussy was absolutely wrecked, stretched out to accommodate the girth of the base of his cock. You felt him rub against your walls, not an inch of your cunt untouched by his dick. Tamlin dropped a hand to your clit, feeling you struggle to take all of him. It became harder for you take his cock as your legs tighten around his waist, your pussy gripping down on his cock as you neared your orgasm.
Tamlin eventually lost all patience, slamming his hips into yours. You fell back completely against the ground, unable to hold yourself up any longer as your took his brutal strokes. He humped into you, his balls rubbing against your ass as he towered over you, fucking you quickly.
Your hips turned upwards and you took a sharp breath as the hairs at the base of his cock brushed against your clit. âYou going to take all of it?â Tamlin growled, fucking you harder.
Your stomach coiled, legs shaking as you tried to shut your legs around him, but his body gave you no space to squirm around him. âScream for my cum,â he moaned, falling forward and pressing his lips against your neck. âI know you want it. Tell me you want it.â
You did, so you screamed, crying out for your High Lord to fill you up.
He came as soon as you did.
His warm seed filled your cunt as he continued to fuck you, the lewed sound of your wet walls against his slowing pace made you shiver. His long cock was still nuzzled inside you as his hand drew up your waist and found its way up your chest. His fingers and thumb danced across your soft breast, swirling at your nipple before his hand danced along your collarbone and up your throat. He tilted your chin up, undoubtedly taking in all your features before his thumb swiped against your bottom lip.
He swore heâd never cum so much in his life. But never had he been presented with such a pretty pussy to fill up, one that would take him completely and be able to give all his seed to. Youâd hold all of it - heâd be damn sure - as the swollen tip of his cock remained nestled deep in your cunt.
You were panting and twitching as Tamlin stilled completely above you, too enthralled in the feeling of your wet pussy coated in his cum to even try to pull out. His strong arms keep himself held above you, his face, shielded by the wolf hide, still only a few inches away from yours - but if you moved any closer, youâd certainly be knocked by the nose and teeth of whoever that once was. His blond hairs were clumped together at the ends, hanging over his broad shoulders, and you couldnât see his eyes, surely dimmer now as the Motherâs magic was wearing out of his system, but you know they were glaring down at you from underneath the darkness of the hood.
The High Lord shifted, keeping his cock buried inside of you as he unhooked one of your legs to make room for him to slide down beside you in the dirt. You winced as he moved you, your pussy now beaten raw and sore as it shifts against the coarse blond hairs across his pubic bone. Itâs the first time youâd heard his voice quiet, gruff but calm, as he murmured a quiet âSorry.â
He moved for your hips to sit atop of his, his cock softening, but still far too big for it to slip out of you in this position. Your legs fell across his own, thick thighs shielding your softer ones from the hard ground. He tucked you in the crook of his arm, allowing you to rest against his chest.
His hood had fallen against the tree roots he rested against. It was your first look up close at him, the arch of his brownish eyebrows, the long pale eyelashes that rested along his high cheekbones when he blinked. His nose sloped into a sharp point and the hair framing his face was stuck to his bronze skin with sweat. You swore his chiseled cheeks were tinted pink, probably the cold.
You didnât know that the male was actually just blushing, the feeling of your pretty eyes studying him made him nervous. Now that the haze fogging his mind had cleared, Tamlin was almost embarrassed with his actions, how he chased you through the woods and forced you against the cold hard earth. Heâd never felt that way before - not in his many hundred Calanmai celebrations heâd had before. Perhaps he was a bit pent up, but maybe it was something about you that had him acting so primal.
You brought out the beast in him.
He clenched his jaw to keep himself quiet, unsure of what he should say - what would he even say to you after that? He usually never said anything to the females he bedded after the night was over, never had to - never wanted to.
You swallowed a shaky breath when his eyes met yours, and for the first time youâd seen him as a Fae male and not as a wolf. Those green eyes burned brighter than any leaf or flower in this forest. His gaze remained unwavering, almost in challenge. You bit your lip nearvously, his sights flickering down to your lips, now chapped and dry from the cold that swirled around the both of you.
He wanted to kiss you regardless.
But he figured heâd save that for the next time - when heâd hopefully be able to act like like a respectable male.
He studied you, and under the scruitiny of your High Lord, you spoke out nervously. âMy parents wanted to seek refuge in the Summer Court.â You made no move, not to escape him nor flee the woods - if you could even find your way back home.
The High Lord scoffed, turning his head away to gaze up at the stars. His body remained still, one arm tucked under you, curling around your waist to keep your naked body flush against his own. The heat radiating off him kept you warm, both of you glowing through the thin layer of sweat coating your chests. His bright hair splayed out behind his head, blond locks mixing with the brown fur pelt that rested at the crown of his head and down his back. âTo spare you of me?â
You wouldâve missed the smirk that he fought hard to suppress if you hadnât been staring at him to intently. His eyes danced across the constellations, studying them, and there was no doubt in your mind that he knew the names and stories behind each of them. His arm tightened around you, fingers gripping into the plush skin of your hips. You didnât trust yourself to respond, just a nod of your head that he felt against the crook of his neck as you buried yourself further into him.
Tamlin licked his teeth behind his closed lips, barring his fangs but keeping them hidden from you. His voice was low when he responded, calm and confident: âI would have found you anyway.â
nothing hurts like when an fanfic writer promises a fic only to find out they havent posted in 11 months or their next post is I dont write for that fandom anymore
i'm down for eris or more love in the dark but i was also wondering if it'd be possible to get a lucien or rhysand story from you, your writing is so good i know you'd write them really well
Thank you thank you I have a very unstarted Lucien fic idea but honestly theyâre both pretty hard to write for in my opinion⊠lulu has changed so much itâs hard to capture that charm from early in the series. I could probably try a rhys but am mostly uninspired for him since heâs already such a well developed character
Wow hello! I got a lot of comments and messages about a part two đ„° thank you all for the support!
Honestly⊠I was not planning on writing a part two. I feel like it would either be make up (idk how to go about that in an entertaining way) or be more angst which would probably be repetitive of the original post đ«ąđ
That being said, if anybody has any ideas or plot lines theyâd like to see in part two, feel free to send them my way and I may write it if thereâs some good inspoâŠ
Sorry yâall! Otherwise probably another Eris fic coming this weekend lol (unless someone said Tamlin?? đ)
Wow hello! I got a lot of comments and messages about a part two đ„° thank you all for the support!
Honestly⊠I was not planning on writing a part two. I feel like it would either be make up (idk how to go about that in an entertaining way) or be more angst which would probably be repetitive of the original post đ«ąđ
That being said, if anybody has any ideas or plot lines theyâd like to see in part two, feel free to send them my way and I may write it if thereâs some good inspoâŠ
Sorry yâall! Otherwise probably another Eris fic coming this weekend lol (unless someone said Tamlin?? đ)
Azriel x Reader, based on Love You In The Dark by Adele :/
Warnings: angst, swearing
Word Count: 2.4K
âDonât look at me like that.â Your voice was no louder than a whisper, but he didnât miss how your words came out trembling, or how your dry throat constricted as you spoke.Â
He shook his head. You had always known he was a male of few words but you didnât know that he, in that moment, didnât trust himself to speak. He knew his words would come out broken, shattered on a muffled scream. He had to blink away the tears just to watch you stuff clothes into your bag.Â
You were ashamed, truly, that it had come to this. That the only solution you could find was to pack your bag and go. No matter how many nights you lay awake, convincing yourself that you were the crazy one, making up stories and rumors, youâd come to the same conclusion.Â
Leave before he does.Â
But what you couldnât do was go without a goodbye. You knew it would be easier to hastily grab your most valued items and disappear into the high mountains of the Night Court without any words exchanged between the two of you.Â
But you couldnât.Â
And he couldnât stop watching.
Azriel grabbed for you - he reached out those scarred hands, the ones you loved so much - encircled your wrists and tugged you closer to him. But you stood firm, squeezing your eyes shut and shook his hands off of you. And that hurt him, you knew it, shrinking away from his touch like it burned you. He knew the feeling all too well.Â
You didnât mean to, after all. You were being cruel to be kind.Â
It was hard to navigate the small cottage that had become your shared home. His clothing had taken over your wardrobe - youâd fumbled through piles of neatly folded sweaters and shirts that had belonged to him, that smelled so strongly of night and rain, in search of your own items to stuff in your bag.Â
In the past few years you and Azriel had been dating, heâd moved into your little cottage. It turned into his reprieve, after spending most of his adult life moving around, heâd never had a place to call home. The winged male spent his time flitting between the House of Wind and the townhouse, the Riverside estate and the cold Illyrian war camps. Once heâd spent a few nights with you, it quickly turned into your shared home.Â
He still spent time away from you, when his High Lord had ordered him as chaperone for their brother and the moody Fae female, but those nights were some of the longest youâd felt. It was no longer just your bed, it was too roomy and far too cold without him. The kitchen no longer smelled of tea first thing in the morning, and everything felt too spacious when there wasnât a pair of leathery wings taking up all the space.Â
The male trailed you everywhere you went. He followed you step-for-step as you turned all around the bedroom in search of your clothes, so often strewn about the tiny area; his broad shoulders filled the doorframe as you swiftly grabbed your soap and salves from the bathroom. You knew he could do more to stop you - he was so much stronger than this. He could grab you in those big arms, hold on to you and never let you go. He could cocoon you in those dark wings and wrap the both of you in warmth - safety - like he used to do in the beginning.
But he didnât.
And thatâs why you continued.Â
He still wouldnât leave you alone after what you told him. Once you said you were leaving, he hadnât left your side. He tried to talk you out of it, to promise things would change, that it would get better - he hadnât known youâd been thinking about this for the past few months. How you were left with no other choice.Â
It would hurt the male now - the normally stoich, proud Illyrian whose poker face never faltered. You told him late at night, when you were hoping the darkness would conceal the way his lips parted in surprise, the way his brows furrowed in confusion. But those hazel eyes glinted in the moonlight, and you could have sworn youâd never seen them so shiny. You spent the next few seconds - that moved like centuries - convincing yourself that those werenât tears brimming in his eyes. His arms moved to constrict around you, to reach for you in the bed that you felt go cold many moons ago. You were too quick, already reaching for your bag and shoveling things inside.Â
Youâd bitten your tongue long enough about it, the two new females that had entered your boyfriendâs life. Not only his, of course, but his familyâs - and everyone seemed dead set on playing matchmaker. Not in front of you, for that matter, but you heard them talk behind your back about how perfect these other females were for him.Â
Gwyn, an angel seemingly sent from the Mother above, who so often trained with him, would be the perfect match - body, mind, and soul.
There was an unspoken bond between them already, one that nobody else on the land was privy to knowing besides them. It was something forgotten long ago, but something you saw renewed in those golden blue eyes each time Gwyn looked at Azriel. She gazed at him with admiration, both his fighting style and his calming presence.
If they werenât discussing training lessons for the day, it was the jokes poking fun at his brother - how he absolutely drooled watching anything Nesta did - or about the newest book she was reading. Azriel, who had seemingly read every book in existence, nodded along, even adding his own commentary on the novel.Â
He had built up quite the collection between the books he brought into your shared home, a mix between his old worn favorites and the stacks you had lining the walls and tables. But you soon noticed the fantasy and romance books he held on his lap before bed, the pages were worn and well loved, even the paper smelled different. What was sharing books between friends? There was nothing to it - but you couldnât help but feel the tinge of jealousy turn your chest red.Â
Then there was Elain, the third Archeron sister, the perfect opposite to Azriel.Â
You often heard the High Lady whisper to her mate and newfound family: âThree brothers and three sisters - how perfect is that.â Something Azriel just shook his head about - but never outright refusing. You just listened quietly as if youâd never heard anything at all. You pretended not to see the way he gazed at her - the Seer - or the way his fingers brushed hers when she handed over a plate or pastry.Â
It was those fingers you knew he didnât like people to see. The hands that youâd spent years trying to get him to touch you with, to not care what they looked like or how rough they felt. They grazed along her pale skin, so smooth and flawless, in the same soft manner heâd touch you - your thighs, your stomach. And as his eyes held her round ones, you wondered if he imagined the way her body felt, the supple curve of her breast or her straight spine. Azriel had an appreciation for the arts, why would he not be with the most beautiful of the sisters?
She always baked for him. She baked for everyone, really, but always insisted he - it was always him - try her treats. Azriel never complained when it came to food, but he never was one for gushing over how sweet the rolls were or how delicious the jam was. But her insistence with feeding him - such an intimate act in Pyrthian, to any Fae, really - didnât sit right with you.
You hadnât felt further from him. It seemed that everything was changing. You were, too. Even though you spent nearly every night together, you felt defeated, unable to compare to the new excitement he must have felt with these two females, both fawning over him. His family only encouraged it, too. Even when you spent those nights together, wrapped tightly in his arms, you felt the space between you grow.Â
Azriel had given you the world - you never thought that youâd have to spend another day of your life without him. But you couldnât shake that feeling from you. The feeling that he thought about those other females, that heâd wonder what it would be like to be with them, to spend time with them. Those rare times when youâd join them for parties or intimate dinners, you saw their eyes linger on him, on you. And those hazel eyes next to you often fell to one of the two.Â
Youâd never dared to ask him about them.
You knew leaving wasnât fair. You didnât bring any of it up until the day you decided to go. Heâd only brushed it off, expressing that he wasnât actually interested in either of them, but rather in the conversation. There were nights heâd stay late at the River House, where you knew all of them resided together as a family. Theyâd stay up late drinking and laughing, sharing intimate stories and overly friendly touches.Â
Once he returned home, he offered you a kiss and then crawled into bed next to you, not pulling you into him or laying half-sprawled over your chest like he normally would. You swore you smelled roses on him that night.Â
You knew heâd never touched either of them. He wouldnât disgrace you like that. But his family so often brought it up. Possibly being mates with someone they already had known and loved - let it be the Archeron sister or the favored Valkyrie - they all had much more in common anyway, and it would be far preferable than him spending eternity with an outsider such as yourself. Â
But that wouldnât stop him from wondering.Â
You couldnât carry on like everything was fine.
So you packed your bags, offering Azriel his fair chance at finding who he might think is his mate. Either one of them would be lovely to him - you knew both the females would offer him the world on a silver platter.Â
The hardest part would be choosing which one.Â
âPlease donât go, (Y/N),â he whispered, tilting his head down closer to you. Heâd followed you from the bathing room back to your bed, and one of his hands fell to your hip.Â
âStop asking me to stay,â you replied, ignoring his touch and continuing with your packing - you were almost done.Â
He swallowed the lump in his throat - you saw it. His eyes flitted between the two of yours, dragging down to your lips. âAnd stop looking at me like that,â you added, breathlessly. So you had to break the trance, blinking away any tears that threatened to pool in your eyes.
Azriel almost laughed. The breath came out jagged, loose from his lips, but he could barely stifle the exasperation. âThere will never be a day when I donât look at you like this, (Y/N).â His voice was low but unwavering.Â
âItâs not you, Azriel,â you huff, resisting the urge to throw everything in your arms to the ground. âItâs not the way you look at me or how you donât - itâs how you look at them.â His brows knitted in confusion. âThe way you treat them is the same way you treat me and - â you huffed a sigh. âI canât do it anymore.â
He did lose it - he grabbed your arms - palms hot, burning with emotion. âThey arenât you, (Y/N).â
You stared up at him, anger washing over your sadness. âBut you treat them like they are!â Everything fell from your hands as you shook out of his grasp. Taken aback, Azriel straightened and watched you closely. âDo you know how long it took for us to get here? For you to even talk to me? Touch me?â You stifled the urge to pull at your hair. âI feel so defeated - watching you joke and laugh with them. You and I are so far apart now - youâre a whole new person!â
He shook his head, black hair shifting slightly with the motion. âIâm not - we should talk about this. You canât bottle everything up and then just leave.â
âIâm not just leaving, though, Azriel.â His heart thudded at how you said his name - how you spat it like it burned our tongue. âIâve been in the dark for so long - you never bring me around your family - because you know they donât like me.â You cut him off before he could interject. âThey keep trying to set you up with Elain or Gwyn! I know what they say behind my back, Azriel, you arenât the only one who knows the secrets of that River House.â
Azrielâs chest heaved with each stabbing breath he forced into his lungs. His hands flexed at his sides as he held himself back - he wanted to grab you, throw you onto the bed, cage you under his body so you had no choice but to hear him out. He wanted to kiss you, to hold you, to tell you that you were so fucking wrong and he would always choose you over them - over his family.Â
But he couldnât.
And he didnât.
So you took a step back and grabbed the leather bag from the bed. Whatever you already had was good enough - you could rebuy whatever else you needed. Besides, it would probably be better to leave anything that would remind you of the male you were leaving behind. Mother above - if that were the case, youâd truly be leaving with nothing at all.Â
âI meant what I said, Azriel, every word.â He was surprised at your sudden shift in tone, as your voice fell to a whisper. His shadows hissed in his ears, expecting more yelling - hell they were about to start screaming at him, too. âI love you - I donât regret a gods damned thing.â
âI love you, (Y/N),â his voice cracked. Those hazel eyes were glazed over with silver, finally realizing youâd had this prepared. It was premeditated, youâd fallen out of love with him long ago.
âBut I want to live, Azriel. Not in anyoneâs shadow, and not while every one of your family members tries to arrange marriage for you.â
Azriel had never lied to you. He wouldnât start now. There was nothing he could do to stop their silly gossip, to stop wishing for their friends to flirt with him - not without breaking the family heâd worked so hard to build. âWhat am I supposed to do without you?â
Warnings: Illusion to smut for one sentence, war but nondescript
Word Count: 3.1K (not proofread)
The kettle screamed in the kitchen, the hot water begging to be removed from the fire and poured alongside fresh herbs and chamomile. You quickly set your book aside, careful to tuck a corner of your soft blanket between the pages before pulling yourself from the warm corner of the sofa. Bitter cold nipped at your bare feet as you skipped across the uneven floorboards, creaking at each step. You crossed your arms across your chest, the thick brown sweater tucked between your arms and over your neck.
Your boyfriend had a tendency to wear turtlenecks, preferring to trade his formal jackets with stiff collars for the comfortable hand knitted sweaters. He also had a tendency to leave them at your house.
You smiled at the memory, how the male would reluctantly crawl from your bed, grumbling something about the cold weather, before retracing his steps from the previous night, plucking up each article of clothing youâd thrown somewhere across the room. Heâd have a multitude of items, usually a soft linen shirt, followed by a more stiff white button down, a vest maybe, a sweater, then the final layer: a tailored coat. He would throw you the sweater - only the softest, thickest material for the High Lordâs son - after heâd seen you curl up in the fleece sheets, wrapping them around yourself as you sleepily gazed over at him. Heâd always pair the action with a small smile or a wink, to which you couldnât stifle your grin. It was a silent battle between the two of you: whether heâd ever leave your home with all of his clothes, but it was one that he would happily lose, especially if he got to spend the morning making you breakfast while you sat on the counter all curled up in his sweater - it was his favorite sight.Â
You poured the steaming water over the leaves and flowers, silencing the noise that pierced your small home. Youâd gotten a few complaints from your neighbors, when youâd left the kettle over the fire just a bit too long this late into the evening. Sometimes youâd just be too enthralled in your book, unable to stop yourself in the middle of the paragraph to head to the kitchen. Other times, you abandoned the kettle, the mere thought of tea long forgotten as the male in your arms kissed all down your neck.Â
The steam swirled around the rim of the mug as you grabbed the handle and carefully trudged back to the couch. After setting the cup on the small table beside you, you sat back between the plush cushions and curled your legs into you, tucked safely under the thick fabric of the maleâs sweater. You threw the blanket over yourself for good measure, picking up your book with the blanket inside, and continued reading.Â
It was late, but by no means early morning yet, and sleep had evaded you. Despite countless cups of tea and tossing and turning in your bed for hours, you couldnât manage one minute of shut eye; so, youâd given up completely and ventured to the living room to finish your novel. It was a tale of romance, a forbidden love between a stable boy and the princess - cheesy, no doubt, but it was one that made a smile cross your lips, a glimpse into your own relationship, however the roles reversed. But your heart swelled, as true love always found a way, the feeling almost too similar to how your own relationship had persisted regardless of the many obstacles in your way.
A harsh sigh left your lips as your ears perked up at the sound outside your front door. The clatter of metal, more than likely a candle holder, accompanied by a knock - one that no doubt belonged to your old neighbor, Mrs. Brittel, who had to pay you a visit at the slightest of disturbances. You groaned as you heaved yourself from the sofa, once again placing your book on the soft cushions.Â
Your eyes flitted to the clock on the fireplace mantle: nearly half past eleven; not too late to be up, but a decent enough excuse to answer the door in such an unbecoming state. You turned the lock, opening the heavy wooden door just a crack before poking your head through. A prickly greeting was already positioned at your lips, but your jaw fell open at the sight you were met with.
The male was tall, looming over you as the door fell open, your hands dropping to your sides. His helmet covered his fiery hair, though tufts of dark red curled around the edges of the metal. Silver adorned his body, a scuffed breastplate and armor lining his arms and legs. Dark leather bound his body underneath, visible at all his joints and tucked into his boots. A heavy-looking silver sword hung at his hip, his hands, tucked away in dark gloves, were shaking.Â
âEris,â you breathed, his name the only word your brain could form. He sighed, chapped lips parting at the sound of your voice. His eyes shined, red irises glinting as silver lined his bloodshot eyes. A few cuts and scrapes adorned his flushed cheeks, riddled with marks or dirt and grime.Â
The male before you usually didnât knock. Heâd simply sneak in, entering your small cabin and sweeping you off your feet all in one quick motion. But he stood before you, dressed in armor, fresh from battle, shell shocked in your doorway.Â
He breathed your name, nothing but a whisper on his lips, as he stepped forward and held you by the shoulders. Your bodies didnât touch, nothing close to the hug youâd been expecting to pull you into. He held you at arms length, weapons clinging against the metal along his legs, scanning over your form. What would normally have him in a frenzy, seeing you in his clothes, sweater busy barely covering your curves, not daring to even cover your bare legs - you normally wouldnât be able to pull him off of you.Â
But he was ferally in search of any injuries, anything that may have been off about your form. Your hands rose to his wrists and found purchase against the leather that bound his arms into the armor. You felt his skin burning through the layers, that no doubt the heat was leaching into the silver.
You couldnât even imagine what heâd seen, what heâd returned from.Â
Whatever it was, the dead bodies, the torture that must have been inflicted upon him and his men⊠you were just glad he made it home.
âIâm okay, Eris,â you whispered, gaze locked to his. You saw him press his lips together and swallow harshly. âYouâre okay,â you continued. He looked okay, at least. No blood, no missing limbs, a few cuts and scratches - hell, youâd patched up many worse wounds inflicted by his own father.Â
The slightest nod.Â
âItâs cold, letâs come inside.â You waited for another nod before you stepped backwards, retaining your grip on his arms, slowly pulling him with you. The cold Autumn air had overtaken the whole living room, in which you couldnât even feel the fire in the small hearth.
He heaved a sigh, dropping your shoulders as he began to recognized the room around him, when he realized where he ended up. It felt like his body was on autopilot - without even thinking heâd winnowed himself to your front door.Â
Erisâs hands fell to his belt, unfastening the holster his sword was looped into, and let if fall to the ground with a heavy thud. He flinched, then, returning his shaking hands to the metal plates on his chest. Those red eyes burned into yours, begging apology at the disruptive noise. âItâs okay, Eris,â you noted calmly, raising your hands to his armor. You helped him remove the heavy shielding, pulling at the thick leather laces at his sides, unweaving the knots and pulling free the strings.
He was frozen for what felt like hours, watching you work diligently, not flinching at the dirt that clung to your fingers as you pulled at the leather. The only thing he could focus on was his ragged breathing, the burn in his chest at each breath he took. He snapped out of it once you grabbed hold of the chest plate and blew out a breath as you tried to lift it off his frame.Â
His hands rose up to pull it away from you, the contoured metal much heavier than you couldâve ever guessed. He set it down, leaning it against the trim beside the door behind him. A small gasp fell on his pointed ears when he turned around, to which he shot back up to see you with your hands covering your mouth.Â
You motioned for him to turn back around, grimacing once you touched the dent on the metal hanging off his back. He shrugged it off, groaning at not only the loss of weight, but at the ache in his back. The whole piece of armor was dented at his spine, from when theyâd killed his horse and heâd fallen onto their barrier walls. He thought it a miracle that he could even walk after that, but not after an ache with every step. He wasnât sure how many bones were broken or how long it would take them to heal, but by the gods he couldnât wait another moment to see you.Â
He shook his head, begging you not to ask, and continued on removing the armor, then the leather bindings, then the outer layers of his clothing. Eris was left in just his trousers and linen long sleeved shirt, the once loose material had become matted to his body, brown with grime and sweat. You tried not to stare at the flecks of blood, wounds that had probably already begun healing over, or the tears, where no doubt enemy swords may have scratched or even penetrated through the gaps in his armor.Â
As the broken male stood before you, eyelids heavy and shoulders slumped, you picked up your hand and raised it up to his prominent cheekbone, running your thumb over the scar adorning his pale skin. He hummed at your touch, nuzzling his cheek into your palm, as if his head was so heavy he could barely hold it up on his own.Â
He shut his eyes so, in fear he may fall asleep standing in your doorway, you tilted his chin up with your forefinger, and lifted his head up. He opened those bloodshot eyes and blinked a few times. âCanât let you fall asleep so dirty, my love,â you whispered, running your thumb over his sharp jaw before you dropped your hand, only to grab his instead. âYouâll sleep much better if youâre clean.â
A small smile tugged at his lips at the sweet gesture of the female he loved as he followed you down the hall and into the bathing room.Â
The tea on the side table had been long forgotten.Â
You lit up the candles with your own fire power, the scent of maple and pine wafting around the room. Eris stood awkwardly in the middle of the room, waiting for you to guide him to the next step. He craned his neck in all directions, a low crack echoing off the walls. His shoulders ached, too sore to even move his arms, as he tried to roll out his shoulders. âNone of that,â you stated over the sound of the copper tub filling with water. âLet me help.â
You grabbed two handfuls of his shirt, stuck against his abdomen, as you pulled it free from his lean muscle and pulled it over his head. He groaned, raising his arms only high enough for you to bunch up the material and slip it over his head. You repeated the action with his trousers, allowing him to step free of them and then into the water.Â
His skin was covered in bruises, some yellow, some still ripe and purple. His muscles were tense, you could see all the valleys of his toned legs and arms, the contour of each muscle that bound his bones. You touched his arm ever so lightly when it was time for him to step into the tub, adding a handful of soap into the stream of water.Â
Brown and red speckled along the surface of the water, the grime leaving his body as he nearly dropped himself into the water. He sighed, the water relaxing the ache in his bones. You grabbed the cloth and saturated it in soap, lifting his arm and dragging the soft material across his skin. A few minor cuts and scrapes, nothing that wouldnât heal by the morning.
His eyes shut and his head fell against the edge of the tub as you worked your way across his body, stopping only to inspect the cuts adorning his skin. âCome on, Eris, wake up,â you murmured, leaning over from your spot at the edge of the tub. You lifted his head into your hands, scooping the water over his sweat-soaked locks. âLavender or green apple?âÂ
He hummed, opening his eyes only just a crack before responding. âLavender.â His voice was low, so low that you almost didnât hear it. The purple marks under his eyes were more prominent in the candle light - the male had been through hell and back, clearly, and needed nothing more than your gentle touch to heal him.Â
âThen youâll no doubt fall asleep on me,â you hummed, lathering up the lavender soap in your hands before running your fingers through his hair. Your fingertips scratched at his scalp just the way he liked, running the sudsy soap through his long curls. If he werenât so tired, he would have grabbed your arms and heaved you over the side of the tub, holding you over his lap while you washed his hair. Heâd nip at your breasts as theyâd fall right in his face, and maybe heâd tease the head of his cock through your folds as you bounced above him to clean the back of his head.
But he was so fucking tired.
And there was always tomorrow.
âOk almost done,â you whispered, probably more to yourself than him, as you cleaned the soap from his hair. âYou ready to get up? Or are you spending the evening in the tub?â
He smiled for the first time that evening, his lips pressed together with smile lines carved into his cheeks. His eyes had nearly fallen closed again, and although he did feel so comfortable in the warm water, he knew he ought to get up. Heâd much rather spend the night in your warm bed wrapped in your arms than the water that was soon to grow cold.Â
âThank you, (Y/N),â he almost moaned, pressing his large hands to the sides of the tub and pushing himself up. The water moved around him, falling off his body in waves.Â
âDonât mention it,â you replied, wrapping a towel over his shoulders and beginning to wipe him dry as he stepped from the bathtub. You fetched some clean clothes for him - his stockpile heâd reserved for when he decided he needed to spend weeks at your house, not daining to leave even to winnow home for more clothes.Â
Iâm not leaving you, (Y/N). Iâll just have to spend the week naked with you, heâd say. After that week, spent more in his arms than anywhere else, youâd forced him to fill your armoire with clothes for the next impromptu vacation.Â
You pushed over the bathroom stool, splaying your hands on his broad back and pushing him towards the chair. You opened up the expensive salve on your counter, swiping some with your fingers and spreading it over his cheeks. You rubbed the salve into his skin - your skin will go dry in the cold, youâd told him.Â
In truth, he loved being pampered. He was the High Lordâs son for godsâ sake. Heâd been used to a lifetime of it; but his male-pride showed when heâd spend the first night at your house, grimacing as you attempted to put the product on his face. Only this once, heâd responded, giving in only when youâd jutted out your bottom lip in protest.Â
But he secretly loved it, and let you do whatever you wanted to him. Which is why he sat so still on that chair when you started to run your fingers through his hair, using the heat building up in your palms and fingers to heat up his hair, drying it quickly as you sifted through it.Â
Between the heat and your fingers pulling at his red locks, his head fell backwards and his eyes fell shut once more. You smiled down at the male, with the hard and rigid exterior, the no one can touch me god-like complex, melted and so soft under your touch.Â
Once his hair was dry enough where you knew heâd have no issues falling asleep in the cold air of your bedroom, you traced your fingers over his cheeks and down his neck, over his collar bones, then down the thick muscles of his arms. Your thumb drew circles over his hard muscles, still tense and no doubt sore.Â
He hummed, a groan deep in his throat, as he opened his eyes and held your wrists in his hands. âWe done here?â He grumbled, knowing youâd like to pamper him much more, more serums and salves - and by the Cauldron he wasnât one to refuse a good massage.Â
But you knew he was tired, you bit back the smile and nodded, allowing Eris to finally stand and guide you back to the bedroom. He made sure to get you into bed first, pulling back the covers that were already strewn about from when youâd tried to sleep earlier that evening. You crawled in first, pushing back the layers of covers before so you both could lay out under the blankets.Â
Eris followed you in, laying on his side, bending his legs so his feet didnât hang off the edge. You curled up to his side, chest to chest, enveloped in his warmth. His arm fell across your back, holding you close to him, and you tangled your legs with his under the pile of blankets. Erisâs breathing fell steady - you knew he fell asleep the moment his head hit the soft pillow.Â
No matter how hard youâd try to sleep in, you knew youâd wake before him. He was in dire need of a night of undisturbed sleep, relaxation and healing the forefront of his exhausted bodyâs priorities at the moment. You knew that even if you tried to sneak out as slowly and quietly as you could, heâd hold you tight in his sleep, not even waking to wrap his arms tighter around you. So youâd lie awake in his arms, tracing the scars on his skin and counting the freckles adorning his cheeks.Â
Summary:Â This one is a req from @acourtofmenandthirst: Eris' daughter drawing his scars on her doll.
Warnings:Â Mentions of scars.
Word Count:Â 1,639
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Eris peeks his head into the room, amber eyes drifting towards the cot his son, Rook, is currently crying in. The young boy, hardly a year old, has an iron grip on the bars caging him inside the intricately carved wood of his bed. Thick vines and leaves cut into the dark lumber, choked by his little fingers.
Tears stream down Rook's chubby cheeks and Eris coos, pushing into the room. Sunlight creeps in through the light linen curtains. The stained glass creation hung in the window casts colorful shadows across the creamy yellow of the walls.Â
âMy poor son,â Eris huffs dramatically, lifting Rook from his cradle. Heâs clothed in only his nappy, reaching up to cling onto his fatherâs pressed shirt as if heâll never let go again.Â
Eris hopes he doesnât. His children are growing up much too fast.
Rook sniffles, resting his head in the crook of Erisâ neck, and hiccups. Eris pats soothing motions into his son's bare skin, peppering his freckled cheeks with loving kisses as he calms his youngest child down. He rocks the little boy, waltzing up to the big windows and pushes the curtains open, letting the afternoon sun shine in full force. The room overlooks the small orchard in the back of his quaint home. Trees heâs planted himself with help from you and your daughters, an important tradition to your family.Â
It started on your first date. Eris had already known you were the oneâlove at first sightâand kept his home away from home a secret from his family, only using it to escape Beronâs throes when he really needed it. Briar, he named it. He had cooked you a hearty meal with the most expensive, luxurious wine he could find, and after a delightful dinner, heâd walked you through the nearly empty rolling hills behind his home, hand-in-hand.
Youâd commented how the fields needed more trees and had gushed on and on about what he could do with the space. His shadow hounds had run by your feet, chasing each other through the ankle-high grasses, and heâd immediately taken you to his mount and settled you in front of him, taking the both of you into town to purchase some seeds.Â
It has been tradition ever since. Birthdays, anniversaries, births, deaths, any and all celebrations the both of you would go into the yard and plant a tree. Maude loves her cherry trees with all her heart, and Eris is convinced the only reason his daughter ventures outside is to pluck the fruit off the trees and stuff herself silly, stumbling back into the house with stained fingers and lips.
A juniper tree for his other daughter, Juniper. This one was harder to acquire, but thriving well in the backyard, closest to the home. June doesnât seem to understand the value of the tree yet, but someday, Eris knows that she will.
And a sweet orange tree for his little boy Rook. It had been one of your cravings when you were pregnant with him, and to plant the tree only seemed fitting. Rook devoured any little orange bits he was given with the biggest smile on his face.
He makes a grabby hand for the tree, smart enough to know where his favorite treats are from.Â
âYou hungry, little man?â Eris asks, and Rook babbles in response. He lifts his son, blowing raspberries on his bare stomach that has cheerful giggles bursting through the room. Rookâs auburn eyes shine up at his father, laughing only harder when Eris catches a whiff of his nappy, grimacing. âAlright baby, letâs get you all cleaned up first.â
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âWhy is our son naked?â you muse, allowing Eris to press a kiss to your cheek while you scoop the last of the cookie dough onto the tray. Your mate and daughters had been helping you, but the girls had been more interested in eating the batter their father kept sneaking them, so you shooed them away to play with their dolls while the cookies baked and you patted Eris on the butt as he went to check on Rook.Â
Your son keens, pressing his own open mouthed kiss to your cheek. Itâs all slobber and suction, but you canât help the beaming smile that splits your cheeks anyway.Â
âBecause he keeps burning them off, Fawn,â Eris answers you, nose wrinkling as he turns to the babe, âIsnât that right buddy?â
Rook screeches in excitement as his father tickles his stomach. It isnât abnormal for your sonâs power to be flaring up with his emotions. Youâd gone through similar situations with Maude and Juniper around this age as well. You still have the burn marks of waddling feet branded into the wood to prove it.
Placing the tray of cookies into the oven, you reach out to take Rook from your mate. âSuch a little stinker,â you tease, bopping your youngest on the nose. He retaliates by grabbing a fistful of your hair and you curse mentally, knowing you shouldâve tied it out of his reach.Â
âWhere are the girls?â Eris asks, peeking around the kitchen for any leftover cookie dough. In his mission to steal as much as he could for his daughters, heâd forgotten to sneak a taste for himself. The mixing bowl sits soapy in the sink and he deflates a little.
âColoring in the den,â you answer, eyes twinkling. Your stomach swoops still at the sight of Eris, even more so whenever he interacts with his children. You knew he was loving, but seeing him like this, completely at ease with no worries tightening his shoulders, he looks ethereal. âWhy donât you get them washed up for some cookies?â
âYes, please,â Eris says, stealing a kiss from you. Rook squeals and you swoon.
Leaving Rook with you, Eris takes off into the next room. He finds Maude and Juniper spread out on the floor, their coloring supplies strewn about. Thylix and Codon, two of his hounds, laze around both girls, having taken it upon themselves to become their guards. They hardly leave his daughters alone, often choosing to sleep beside their beds at night, though Eris knows his daughters let them jump into bed with them as soon as the door shuts behind him.Â
âWhat are my baby girls drawing in here?â Eris asks, tiptoeing forward. They startle and the houndsâ ears perk up at the sound of their master, but they donât move. His daughters look up at him with those big, round russet eyes, and Eris knows immediately that theyâre doing something they shouldnât be.
âDaddy,â Maude pouts, hiding something in front of her. Erisâ brows furrow as he wonders what sheâs keeping from him, but her younger sister, Juniper, holds her doll up in the air, proudly.Â
âDaddy!â June yells, pushing up onto wobbly legs and racing towards him. Eris scoops her up and she squeals, bringing her doll with her, showing off her artwork to her father. Marker streaks across the face of her plaything, reds, oranges, and pinks adorning the cheeks and dress, across the dollâs eye.
âWhatâs this, Junie?â Eris asks, admiring her artistic abilities. Thereâs potential, but if sheâs going to continue her artistic streak, he better get her something more appropriate to color on. Maybe sign her up for one of the localâor Night Courtâart classes.
âItâs Daddy,â she answers, beaming up at her father. His heart swells, but he doesn't seem to be comprehending what Juniper is trying to convey.
He looks around his middle daughter to his oldest, still in her spot on the ground. Her cheeks are pinked with a blush and sheâs pouting at her little sister for ruining the surprise.
âCare to explain, Maude?â Eris asks, though heâs not really sure if he wants the answer.
She sighs, shoving up to her feet. She holds up her doll in front of her face like sheâs going to get in trouble for what sheâs done, but Eris doesnât understand why.
Until Maude explains. âWe drew your scars on our dollies,â she says, and it all clicks. The one across his cheekbone from when Beron has nicked him purposefully with the edge of his sword before he set foot into his first war. His father had said the scar would help him relate to his legion the more roughed up he looked.Â
Another, peeking out from the strap of the doll's dress, right above her heart. Itâs a rendition of the brand on his chest, another gift from his father. He tries not to let his children see his scars, especially that one in particular, but she mustâve seen it when sheâd crawled into your bed after a nightmare perhaps.
Erisâ eyes prickle but he blinks the emotion away. His throat is thick, and he distracts himself by taking a second look at Juniper's toy. Upon catching her fathers gaze on the doll, Maude speaks again. âJunie drew Uncle Luluâs eye scars on hers. I told her we were supposed to be drawing only yours, but she didnât listen,â Maude huffs a little, annoyed that her younger sister didnât follow her direction.
âThatâsâŠthatâs very thoughtful, Junie,â Eris places a chaste kiss on her forehead and she grins. âYou both did such a wonderful job.â
âYouâre notâŠmad?â Maude asks, staring up at him nervously.
Juniper kicks her legs, trying to escape Erisâ grip. He lets her down and she abandons her doll, racing for the kitchen where she can hear you talking to her brother.
Eris kneels, taking Maudeâs hand in his and tugging her into his chest for a hug. âNo, Maude, Iâm not upset. Iâm impressed.âÂ
âYou really like it?â she asks shyly, pulling back so she can look him in the eyes.
Eris nods once, firmly. âI love it, Maude. You made me look perfect.â
hi kier đ„ș hope iâm not being intrusiveâŠif i am iâm sorry, iâve been wanting to ask if acourtofmenandthirst is ok? miss her lots and i hope sheâs doing well đđ„°
Yes sheâs good! Sheâs got a lil cold right now but otherwise sheâs doing well! Just a very busy time at work and such so she hasnât had much time to get online lately đ
