Updated intro post!
This account is for my WL goals, inspiration, and general self improvement.
I’ve struggled with ED (ana/bed) since I was 15. I am 25 now. I consider myself mostly recovered, at least in the sense that I don’t do extreme restriction anymore, and work really hard to prevent binge eating. I think that the inner dialogue is going to be lifelong, but with therapy and life experience I’ve learned that I really don’t want to be “sick”.
I don’t want to be overweight, or malnourished- I want to be healthy.
For myself, I do feel my healthiest and most confident when I’m thin. I’ve always been thin, I didn’t pass 100lbs until my sophomore year of high school. In my early 20s I started smoking a lot of weed, drinking, and using nicotine products. These things seemed to be the cure to my ED brain, and I maintained a weight I was happy with while using these substances. In 2023 I quit using weed and alcohol, and the food noise came back. The constant insecurity came back. I quit nicotine in 2025.
During my journey of sobriety I started to really focus in on health, and what was truly important to me. Who was I without weed? If this sounds melodramatic, I get it. But weed really suppressed my identity, in ways I wasn’t even aware of. I forgot (or stopped caring) that I loved to cook, I loved nature, I loved healthy whole foods, I loved animals and I loved my family. When I was a stoner my life was boring, my attitude sucked, and I had no passion. While reconnecting with myself and my interests, I gained a lot of weight. Like 40+ lbs lol.
This year I’ve been working on sustainable, long term weight loss.
My stats are as follows;
Height- 5”7 / 171 cm
HW- 185lbs / 84kg (bmi 29)
CW- 166lbs / 75kg (bmi 26)
LW- 135lbs / 61kg (bmi 21)
For now, my goal weight is 140lbs.
For any weirdos looking to report my account- if you did any research at all, you’d see that my goals are perfectly reasonable and healthy.
Adding some personal photos of mine below
