Or something like that date..
It's been such a long time
I've been overwhelmed with work and housing and legal shit
I'm always in survival mode right now and its taking a toll on me
I got a really bad cold then got the flu then i started feeling sick again but I think that's getting better now
So I'm starting my lead position for the after school program on tuesday
and I'm really excited, but I'm so nervous
I was supposed to be at all all new site and I was happy about that
I could just come into my new role
but I've been at this current site for a couple weeks now and the boss really likes me, so I guess she requested that I be the lead there, but I dont like that
I really really like the supervisor, she's so soft spoken and caring
But she's a little too light on everybody.
Half the staff kind of sits around and doesn't do much
Instead of organizing, cleaning, and preparing, they just sit on their phones
Which is usually fine, but I don't want to be the lead of these people
especially after they feel like they've been teaching me things for a couple weeks and now I have to step in as their lead
But the other lead doesn't do much, she just sits on her phone and calls kids to come for their parent
I know each site should have two leads but, I don't like how this is working out
and it's very clicky, most of the women speak spanish and I don't
Most of them speak mainly spanish to each other and don't include me
Which I don't really care about, but it just feels weird when they're the ones sitting around doing nothing, and I've had such bad luck with this in the past
But we will figure it out on Tuesday
The supervisor is super happy to have me and I guess that's what matters
and we get free snacks and waters and she always buys us food and stuff
in the past couple onths Ive had so many problems
my bedroom door doesn't close from the outside unless somethings against it
and I called code enforcement because the landlord didn't want to help me buy new groceries since the fridge went out
and code enforcement informed me that the landlord isn't the owner even though he said he was
And the landlord gave me a 30 day notice in the owners name
but fair housing sent a letter of retaliation to the actual owner
and I've never had contact with the actual owner
so I dont' have any more rent paid for any time coming up
And I'm hoping to get something
I have an appointment with an attorney on Monday
So my first day of my new position will start Tuesday
There's so many violations from this place that's not up to code
and my roomate has been like discriminating and like harassing me?
Harassment feels so weird to say since its nothing sexual
She called me fucking crazy
She got so mad that my boyfriend was cooking for me when i had the flu and I had the door closed since it was 45 degrees outside
She yelled at me and said so much shit
but I've documented all of it
Shes been kicking my shoes that are outside my bedroom door
Constantly moving my stuff
and opening the sliding door every chance she gets
She's also been spraying strong smelling cologne or spray through the house, it gives me such a headache
Every time I leave my room, it feels like a fight
And I've just been trying to play my music and ignore it
Because right now, I'm just waiting
Waiting on anyone to tell me what to do legally
If it were up to me, I'd be living in my car now and paying off my bills
So I can kind of start new
But I don't think that's the smartest move legally
But i got a bigger storage unit, in case I have to use that space to relax and a place for all my furniture
It's so expensive, 3x the cost of my last one, but my last storage was a 5x5 and this one is a 10x10
There's apparently a busted pipe in the wall too which is causing hot water instability
but I'm wondering if that's causing my sore throat
There has to be mold in the walls by now
And that roommate insists on keeping the bathroom door closed at all times
I've been drinking and smoking more
I've been binging on junk
Only losing weight when I get sick
and I feel bad but my boyfriend put more stress on me
I guess I'm a girlfriend now
We went on a weekend trip
Beach in the morning, Snow in the afternoon, and Dessert at night
Super fun, but so tiring for a Sunday since we went out Friday night
He recently reminded me that he will very soon have his daughter every weekend
and he wants me to meet her sooner than later and it's kind of a lot for me
Having the realization that I won't have any weekends with a partner is so much
Especially when my life isn't super stable
And he's mentioned me meeting his family
So I can hangout with everyone when he has his daughter
and I sometimes feel like I can't do things I want to do because of it
But we're going to move in together soon, and I guess we will see how it plays out
But I will bring up these concerns to him prior to that
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