Sad poet

finding reason in shadows

[address-me-god]

Love yourself

I can not sleep I can not dream,

I have have to walk the path chosen for me,

I can not stumble I can not choose,

Why do I have to wear a different man shoes,

Yet I smile not noticing the shadow hiding in my heart,

as the time passes by I wish I could be fine,

I am just a puppet controled by the moral code,

I just did what I was told so why can not I love myself,

I can not breath I struggle with what is left,

the suffocating is the help where I can not find,

the pain is painting my limbs blue,

everything is okay just as I reach my hand afloat.

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Empty

Is it mine, this fire reaching the sky,

or am I only a stranger siting on ones hand,

already burned out like a revel looking at the sunrise,

red eyes stop looking around noone cares,

the cracks in the mirror getting bigger,

what did I do wrong, why did I become like this,

is there still a way out, you know me just so well,

still talking to myself I fake a smile just forget everything,

even if only for a day, these roses need to be cut out of the way,

my soul is screaming yet my mind is calm as I take another shot,

I would give anything to be someone else.

[address-me-god]

One-night stand

That sparkle that is making me blush,

what is this rush that is forcing me flush,

such body supposed to be sealed away,

so why is my mind going blank,

stop or I am gonna do something I cant take back,

no I cant run away you have me already wrapped around your fingers,

I want to save me but I cant walk out the door,

I cant get enough I cant take it anymore,

why is it always just a beautiful tragedy,

even when I love you, you hate me,

look what you have done to me,

I cant get over it, you are everything I need,

yet you have never loved me. 

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Corpse

The two moons shine so bright,

they shine for the happiness of the ones left alive,

I know sometimes it wont go away, sometimes it just dissapears,

so tell me now where did you go, where is the path I cant find,

where is the glow that led you there, so why am I stuck here.

The four suns beam the dark sides,

so why is the light so cold,

hating the smiles around,

why is it just me, only me to be stared on,

stop looking or I will sratch it off,

so under the glow I return to the deep hole,

so the moons shine can turn you back to my side.

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God forbid

You say you are gonna treat me right,

so let me ask you know,

what is the look in your eyes,

why are you shaking the whole night, 

you said we are gonna enjoy our time,

dont worry this hell is a blessing in disguise,

just like the bible says  consider that the sufferings,

 of this present time are not worth comparing,

 with the glory that is to be revealed,

the agony is your friend so embrace it,

rejoice the pain that is making you sane,

so I will rip your wings apart, 

that is the price for my blessing. 

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Love

So who is gonna love you, who is gonna touch you,

if it isnt me, you cant be choosing, 

so I will make you bleed to have it look like a creek,

I am a fcking diva making you all scream,

I cant take it anymore I want to make you torn up,

the look in your eyes, oh my god I feel it,

come make me loose it a bit more,

I just came alive, so let me enjoy,

the warmth inside you. 

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Ugly thruth

Why am I fine,

when everyone is holding their cry,

I am okay I reply,

even though I know I lie,

forcing myself to smile,

that is how the world works right,

to deny your feelings,

to give up on yourself,

be a good boy and appealing,

what the fck is even the meaning,

live like a grown up being,

just to be concealing,

on the inside bleeding.

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Suicidal

Why is it so loud yet when I  look nobody around,

I wish it wouldnt ring in my head so I scream scream aloud,

everyone running yet I cant even stand on my feet,

it is getting cold feeling the heat driping out my life,

so take me away I am almost ready to go so show me the way,

the stars are shining and yet my wing are clipped to stay,

the broken boy is never fixed the shiver is never gone,

why is not this the end when my heart is dead,

save me from this hell just help me and set it around the neck,

the pain faint like the better days that are we living for,

the cuts reamining from the misery that is staying in my head,

the unknown song is not playing for long cause nobody will hear him sing.

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Good guy in heart

I know in my mind that the answer is right, do not try to fight, you run with me so cut me free, the cage is not for me, I will help your daily stage so take the key, and let me free.

You know what I did, losing my grip, hearing the dead kid, seeing the red of his innocent shed, now look into my eyes still holding the thruth of so many years, holding the tears, confronting the fears, he is dead on my record for the world to hear, they will think it is suicide but who knows who is inside.

I saved him, I held him till he died, you chocked him out of his goddamn mind, promised the world and goddam lied. What you want from me? Look outside.

I cannot stand the person inside me, breaking the mirrors around me, I tryed to hold him inside, but who is in control?

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PAIN

Pain is like breathing,

I would rather stop breathing than to feel nothing at all,

pain is like love,

once you feel it you can’t get enough,

pain is like sex,

it starts innocent but than you like it rough,

pain is like trust,

It hurts the most when you least expect it,

pain is like dreams,

you can not live without it.

Embrace pain,

it made you who you are.

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Is it me or,

is time taking the dear ones

away from me,

I can not see the misery,

of the death that is closing to my family,

as a car it is in front of my house,

so I take a peak as it reaches it's scythe,

but I can not bear,

to lose my precious grandpy,

in a blink of an eye,

so why now is God testing my mind,

as I mourn and cry,

at the siren voice,

the one I did not want to hear the most.

[address-me-god]

The time of my life,

when the bad moments

are flashing before my eyes,

the regrets that keep raping my heart,

striking every time I cry,

so God tell me why,

do I try when I am rotten from inside,

why do I not want to die,

just to see a glimpse of the lights,

that are keeping me alive.

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Dreams

Stop pretending to be right,

just because you believed in all those lies,

why couldn't you fight,

to see the future in the lights,

stop hiding in drinks or

the women that are leaving every night,

you lost the glow that you had in your eyes,

stay true to your feelings,

the ones you were not afraid to hide,

so answear me right,

is this your life,

to crawl with no might,

with your hands tied.

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Future

What is this life,

nothing seems alright,

left open in the dark,

like a brand new melody,

that is sinking me,

to the howling abyss,

broken without a soul,

I travel after this song,

just to see the tones,

that are tearing my hopes.

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Black wings

Life comes to death and asks.

Why does people love me but hate you so much?

And death aswears.

Cause you are a sweet lie,

and I am a cruel truth.

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Cut

Why do I strugle,

to find more trouble,

in a bright sunny day,

I cover myself from any pain,

just like a normal day,

I sweep the blood away,

that is pouring out of my vein.

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Lovesick

Why do I feel like this,

full of tears,

I listen to voices,

not a single word,

yet it made a hole,

that will grow,

inside my heart,

breaking me apart,

I listen to moans,

my beloved and other's man groans,

I drink for you satan,

my closest friend,

as I reach for the weapon in the end,

leaving a letter behind,

for my darkest fairy,

You were my life.