Hello, Just wanted to contact you both and express myself a little bit before i get home for christmas, I have literally no idea what has happened in the recent months but i know the family well enough to understand probably what has happened and that the outcome is that David wasn't happy with my Dad being at Katie's for Christmas. Pretty much every single time i've opened my mouth or tried to express and opinion or a feeling about the relationships in our family i've been shut down and told that i don't fully understand, So i'm not going to try and understand, i'm going to only ask that you try to understand me, You are both spiritual people and have read up a lot about forgiveness and inner love and all that jam so i know you both are capable of reaching out from places of love and not from places of fear and defence because it is not my intention to attack anyone. I myself many times have punished my Dad for the way he's spoken to me. I understand the concept and righteousness of it, and that it feels like a true necessity but as i grow older i see how completely pointless and repetitive this cycling of living can be. Because of a few events that have happened, events that always happen in this family. I won't be able to spend Christmas day with my baby cousins, I don't live in England, I have a few weeks every year to try and see my closest friends and family and let them know that they aren't forgotten to me. When i heard that i wasn't going to be seeing the fam on Christmas day, i didn't feel angry, i felt disappointment. Because actually i feel like the harshest punishment being dealt here is on me, on Katies and on unrelated people who can spend important days together, kids who wont have 3 more extra people to play with or show their presents to. Trying to find you on facebook David I opened up the only ever messages i've sent you on here which actually was last christmas, you probably have never read them because we aren't friends here and they are in your other folder. The universe does strange things sometimes but i wrote this to your one year ago : ''Just wanted to say thank you for being so kind and generous to nanny win Not many people would be so good and have time for it. So thank you so much, have a great christmas x'' I wont be seeing you this christmas but i still want you to know i am grateful that you spend time with my nanny win.