Everybody walked out of the room, I stayed behind and you were erasing everything that you wrote on the board, turned away from me. I was asking if you could still accept my work. It was 20-30% of the total grade for that term if I remember correctly. I initially thought of asking my friends to submit my work on my behalf but I donât know why I chose to take the treacherous path of doing it myself.Your body language was screaming a firm âNOâ. I stood there silent, trying to suppress my trembling fingers and still felt hopeful that youâd somehow give my work a chance even for a lesser score.
You gave me a side-way dagger glance and asked âBakit kasi sa araw na iyon mo pa napiling um-absent?â. I never answered your question but on that day I chose to attend my brotherâs wedding. I was contemplating on how unfair life is, all I wanted was to be there for my brother and now I have to go through this anxiety-triggering moment worsened by the risk of failing that subject. I knew nothing and was self-centered. I couldnât help the tears, isama mo na iyong sipon na sobrang awkward kasi wala akong hawak na tissue tapos hindi ako makagalaw sa takot.
After a few moments of chilling silence, I had the courage to wipe my tears and snot with my shirt(yes, wala na nang option kaysa umabot sa floor yung sipon ko). You didnât accept my mini-project in the end but before I walked out of that room I decided âI have to do betterâ. I didnât want to repeat that subject so I sucked it all up and left the room.
Since that day I weighed all the consequences of my decisions and learned that making choices will never be a hundred percent win. I passed your subject, even if I feel like itâs all I could offer Iâm surprised that I could do more.
Iâm still not that that good of a programmer and still have a long way to go but you taught me how to be ACCOUNTABLE - something thatâs not learned just by reading a book. It has led me to work with a lot of awesome people and deliver results. Salamat po, I terribly regret not spending time to say this to you personally. Baguio has always been my home but every time I was there I always pushed back from checking on my alma matter.I always avoided you because of that embarrassing moment, kahit nangaasar ka sa ICTR ngumingiti lang po ako pero sana nung time na yun I grabbed the opportunity to get to know you better, to learn more from you. I remember when you flexed that app you made for judging Mr. and Ms. SCIS Centennial. I was super awed kasi alam ko po kakalabas lang ng iOS nun tapos nakapagdev ka na agad ng app.Happy Birthday po. It is an honor to be your student.
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