lil daisy

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unlucky

well, i am unlucky when it come to love. i am unlucky in having crush too. shit lah. am i no pretty enough? its like i’m invisible and no one saw how pretty i am because they only saw my friends. fuck

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Dear Awak,

I wish I can tell you right now that I like you and I want you to be mine but that would be a selfish move. I know how broken you are right now and It wasn’t fair for me or for you to start a new relationship. Plus, you never see me as a girl, you see me as your sister. I like you for quite a long time because you would be the perfect candidates to heal me and guide me. okay dah, i malas taip. bye

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Let's have a lil throwback. From my first year of degree until this year :') Thank you everyone for this wonderful journey. I'm gonna miss you all but not the exam (of course!) (at Faculty Of Music)

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My ootd photos usually taken by Fazrina, Hanie or Nina. For me, it such a waste kalau i dah put effort and pikir nak pakai apa lepas tu i tak snap ootd. Hahahahaha.

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at Mee Kari Mat Jasak

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Mok. (at Dewan Sri Iskandar , Uitm Seri Iskandar)

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Awkward hand pose. Hari nie pun guna Hello Virgin liquid foundation by @lustxcosmetics ✨rugi la kamu kamu yang tak cuba this foundation. Serious!

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at Faculty Of Music

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Kambing Sahara at Setia Alam. The portion is big enough for me. I makan tak habis pun tadi nasi tu haa. Memang sedap and pedas! Perut i nie bermasalah sikit where it come to kambing so we'll wait and see what happen next. Hahahahahah but i will definitely come here again!

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This would be my last midterm studio exam with them. I'm so gonna miss them but not the exam, of course! #khairilldahbalik #janjisemuapakaihitam (at Faculty Of Music)

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I might look like I'm 6 month pregnant in this photo. Blame the wind okay? I look like 3 month pregnant in real life. Btw, that was a fake smile. I was trying to show that I'm doing fine. Well guess what? I'm not. In case you want to know, yes that is a batik pants my mom made for me. She is going to kill me if she saw me wearing this to class because she specifically told me that this is seluar tido bukan seluar pi kelas. Okay that's all. Kbye. (at Fakulti Muzik UiTM Shah Alam)

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Let see

So earlier this year, a friend of mine trying to hook me up with this one guy. She gave my num to that guy and ask him to text me. I ask my friend to give him my Instagram first so he can decide he want to text me or get to know me or not. Until today, I got no text or call 🙃 So today, another friend of mine is trying to hook me up too. He gave my num to him and my Instagram. He followed me already and let's see whether the same things happen or not. I bet he don't want to get know me because uhmm, you know, I'm fat.

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No matter how hard I try to let go of this stupid unpleasant feelings, I still have it with me. I keep on telling myself that “i am okay” more than 10 times a day because the truth is i’m not okay. 

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Makcik Dila.

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at Fakulti Muzik UiTM Shah Alam

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Sekufu

this word will haunt me for the rest of my life. 

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Alone Time

When i was in a relationship, I have to wake up early and have a morning conversation after Subuh with him before both of us off to school and work. To be honest, I really really want to get more sleep after Subuh but for him, I stay awake. I was secretly hoping that he overslept so I can get more sleep. That is one of the things that i need to sacrifice. I love love love to sleep so much! I need my alone time but I rarely get it. I kinda glad that we broke up. I have more times for myself. I have more money for myself. I can go anywhere with anybody. It's great you know. The idea of being in a relationship again already made me feel rimas and anxious. I don't want to let go my alone time.