As many of you have probably figured out by now (or if any of you care), I have been inactive on this group for quite some time due to a mixture of life and other things. But I'm here to officially say that I'm no longer going to be an active member in this roleplay- and here is my reason why.
As much as I have tried to carry on with the charade that everything was fine in the group, it just wasn't. There had been many times that I had reblogged starters, only to be ignored by the other person. And many times I had posted starters and they were ignored except by the one or two people who have always reblogged me- those have been the same people that had always done that since the beginning of this group.
That is not how a roleplay should be run. Even with our dwindling numbers, you should not exclude people who have made an effort to be a part of this group, but sadly that was the case in many of these circumstances, especially in this group. This honestly isn't even a group anymore. It's just a clique of people who have their own plots, own cliques and frankly it's to the point where I'm not even going to bother anymore. I'm done trying, and I really do not care anymore.
The last time I was on was the final test to see if I should stay or leave this group, and the group failed.
The time away from this roleplay has made me feel like a new person. I didn't have to worry about who did or didn't reblog my starter, or who or who wasn't ignoring me, or who new characters were. This group had made me stressed out beyond belief to the point where I would be talking to people telling them I don't know how much more I could take because it made me feel like I wasn't good enough for the group or I wasn't a good enough RPer. This group has not good for my mental well being, and now that I have had time away from this place a weight has literally been lifted off my shoulders and I do not want to go back to the place where I was when I was a part of this group... ever again.
It's been real, but I'm honestly not going to miss this group. There will be some people that I have interacted with and have become friends with that I will miss, but the group... I will not.
Unfollow my characters. I will be keeping them for future uses and future indie roleplaying purposes with different names IF I have to change them, but they will not be associated with this group any longer. If people want to RP with my characters still, that is your prerogative. I will post starters occasionally for people that I will RPing with in the future. If you want to roleplay with me, you know where to find me.
As far as I'm concerned, you can all keep your cliques, keep your plots, keep your characters- I'll be off living my life and actually RP with people who give a fuck.
And FYI, don't use my character plots or my original characters because I will know, and if you do that would just make you a fucking shitty ass person.
This message will be queued on my other RP accounts for the rest of tonight and into tomorrow.
