[songofachilles]

i am a storm. i am night, i am darkness, i am fear and i am fearless. i am a predator. i speak to no one, i answer to nothing, i rip out flesh with my teeth and paint my lips red with blood. i am unholy. i laugh in the face of death, i thrive in destruction, i tear down the world bit by bit. i am iron. i will not bend, i cannot break, i am a threat to the titans and the gods. i am ruthless. i hold a leather leash in my hand, i have all goodness attached to the other end, i yank it as hard as i can and watch hope fade away. i am a flame. i live to burn, i cannot be touched, i get stronger in the face of danger. i am a queen and i rule all that is broken.

the mantra of chaos // [t.r.] (via pynchs)

[thevirtualharem]

[wild-handful]

Well fuck me

[lifeinpoetry]

i am a hellhound. i am feral.

Stephon Lawrence, from “//endless winter,” published in AADOREE (via danselions)

[wild-handful]

[wnq-writers]

Hero and villain. I have been both.

rustofstardust  (via wnq-writers)

[wild-handful]

[adnivesta-blog]

Do you have any regrets?

I could see some positive alternatives to my life if I had never originally deflected from the First Order. The main thing being that I wouldn’t still be an apprentice, but I was such a child back then. I feel like I’ve learned so much from spending that time on my own, so much that I wouldn’t have earned otherwise and set me apart from the other knights.

[adnivesta-blog]

as kylo ren's apprentice, do you ever have any free time? if so, who do you hang out with, what do you do, etc??

I wouldn’t necessarily consider it free time, but whenever Kylo Ren is busy with other things, I often spend my time working on bettering myself physically and mentally or getting some alone time, which is what I really prefer. I do, however, enjoy the company of Anidoto, whenever I am in the mood for company at all.

[adnivesta-blog]

If you had one wish, what would it be?

To unlock my full potential, both as a force user and as a member of the First Order.

[adnivesta-blog]

Do you think you will ever be stronger than Kylo Ren?

I think strength is relative, and considering the two of us have completely different skill sets and combat styles, it’s entirely possible I would be stronger than him in some aspects while he maintains the ability to be stronger than me in others.

[adnivesta-blog]

do you ever miss your family?

When I left, I was too young to establish a connection with my family based on anything other than convention, so no, I don’t miss people I had no true relationship with. 

[adnivesta-blog]

Ask me anything

[buckykingofmemes]

me, removing knife i have been stabbed with: ‘finders keepers’

[adnivesta-blog]

a-scumbag:

“I am too, or else I’d be bad at my job, I suppose.” He gave her a brief smile, before pulling out a holobook, pulling up his catalogue. “Pick your poison. I have everything from weapons of mass destruction to tiny little poisons that’ll kill about…300 people in one room if you play your cards right.” He paused and glanced up.

“I also have blasters.”

Adni flipped through the catalogue, browsing all the beautiful item he carried, although none of them were what she was looking for specifically. “I’m looking for something.. older. Something out of commission now, ” she explained, “Lightsaber pikes, from the old Jedi Temple Guard.” It was something of a dream for her, to use the iconic weapon in her fight against the order. “I figured, if anyone knew where to find them, it would be you.”

[thevirtualharem]

[adnivesta-blog]

strong-brave-broken:

That unwillingness to talk only made her more certain she was dealing with somebody at least relatively important, a fact that didn’t really bother her in the long run, outside of not liking the idea that she didn’t know exactly who she was talking to. In her life she’d learned it was more prevalent to watch herself around Imperials, but Keira supposed not many of their type sat around doing spice in bars.

“My job?” One shoulder lifted in a shrug, “Nothing as interesting as yours. Just mercenary work.” Not that mercenary work was ever ‘just’ anything – sometimes it was more dangerous than even she was entirely comfortable with – but answering only to herself was worth it in the end.

“Right now I’m in between work. Figured it wouldn’t hurt to spend part of the last paycheck relaxing. Don’t get to do much of that otherwise.” That, and she rarely had enough credits to spend on herself beyond necessities, being that the majority of any profit made was sent back to her clan so they could continue to prosper even with her absence.

Adni laughed, a short laugh, just a brief break in her historically grim demeanor. “Not as interesting as my job. You don’t even know what my job is,” she reminded her. Adni’s job was fairly interesting, she would have to agree, but it wasn’t as interesting as she wanted it to be. If she were knighted, now that would be an interesting job, but until then she was still just a toy for Kylo Ren. 

“Mercenary work, huh. You must be some sick bitch to think that’s not interesting,” Adni said, and although it might’ve seemed offensive, she really meant it as a compliment. Adni considered herself a sick bitch too, and if there was one person Adni loved, it was herself. 

As for her other comment, Adni wholeheartedly agreed. Adni was always quite the enabler, especially when it came to destructive or just generally inadvisable things. “I say, you can’t take it with you, you know? What even are credits anyway?” she asked, starting to make less and less sense as the night went on, “I mean, of course I know what they are but like what are they. What’s the point in having them when you could have, I don’t know, an experience or a really kriffing good meal, you know what I mean?” 

[adnivesta-blog]

savage | kylo + adni

[adnivesta-blog]

darkminded-ren:

kylo watched his apprentice focus on the stormtrooper, wondering how easily the information was able to come to her. did she struggle with summoning the force for something she hadn’t practiced as much, or did it come naturally to her? it didn’t seem to take much effort out of her as she spoke his birth planet and date aloud, as if it were written on the stormtrooper’s helmet. but afterwards she paused, and kylo turned to her expectantly. she seemed as if she were suddenly in a daze, or visualizing something…either way, kylo grew impatient, wanting to know what was going on in her mind, but preventing himself from using the force himself to find out. he preferred to push her to focus through words of discipline instead.

instead, he trodded her, “yes? and the rest…his greatest desire?” the supreme leader shook his head irritably, pacing back and forth between adni and the stormtrooper. “you’re not focusing hard enough. channel all of your energy into your task,” he reminded her, doing his best to ignore the slight guilt he felt at using the stormtrooper as a test subject. but this was the man’s job; it was part of what he had signed up for, even if indirectly. besides, he hadn’t shown any visible signs of being harmed. the stormtrooper seemed perfectly fine, and remained quiet as kylo looked from him back to adni. “if you can’t master simple mind reading, it’s going to be a long time before you can accomplish other, more important tasks.”

Adni was snapped back into reality by Kylo’s coaching. Her first instinct was to scowl at him, but she shook her head, reminding herself that what he was saying was completely warranted. It was her fault as she wasn’t able to pay complete attention to what she was supposed to be doing. The force didn’t come to you when you half assed it.  It was something you had to dedicate whole focus to. And that was exactly what Kylo was trying to remind her of, which only made her more angry. She hated when he was right, when he repeated things she already knew, when he made her feel lesser. 

Adni’s hand balled into a fist at her side. “I can do mind reading,” she said, teeth gritted tightly. At Kylo suggesting it would be a long time, she felt the frustration swell inside her. She had already waited long enough in her mind. She didn’t know how much longer she could wait. A voice inside her suggested how much easier it would be to crumple the stormtrooper inside his armor instead of reading his mind, but she knew that wasn’t what she was supposed to be doing right now, so instead of acting on that impulse, she relaxed her hand. Adni closed her eyes again, forcing herself to remove her thoughts of Kylo, of her apprenticeship, of anything other than what was on the stormtrooper’s mind. Adni wasn’t sure what she would find when she searched for his greatest desire, would it be military? Or would it be something more human? She wondered if Kylo would be unhappy if it was the latter. 

Finally she located it, seeing a scene as clear as a memory, although it hadn’t happened yet. “Success of the First Order. To wipe out the Resistance. Peace in the galaxy,” she told him, eyes reopening, the fire behind them cooling as she knew she had succeeded, then added almost respectfully, “Captain Phasma trained him well.”