Noorah

Hello, this blog will usually just be a thoughts thingie, but I’ll sometimes post my poetry if you’re into that. (If you would like to send ASKS please do I encourage you too) If you are interested to learn about me Mbti: INFP Zodiac: Pisces Ethnicity: Somali Age: Younger teenage years Favourite colour: Depends on my mood. Country I live in: England.

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Ah yes my favorite costumes uuummm hot topic enthusiasts

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It's been a while since I've made a Firewind post, so here's a Fire Spirit x Wind Archer and Dark Choco x Licorice post.

So yeah I did this with two Cookie Run Kingdom ships I ship.

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Do something I guess. I'm happy with whatever as long as i get fire spirit's A S S.

Daily Fire Spirit #163

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i usually draw in digital, but it's nice to come back to inking, also the colours are made with pearlescent watercolor

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It's my 1 year anniversary on Tumbler and I haven’t done anything with it. God

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I was supposed to write poetry on here but I haven’t done any recently

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Something I’m confused on in Percy Jackson, is how there are historical people linked to the Greek Gods and most of them lived to a pretty good age. I thought it was rare for a demigod to become a young adult, how are there many successful demigods in the well beyond that.

Were they just better fighters, more well protected? Or were there just less quests for them to go on?

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I just had a falling out with a friend and it got messy, I was texting them over and over because they were ghosting me, they got mad after that and deleted my contact.

Im in the wrong but they’re in the wrong too

I have big fucking ego

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My mother gave me life, you but you dear Evelyn gave it meaning.

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There’s not a time where I feel more disgusted with my body than the first day of my period.

Eve that fruit better have been scrumptious

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When I’m talking to someone and they decide to do something like smile at me, I feel as if I’m a disheveled poor boy, catching pennies falling from the rich man’s overfilled pockets.

The coins don’t have any real value and they can’t get me anywhere and I know that, but then and there with a penny in my hand and the rich man standing next to me, I’ll feel as if I’m the richest girl in the world

I really need someone to unconditionally love in a way I never could

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I want to be someone’s God, I want someone to depend on me.

I’ve always had this need to be needed, to be someone’s world, for them lose all rationality about me and fill my mind of their version better of myself.

I just want to be loved in a way that I want.

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Luke Castellan…….

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I like to imagine Luke Castellan with the song Usseewa, it’s an angry revolutionist song about capitalism.

It’s a Japanese song but there’s lots of covers of it and my favourite it Will Stetson’s, his voice is just so AGHHHH

Anyway id like to see that song somewhere on some platform on a Luke castellan playlist

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Look at my wonderful cat!

His name is Oscar, I don’t know his age or breed but he has pink toes and sleeps more than he eats so I think he’s great

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I’ve started cutting myself, on my left and right upper thighs.

I stole a razor blade last week on Wednesday when we were dissecting hearts and I was too scared to do it for the whole week.

But I did it yesterday, and it wasn’t scary, it was so easy.

I cut 3 long lines and they bled so much and it stinged so much it made my eye veins hurt.

But my right scars healed and when I look in the mirror, I feel almost proud of it.

There were time in my past school where I would kill for something sharp to stab myself with in the middle of class and I would always be close to tears, overwhelmed by everything and the comfort of nothing.

It feels calming

My bloodied tissue is under my bed

I literally turned 13 last year whats happening to my psyche

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TW BIG RANT

I just finished Percy and Jackson and the Last Olympian yesterday and I don’t how I feel about it.

Luke dies, which I guess makes sense, I think readers would be mad if he just surrendered and was just sent to Tartarus, will he go to Elysium?

Maybe or he’ll go to the fields of Asphodel but I don’t think he’ll feel very guilty.

I HATED, when Luke died and then Percy calls him Hermes child and then tells Hermes that Luke loved him, like no?

Percy! Did we meet the same guy for the past 4 years, he literally growled at you, when you mentioned Hermes in book 2!

Hermes doesn’t deserve that kind of closure, the whole reason this war started was because Luke felt neglected and abandoned and left with his mentally ill mother, who only drinks peanut butter sandwiches and only drinks kook aide.

Why would he love you Hermes? I know he had to leave him for the prophecy so he couldn’t be influenced and his fate become worse, HE CREATED THE INTERNET, HES THE GOD OF MESSAGES YOU THINK HE’D BE ABLE TO SEND A TEXT MESSAGE OR PHONE ONCE IN A WHILE, so Luke isn’t just left hiding in the closet from his mother, when she’s having her episodes.

Speaking of May, poor, poor May, she’s going to be making sandwiches waiting for a boy, who won’t ever come back, or maybe she knows Luke is dead, but we don’t know if she knows that, we don’t get any closure, maybe she will know since the spirit of Delphi has moved on too Rachel, ( I think). It’s all because Nazi fucking Hades cause he’s bitter he can’t get revenge on his brother.

The ending felt kinda simplistic (well it wasn’t ALOT happened) but we had all this doubt from Calypso, Ethan and Prometheus I guess but in the ending just like:

‘Hey, I know you guys threatened to kill me a bunch of times, and I know you guys are really, REALLY shitty, but like send your kids a text message and it’s A Okay. Let’s party!’ :D

( Luke would not be impressed tbh)

And Luke, Ohhh Luke there’s so much to say, I thought at the start of the book, he was 14 or at least 16 but in actuality he’s BIG AGE 19, I was imagining for a young teenager for so long!

I wish didn’t shift so much to psychopath unfeeling terrorist to,

‘Annabeth’ D:

It’d be cool if it was shown that he actually cared for some other campers, since he WAS the head counsellor of the Hermes cabin, he must’ve been taking so many undetermined kids, who should’ve fuelled his anger at the Gods but that’s never brought up. He only cares for:

‘Annabeth!’

‘Spare Annabeth, expect, when I trick her into holding the sky, or I tell my goons to feed her to the monsters along with her friends.’

We didn’t get any interactions between Luke and Hermes and I’m sorry that I keep bringing this up but it makes me so mad that somethings that’s been teased for 4 books never happens, ( flashbacks don’t count)

Hermes doesnt deserve to believe that Luke loves him, go to Conner and Travis if you want a Hermes kid to love you, they already do, but they don’t seem to care.

B-But the Ancient rules they can’t interfere with their children it wouldn’t be fair and only cause more problems.

All the Gods should go into celibacy tbh, Poseidon tells Percy he shouldn’t have been born, but then he’ll just probably continue to have more kids.

Id be mad if my godly parent couldn’t keep it in their pants and I have to suffer monsters attacking me constantly trying to kill and eat me because I’m a walking flare.

Elysium would be cool I guess, that’s if I don’t die at 3 because a cyclops sneaked into my kindergarten for a light snack.

Annabeth and Luke, Thalia and Luke

Thalia literally kills Luke in 3rd book and she never brings it up again, I know it was supposed to show reforming ability but still it was weird no one cared.

They didn’t seem to care much for each other ether, except for a few pieces of dialogue in the 3rd book.

But honestly if my best friend, who I brought back to life killed me, I’d drop her too.

I don’t think Luke’s a pedo or was in any way romantically interested in Annabeth.

They way Annabeth literally snapped Luke back in his body was talking about their little family and if Luke gets a little incest gene from the Olympians it’s safe to presume, he saw her like that as well.

And when he was asking Annabeth to run away with him, it was creepy yes, but I saw it as

‘Oh this heavily traumatized and and mind raped young man is asking his last tie to childhood to run away with him because she’s the only person he cares for and wants to relive his childhood’

Not

‘Oh let’s romantically run away together my 16 year old crush! 😻

I heard Rick Riordan forgot the age gap, so yknow, I won’t personally see it as canon for my own mind. 😌

Anway I don’t how I feel about Luke anymore, he’s my new comfort character so I can’t stop thinking about and I’m so hyperfixated on him it’s making me ill but he really sucks as a character at the end, the pay off wasn’t worth it.

Hermes is probably going to be Percy Jackson’s new father figure which kinda pisses me off, I’m going to read a free PDF of the Demi god diaries somehow so I’ll get Luke content, Hermes too with Percy and Annabeth.

OH WAIT AND ONE OF HERMES DAUGHTERS WAS HARRIET TUBMAN, that meant she got with a slave and then still let her be a SLAVE!!!

There was probably a prophecy that said Hermes couldn’t interfere and he was probably so upset at all the suffering that was happening to his daughter, his heart probably ached.

😔😔😔

I hate prophecy’s when it’s brought up in media, I wish people would go LMK style and say FUCK destiny, we make our own pathways.

But alas that’s not how it works in Greek mythology prophecy’s happen no matter what, so people don’t do much about it when it’s told.

(Hermes)

I doubt I’d make a very good Demi god, I’d probably join the titan army out of spite, then trip and die in the first battle