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by maggie kirkpatrick

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I’m exhausted.

Work, school, rehearsal .. it’s all draining me .. I feel empty.

And yet so burdened by everything because I feel like I have a lot that I need to get done for myself and other people.

I’ve been sick all week and not getting enough rest is slowly starting to take a toll on my body. I need to rest. Not to mention, I got my period, so, my body is achy and weak from that, too. I haven’t been eating enough, or regularly, because there aren’t enough hours in the day to do it. I’m trying to be good about it but it’s hard. I’m needed in ten different places at once but there’s only one of me. It’s hard to get out of bed in the morning because it’s cold. I nearly had an anxiety attack during a meeting at work this morning. I’m overwhelmed? My seasonal depression is creeping in and taking control, slowly, but surely. I’m losing motivation but I know that I have to keep going .. the year is almost over.

Being home is also taking a huge toll on my mental health. My dad is the biggest piece of shit that I know. There’s nothing positive about anything that he does. Anytime he’s angry, it’s being taken out on us, and for what? Why? It’s bullshit. I ask for one simple thing in my coming out - don’t refer to me as a girl or a woman or in the feminine - and yet he fucking continues! His presence alone makes me irritated. I can’t stand to be around him and he takes every little thing personally. He’ll greet me or ask a stupid question to which I respond to “negatively” to in his eyes and then it’s a big deal. Take a fucking hint. I don’t want anything to do with you.

I just need time to slow down. Everything is happening so quickly right now and I feel like I can’t handle it. I feel worn out. Sad. I don’t know.

Back to work.

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