Adventures In Sobriety

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When people say it’s impossible to have fun without alcohol

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Hitting a milestone with your friend

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The Alcoholic Brain

My thoughts of alcohol are very selective. I still put it on a pedestal. Daydreaming about the warmth in my stomach from those first few sips. The fuzziness in my head so I don’t have to CARE so much about things. The layers of shyness being stripped away and replaced with a new skin of confidence.

What I should be remembering is the pain. The spinning and the slurring and the throwing up. The anger and the screaming and the crying. The disorientation, the broken bones, the mental blackouts. 

What I should be remembering is waking up at 5am with my heart beating out of my chest and my anxiety so high I start to believe I’m dying.

I need to remember the shame. The endless apologies for words I don’t remember saying. The way my loved ones looked at me as they realized I’d let them down again. The multiple dangerous situations I put myself in that could so easily have ended up much, much worse.

I need to remember because my brain still tries to tell me I can have one drink. “Just have one! You’ll feel good, and then you can stop.” When everything in my history proves otherwise, that small part of my brain is always whispering “this time will be different…”

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As a child I was taught to believe addicts are somehow “bad people.” However, now that I am white-knuckling through my own sobriety and recovery, I am finding these so-called “bad people” are my soulmates. Addicts are remarkable people. Addicts fight a war within themselves every single day. Addicts are stereotyped and discriminated against. Addicts are beaten down and made to believe they are weak. With all odds against them, addicts do live healthy lives in recovery, and for that, I am grateful.

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March 7, 2018

Today I’m sober because I can’t stop thinking about alcohol

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When your friend reaches a sobriety milestone <3

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Gaining weight after getting sober like

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March 6, 2018

Today I am sober because I have a lot of things I need to do

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When someone tries to tempt you with alcohol

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When people tell you you need alcohol/drugs to have fun

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Opening the door to your past like

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Encouraging people to stay sober like

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March 5, 2018

Today I’m sober because my best friend deserves better

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How I go to sleep knowing that I won’t wake up hungover

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March 4, 2018

I’m sober today because I have to be

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When you’re trying to figure out new ways to cope with your pain

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Finding a sober buddy and never letting go like