[adam driver voice] FUCK FUCK FUCK

thirty, flirty, and thriving.

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I’m honestly a little emotional, with the premiere being so soon. It’s really the end of the saga, but I’ve really made life long friends from my cast, from the crew. I also feel nervous about the next award season, but then again... I don’t? I’m all over the place, emotionally. Is anyone else feeling like that? It’s not a bad thing, it’s just the end of the year. Of a decade. It always seems chaotic.

@hfrpstarters​

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hwf-irwin‌:

Being in a better place would be fantastic, if I’m honest. I’m….25 (It’s sad that I had to think about that.) and I’ve got no idea what it is. Somehow manage to be on time to things though, so I’m winning at that…maybe. You were in the miltary? That’s crazy. I could picture a dirty blonde, actually. Not like super blonde.

I think we always wish to be in a better place as an ideal. But really, I think we gotta make our place better. Why is it sad to think about your age? I mean, sometimes I feel like I’m eighty when I wake up sore after a long day of filming, but if anything, I’m proud. I’ve experienced, I’ve traveled, I’ve learned, I’ve loved. It’s wonderful. I was, yeah. For a while, then I got injured and got discharged. It really shook me, because I didn’t know what I was going to do. Then I dedicated myself to acting. Mmm... I could, too. Maybe one day I’ll try it?

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* 𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝒶𝑔𝑒 ↬ adumb

brendon: you thinking about me, driver?

brendon: guess blowing up your phone on the reg makes it pretty easy...... but still (~:

brendon: you're a dork. personally don't bend over for anyone -- literally & metaphorically -- but also not gonna lie..... that's kinda hot

brendon: /kinda/

brendon: we're the best secret-keepers out here. never remember long enough to spread em

brendon: glad you find my suffering ENJOYABLE, hun

brendon: you didn't even do it on purpose?? lame

brendon: 20% hair 80% softie = that's you

brendon: but yeah. i'm alright with cuddling most of the time. just depends on the person, i guess?

Adam: I mean, is that such a bad thing if I am, Brendon?

Adam: Honestly it does help, but you also being on the radio, TV... you're everywhere. Not that I mind though.

Adam: I am a dork, yeah. I think people forget I'm actually pretty damn goofy underneath my exterior. I.. damn, I got nothing to say that other than, "damn."

Adam: Only kinda?

Adam: We are. Say something and we'll forget within seconds. It's brilliant.

Adam: I find suffering in general enjoyable. Part of the dark brood, toots.

Adam: I did after that incident though!

Adam: It's also you.

Adam: Same here. If I trust you, and we get along on a pretty personal level, never feel shy to come over and cuddle.

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text ; adam

Scarlett: I was kidding, babe. Don't worry. There's just so much to do - I think there aren't enough hours in the day to get them done. I'm tired but it's manageable. The kid's great, she's more excited about Frozen II coming out than my birthday. Both things happening on the same day, to my misfortune.

Scarlett: Trust me, I know how private you are. When I first met you I honestly thought you disliked me or something because it was a little hard to get a word out f you -- but then you know what happened and I was like, hm, maybe he does like me after all. Learning together, I like the sound of that.

Scarlett: Same, I was born and raised here and at this point I can't imagine myself living somewhere else. I literally have an 'I heart NY' tattoo.

Adam: Damn, really? That's pretty cold of her. Kidding though. Wanna know a fun fact? I've never seen Frozen. Ever. I think I saw one of the little shorts they released but that's about it. I'm impressed with how I've managed to escape so long without being subdued to it. But the same, my tired is just manageable. It's there still though.

Adam: Yeah, I'm sorry about that. I didn't mean to be like that. I think most people think I dislike them at first and I truly don't mean to be rude. Cause I'm not, I like people, I just.. don't know how to vocalize it. Yeah, I definitely remember what happened. Believe me. I thought you were always funny, and sarcastic. A different type of person that you see in Hollywood so often. You're one of the real ones.

Adam: I remember that tattoo. I should get one too, but I feel like I'm too old to join in on that entire bandwagon now. I can feel Oscar probably roasting me for it too, it'd be a mess. The headlines too, but those would make me laugh.

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* 𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝒶𝑔𝑒 ↬ adumb

brendon: wellllll shuuuuuuucks 😊

brendon: turning me into HOT cheeks over here. keep the compliments coming tho. you're not allowed to stop ever

brendon: don't even remember what i'm blocking you for ngl. i won't tell if you won't

brendon: i get brandon mostly which makes me wanna shed this skin & set it on fire. sometimes benjamin?? randon every now & again. even got randy once

brendon: backflipping's the only acceptable form of transportation & that's that

brendon: i mostly play sims competitively -- we try to find creative ways to kill them. i'm trying to beat my buddy's record these days

brendon: /definitely/. you're a whole ass teddy bear by the sounds of it. how....... endearing

Adam: I imagined you saying that all silly and dorky and it's oddly endearing?

Adam: I know I'm not allowed to stop. Unless there's a safeword used. ;)

Adam: I don't remember either. Secrets are forever kept between us because we don't remember.

Adam: I know Brandon makes you angry, it's kinda funny though to see your eyes twitch and your soul leave your body.

Adam: Guess I'm stationary forever. Bummer.

Adam: Why am I even surprised? I remember I put an oven in a small room and my sim died right after the stove caught on fire. That's about as evil as I got.

Adam: I really am. I mean, do you like snuggles? Because I'll be a teddy bear for you.

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swedeskarsgard‌:

And sometimes it sort of makes you want to pull out your hair. Thank you, man, I appreciate that. Though I’ll admit I’ve had some changes and it’s decidedly less complicated and a pretty place to be in, so I’ll take it. Confusing emotions are the worst to process at times, aren’t they? But you know I’m a good listener if you ever need to sort them out. I guess personal preference, but I feel like even those folks have to admit he’s a great storyteller. His work isn’t anything I’m going to get tired of anytime soon, myself. The cinnamon on it is delicious, though I’ll admit I add that to a lot of holiday treats for the cause, hot chocolate included. It’s just that good. Dude, I’m all over this scenario. Definitely what we need to do, get some good pies going, maybe even spoil ourselves with homemade ice cream too. 

It really does. I’m sort of in the hair-pulling situation, but I think... things are going to get better. I have hope for it all, honestly. I’m glad that you’ve gotten some closure? A resolution? Whatever it is, I’m glad. At least one of us is doing good. Confusing emotions is just my trademark at this point. I’m not the greatest at processing my own emotions, I bottle things, and I push people away. This sounds very typical and “bad guy” like, but I’m not. I just need to let my guard down more, I think. Being a good storyteller nowadays is a rare thing, so if I think someone is a good one, it’s saying something. I want hot chocolate now. This is awful, you’re making me want treats so badly. Homemade ice cream? There goes any self-control, right there. I want this, no, I need this to happen.

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a bit of fun, you say?

@brendonisms

Adam knew Brendon through Oscar — they had met earlier in the year when it seemed things were starting to get better for Adam. Granted, he had been divorced for three years, but he always was someone to wallow within himself, losing track of his own thoughts, his emotions, until forcibly pulled from them. Oscar had just done that, introducing the two and finally giving Adam another person to share his life with other than his tight social group.

He never meant to be like that, but it just happened to be that way. He looked through his phone, standing at the baggage claim before making his way to the transport level, taking a taxi toward the address that Brendon had given him before he boarded his flight from New York to LA. It had been a moment since he had been there, maybe a few months. He had filmed some scenes and reshoots somewhat recently there, and truthfully? It felt a little like home, it was part of how his life moved onward like that.

There was something humming inside of Adam's chest, knowing the two had flirted via text — granted, sometimes people were just like that. Sometimes online interaction was different from face to face, so he didn't think twice about it all, his hand clutching onto his luggage after he had exited the vehicle from the hour or so trip. Traffic was somewhat decent for once, which made him pretty content. He lifted his phone from his pocket, luggage treading behind himself as he rang Brendon's phone.

Once he answered, his voice was low, eerily similar to Kylo's as he spoke, "I think we've got some long-awaited business to do," and within just a matter of seconds of saying that, he was laughing slightly. "Come on, come out here and greet me so I'm not standing on the street like a dork."

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john: they got books for that sorta thing. cheaper than therapy, but maybe not as personal 😂

john: 💀💀💀

john: o h my GOD i'm HOLLERING

john: fuck off mate, it might be late but you're gonna have fun if you like it or not!!! anyway, you're moose's world, so don't even start with those hypothetical stresses

john: hmmm.. u got me on a technicality. is lawyer school your next career move? bang on

Adam: I never have time to read. Guess I'm stuck this way. RIP Adam.

Adam: IT'S THE TRUTH

Adam: I will have fun! I'm just being a dark grumpy lord. It's my job. And he is, we always get our little differences sorted. I love that dog, man. He's my pal.

Adam: Probably. I bet I could tackle that on.

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text: oscar isaac

Oscar: I did, believe it. everyone sees you as this stoic post-military actor but I know the truth! wow, are you both gonna team up on me like this? I see how it is.

Oscar: well you say ‘don’t’ but now I’m sitting here all curious. you have to at least send me a link so I can take it and see it for myself.

Oscar: so what you’re saying is that you have no impulse control when it comes to candy? hm, have I ever given you Guatemalan candies? if not I’m about to turn into Oscar Isaac the enabler.

Oscar: it’s what I’m here for, man, to fluff all the egos. 😎

Adam: Okay, but you are correct. I'm stoic, but I can't really help it. I'm just someone who internalizes a lot — maybe it's why I've gotten so far in acting. I... well, probably am going to, sorry tuts.

Adam: Okay, but you are correct. I'm stoic, but I can't really help it. I'm just someone who internalizes a lot — maybe it's why I've gotten so far in acting. I... well, probably am going to, sorry tuts.

Adam: You're such a brat. You always have to do what you're told not to do. I'll send the link over, don't you worry.

Adam: Yeah, you're correct on that. It's why I usually keep my house clear of candy, otherwise, I'm going to be munching on some at 11PM on a Tuesday. Uh, you haven't? But I'd love to try some. And you're always my enabler.

Adam: And I'm here to say you have dreamy, dreamy eyes that everyone swoons over.

Adam: Me included.

[fromitalywithreylo]

Rolling stone magazine cover

😍😍😍😍

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text ; adam

pedro: send a voice note next time i say something hilarious. should be in 10-15 minutes.

pedro: ah, you flatter me. speaking of though, i hope you had a great birthday! how's the big 3-6 treating you?

pedro: glad to hear it, amigo. i'm doing well, thanks. yeah? i miss you and your tall self, too.

Adam: You really would want to hear the ugly laughs I have in my pocket?

Adam: It's treating me okay. I'm more tired, a little more achey. But I'm doing pretty OK.

Adam: Wow, is this what being soft is like? We need to hang out sometime, honestly.

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john: maybe it's not the right kind of love. none of us are speakin your love language, mate. it's a tricky business

john: no plans, no plans! we play it be ear! see where the night takes us, where the shots land us! shhh no time to be sad, i'm putting all that off till the last minute

john: it's kinda gross tbh, shouldn't know anyone this well unless i'm romancin' 'em

Adam: I think the real problem is I don't even /know/ my love language. I should probably get a therapist to help get me to figure that out.

Adam: So you're basically saying, "let's get Adam drunk until he can't form a sentence and ends up crying to an Uber driver about how his dog looked at him the wrong way and it ruined his entire week."

Adam: We're in a bromance, so you kinda are romancing me in a way. Just saying.

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mgnfoxfxme‌:

I guess it’s our season for a reason and it’s too short, but that makes it more exciting and waiting for it is always a great thing. How is that possible? you don’t like Disney or you do but don’t feel ok to go as a grown-up man? because I volunteer to show you Disney World or Disney Land all the decorations that make you run home and bake Christmas cookies, sing Christmas songs and decorate every inch of your house. I used to think that kids were annoying until I had my own children, now I think they are okay. Do you have any children?

It is too short, which makes me really sad. I feel like Winter sort of lingers on and on, just like Summer, which I really, really don’t like. Heat and I are so not friends and will never be friends for a very obvious reason. I do like Disney! I just never have the time, which is the real thing. I’m always traveling, filming. I feel like I work more than I actually relax, but that’s all I know what to do, so. If I get some time, I’d really like that to be honest. Cookies are my weakness, how’d you know that? Haha. I don’t have kids, actually. My dog is my four-legged fur baby for now, but eventually, I’d love to have kids. How many do you have?

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a second meeting?

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dxisridley·:

as soon as he was moving away from her, daisy bit her lip, dropping the smile that wasn’t quite fake but wasn’t quite real, either. she wondered if it even mattered. at one point, the two of them had known each other so well, and she could guess that he probably wasn’t fooled. still, he didn’t call her on it, and she was thankful for it.  

it was somehow easier to breathe with his back turned to her, busy fixing up tea while her eyes stayed fixed on him. if daisy’s smile had been more polite than genuine, adam’s question felt like little more than small talk in return. but the compliment was nice, and did make her blush just a little, thinking about him watching her film. “thank you,” she murmured, voice low as he shuffled back into the living room, still watching him as he went. “everything’s…yeah, everything’s been good.”

daisy was so lost in herself for a moment, she didn’t realize he was looking back at her, didn’t notice him moving closer until he was right in front of her. and then just like that, he was touching her too, a hand on her jaw, and it was enough to bring back a world of memories of being this close to him, and closer. and when what he said really hit her, adam couldn’t have missed the hitch of her breath. she didn’t know what she’d expected from this visit; she’d stayed up late worrying about it, but ultimately had no idea. this, though? definitely caught her off guard.

which was why it took her a moment to begin to respond, just looking back at adam while she tilted her head just slightly into his touch, almost automatically. “oh,” was all she said at first, softly. a million thoughts raced through daisy’s head, absolutely clueless of how to proceed from where they currently stood. and some part of her wanted to take the apology and start to move forward. but her aries sun didn’t ever make her good at letting things go. “for everything?”

she stepped just far enough sideways to break the contact, crossing her arms over her chest, defensive body language that reflected how out of her depth she was feeling, and tried to gather her thoughts. “i cried for months over you,” she told him, and it was simply a fact that slipped out before daisy could stop it. it also wasn’t the whole truth, which is that she cried over him for longer than that. “you just…left me, and didn’t ever say a word.” it wasn’t bitter, and it wasn’t said out of spite, but there were so many unexpressed emotions still left over in daisy, and with no closure between the two of them, they were all starting to spill out.

Adam watched her smile fall from the corner of his eyes. He didn't say anything though in return, just merely continued the action he was doing. He knew that there were probably countless times of smiles being torn away because of him, and it made his heart sink deeper into the depths of his chest, barely hanging on by a thread. It made him feel like the embodiment of pure evil to tug away such a delightful smile, but he wrangled that feeling, pushing it down deeper within himself to deal with later.

When he heard her speaking so quietly, so meekly, it hit him like a ton of bricks. He couldn't help the expression of frustration that washed over his usual stoic features. Underneath it all, he knew he still needed her, he always did, and he knows that's exactly why his marriage had come crumbling down before him. He took a second, breath shaky as he felt his eyes burning slightly, mildly unaware that he was about to cry. He usually didn't, but this was three years of emotional downcast coming to a rupture.

It was doomed from the beginning, he loved Joanne at one point, he did, he swears up and down but there was a fleeting moment when Daisy had entered, that things shifted, it all changed. She did this, so beautifully, so effortlessly. It was a silent tug that she always held over him. He noticed her breath had hitched, and his eyes shifted toward her mouth, watching in silence as he listened to her, what he should've done from the beginning. It was hard, because this was the exact thing he had been inadverently running from, but he knew one day he'd have to stand there, listening to the demons and voices taunt him, but he'd do it, because he'd do anything for Daisy if she asked.

"Everything," he replied, voice soft and calm. He didn't want to react too much, as if she was too fragile and would wither away beneath his fingertips. He watched her move away, which he didn't blame her for and let his hand drift down to his own front pockets, both hands tucking themselves in as he looked down at the hardwood floors, eyes clouded with thought. He seemed to be doing a lot of that lately, especially with the end of the trilogy coming up. He knows that Oscar had noticed, and he felt mildly guilty for it all, but Adam was someone to hold onto things deeply, and concealed them to do away with at a later date.

"I know I did," he responded, glancing up to see her becoming defensive, recoiling away from him. It hurt straight down to his core, and he could only stand there, letting her finally have her moment to unleash her inner demons that he was the puppeteer behind. "I'm so sorry. You know that? I worried about what everyone would think. That I was less of a man that I thought I was. I was afraid of admitting what I felt for you. I always had this ideal it was just a fling, but it wasn't. At least I don't think it was," he exhaled, swallowing down a lump that seemed to form within his throat.

"You never left my mind, you know? I just want you to know that. Ask Oscar, too. He can testify that I genuinely cried for you, too." He hesitated for a moment, wondering if his next words were smart, but this was about closure, overcoming the past and letting things come down to a restful slumber. "I still do. Cry for you. Care for you. All of it."

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( text ) i mean, i guess..? no idea what that has to do with jodie but ( text ) i’m KIDDING. ( text ) happy birthday, jellybean. overnighted THE best gift ever since siri didn’t remind me till yesterday..... smh

{text} I’m about to be a little sad if you don’t.

{text} GOOD. I was about to shed a big tear if you didn't.

{text} Do you genuinely not know my birthday? I know yours. Maybe I'm just too much of a soft guy in that way. But fuck yeah, I’m stoked.

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* 𝓉𝑒𝓍𝓉 𝓂𝑒𝓈𝓈𝒶𝑔𝑒 ↬ adumb

brendon: maybe i'm born with it? maybe it's maybelline?

brendon: HORRIBLE. blocked & reported /:

brendon: ashley? 😂 how the fuck

brendon: i should work at starbucks. i'd spell everyone's name wrong just for shits

brendon: isn't razzles a disease on sims too

brendon: i still don't know what that means. astrology hasn't ever & will never make sense to me

brendon: hard, yes (~:

brendon: you ARE slacking, dingus. i'm not even gonna be back in the area for a while after i leave next week so /: december it is

Adam: I think you were definitely born with it, Bren.

Adam: Wow. :/ Gonna make this go from blue to green? Shit hurts.

Adam: I don't know, honestly.

Adam: Please no. That sounds AWFUL. You just laughing so loud and backflipping whilst making drinks. Chaos at it's finest!

Adam: Is it? I haven't played that in a while.

Adam: I don't either. I'm just repeating whatever has been said to me. I do like looking at stars though. Romantic, maybe?

Adam: I'm ON MY WAY. Hush up and let me in when I'm out of this damn car.

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hwf-irwin‌:

What is time management? Cause I don’t think I’ll ever have the ability to manage it properly. Santa hanging off a roof sounds hilarious though. Also a heart attack for those driving by. I love it. It speaks to me.

I wish I genuinely knew because I and you both would be in a better place, I’m sure of it if we did. I’m 36, and I still don’t know anything at all about time management. I’m surprised I managed to get by so long without it. I do think the military sort of helped though. It was pretty funny, honestly. Honestly, I feel that. I’m scared to think of a blond version of me. Can you picture that?