plot twist

Aerish. Potato. Dentist in progress. Philippines.

[thelovejournals]

I knew that what was left of me would always love you, but never in quite the same way.

F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned (via thelovejournals)

[aeaeaerish]

grabe i was ~happy heart~ talaga tapos ganoin ???? ????? ??????????????????

[thelovewhisperer]

I think the problem is that I’m stuck waiting for him to do something, to make a move, to say theperfect thing. And the problem is that I shouldn’t be that girl, the one who sits and waits for him. I should be independent. I should think clearly and consistently without having my mind jump straight back to him. Falling for someone like that is the hardest thing to do, and the stupidest thing is that the thing standing in my way is fear of losing him, the fear of rejection, the fear that I might lose a friend that means everything to me. I want to be everything to him, but I’m not.

Quotes about this girl falling for you (via thelovewhisperer)

[tullipsink]

It’s almost as if we never really happened at all.

A.M.// you left and you’re okay while im not (via tullipsink)

[coral]

Don’t you think there is always something unspoken between two people?

[confusedwithhell]

[love-you-and-i-us]

[stuff-from-web]

[aeaeaerish]

Hi. My life is falling apart. I don't know why, what to fix, where to start, what to plan, what to do, what to look forward into. I can't help myself so definitely, no one can help me as well. I do appreciate to be kept surrounded by the people who loves me and i have no doubts on losing them. But, God help me clear my mind, my path, my troubles. I am so close on giving up my entire life but no. And yes. It is THAT worse that i sort of think of that idea. If you would like to know what all of this is about, i really don't know what to tell you exactly. I don't know where to start and i don't think i could put into words my main problems and what frustrates me. Every passing days, i tend to survive this dilemma. And if you ever wonder how am i doing? I am really good at pretending I GOT THIS. You could see me laughing with you with all my funny shits in life. I would even give you life advices, and you could talk to me all day about everything. And I, myself don't know how i do that. It is so hard to believe in myself. It is so hard to cheer yourself up when you already lose yourself. I still do know I can do this and this will pass. I always remind myself this is just a tiny hardship in life and there are LOT to come. I should know how to handle this. But i really don't know. AT ALL.

[aeaeaerish]

Ayoko na po talaga

[aeaeaerish]

3 years!!!

[boys-and-suicide-deactivated201]

[randytemple-deactivated20180205]

There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind.

C.S.Lewis (via randytemple)

[nursery-deactivated20160926]

me: *talks for 30 minute straight on a subject no one cares about just because i love sharing information*

[aeaeaerish]

Next year gusto ko na maging #noragrets sa mga bagay bagay at mag detach sa mga tao. (Dito lang to para maalala ko to as new year's resolution at kung tungkol nga ba san to) Shet gusto ko magkwento ngayon pero maya na

[heartsnmagic]

[aeaeaerish]

Wassup

Lagpas 3 weeks na kong ganto pota so many major ganaps in mah lyf i can’t handle anymore

Swear… I can’t handle na. Naapektuhan na lahat. 3 times a week lang ako pumapasok sa school late pa lahat. Duty ko pero lakompake wtf. Hindi naman sa nawawalan na ko ng gana, pero nawawalan na ko ng gana. Thanks to commotions, challenges, difficulty and tragedies in my life!! 🙃 you win! Tama ka! Mahina nga ako. At tama ka ulit, wala nga kong magawa! Well, i always have people around me na di naman ako iniiwan sa landas na to. Ito talaga ang legit thanks! Pero sorry guys, sad to say di nyo talaga ko matutulungan kasi d ko rin matulungan sarili ko. I always tell people, don’t be hard on yourself.. Look on the bright side.. God has better plan.. Wait for the certainty.. etc… - basta abt positivity (pero syempre tagalog) pero eto ko ngayon naubos ko na ata lahat ng positivity sa katawan ko at verses sa Bible na makakapag lift up sakin, pero surprise!! Mukhang gago pa rin ako sa buhay ko. Lol yoko na. Yup, i may look calm at parang tawa lang ng tawa everytime pero iwas na iwas na ko sa “kamusta ka na?” Kasi in the back of my mind gusto ko talagang magreply ng “gusto ko ng mamatay” at seryosohin yung reply ko.